I think in some cases suicidal people are behind them. Lol. But I also know counterexamples.
My dad made an inappropriate joke about someone who committed suicide when i was a child when we played one video game. He made a joke about Robert Enke a German goalkeeper that committed suicide. But my dad also held the convinction that people who commit suicide must be stupid. At least he thought that in the past and he also explained me his "view" on it.To be fair my dad is really dumb and ignorant.
I think I feel comfortable on SaSu because I have to mask way less. On here I can show a lot of things I have to hide in real life. I think I try to extremely controlled and I am very strict in how others could perceive me. I try to avoid any negative interpretations possible. Or I try to address my own self-hatred when opening up about a nasty trait of myself. Like for example in exactly this thread.
I often make tasteless jokes with my friends about a lot of stuff. I am here with Slavoj Zizek that you can make very fucked up jokes if you don't mean it seriously. Considering some conditions. An example Zizek explains he jokes with his Eastern European friends that they rape each other their dead mothers. I know controversial. I think it is very important to consider many factors when making such jokes. There was a dark humor thread in this forum. And I have to say the humor was as extreme as it could get and I was in favor of deleting it. The issue on the internet. You don't know the audience. And there are bad actors who use such jokes to make it acceptable in our society to spread racism, anti-semitism, hate crimes of all kinds. I sometimes like politicially incorrect jokes. I grew up with The Boondocks. But I would not do politically incorret jokes with people who actually be in favor of politically incorrect policies and all of this anti-woke bullshit.
I have sometimes a crazy humor with friends. I have some limits and often either my friends should get annoyed and teased or I am the butt of the joke. But I would never tease them on an issue where they were actually insecure about. I would never do that. My jokes should not hurt anyone. And I actually I don't think I harm anyone if applying certain standards and when all people understand them as jokes. I can only make such jokes when I know the people are good people. There are some constraints I have and maybe this fact makes me a hypocrite. But I am not sure. For example if I was part of a certain minority I would understand making jokes about the own community. I don't say that only the things I joke about should be universally acceptable.
I was at a party with friends. And I cracked one fucked up joke about suicide. It wasn't refering to anyone in this forum. But I am not sure why I dropped this joke. I like the shock factor. But honestly there is a thought I had that felt similar to one that David Foster Wallace had. He wanted his loved ones to know that he deserved dying by suicide. Currently I hide my suicidalit more in front of my friends. And I struggle to do that. I am not sure I had the feeling I want them to remember me also with this joke. But it is really ambivalent. Maybe a cry of help. Or that I cope with dark humor. But when I commit suicide in the future and they look back at our time I sort of want them to wonder what was going in my mind in all this time. Maybe I wanted them to know there is something off and that I have really dark thoughts even if I don't show them. I think my friends cannot really imagine what it would be like if they lost me. Because I often don't show them the abyss. ANd maybe they would feel worse thinking I actually liked my life or it wasn't that bad. They once told me something like that.
My dad made an inappropriate joke about someone who committed suicide when i was a child when we played one video game. He made a joke about Robert Enke a German goalkeeper that committed suicide. But my dad also held the convinction that people who commit suicide must be stupid. At least he thought that in the past and he also explained me his "view" on it.To be fair my dad is really dumb and ignorant.
I think I feel comfortable on SaSu because I have to mask way less. On here I can show a lot of things I have to hide in real life. I think I try to extremely controlled and I am very strict in how others could perceive me. I try to avoid any negative interpretations possible. Or I try to address my own self-hatred when opening up about a nasty trait of myself. Like for example in exactly this thread.
I often make tasteless jokes with my friends about a lot of stuff. I am here with Slavoj Zizek that you can make very fucked up jokes if you don't mean it seriously. Considering some conditions. An example Zizek explains he jokes with his Eastern European friends that they rape each other their dead mothers. I know controversial. I think it is very important to consider many factors when making such jokes. There was a dark humor thread in this forum. And I have to say the humor was as extreme as it could get and I was in favor of deleting it. The issue on the internet. You don't know the audience. And there are bad actors who use such jokes to make it acceptable in our society to spread racism, anti-semitism, hate crimes of all kinds. I sometimes like politicially incorrect jokes. I grew up with The Boondocks. But I would not do politically incorret jokes with people who actually be in favor of politically incorrect policies and all of this anti-woke bullshit.
I have sometimes a crazy humor with friends. I have some limits and often either my friends should get annoyed and teased or I am the butt of the joke. But I would never tease them on an issue where they were actually insecure about. I would never do that. My jokes should not hurt anyone. And I actually I don't think I harm anyone if applying certain standards and when all people understand them as jokes. I can only make such jokes when I know the people are good people. There are some constraints I have and maybe this fact makes me a hypocrite. But I am not sure. For example if I was part of a certain minority I would understand making jokes about the own community. I don't say that only the things I joke about should be universally acceptable.
I was at a party with friends. And I cracked one fucked up joke about suicide. It wasn't refering to anyone in this forum. But I am not sure why I dropped this joke. I like the shock factor. But honestly there is a thought I had that felt similar to one that David Foster Wallace had. He wanted his loved ones to know that he deserved dying by suicide. Currently I hide my suicidalit more in front of my friends. And I struggle to do that. I am not sure I had the feeling I want them to remember me also with this joke. But it is really ambivalent. Maybe a cry of help. Or that I cope with dark humor. But when I commit suicide in the future and they look back at our time I sort of want them to wonder what was going in my mind in all this time. Maybe I wanted them to know there is something off and that I have really dark thoughts even if I don't show them. I think my friends cannot really imagine what it would be like if they lost me. Because I often don't show them the abyss. ANd maybe they would feel worse thinking I actually liked my life or it wasn't that bad. They once told me something like that.
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