Every time i try to kill myself i feel better which stop me to do it

[invisiblesuffering]

My brain is playing games with me. Where was this ok feeling when i wanted to live? Its seems like my brain realise that im going kill myself so it decide to save me. I was going to do it. i was certain. I felt very calm no anxiety which made me not do it.

 

[trappedinthislife]

Lots of hugs to you my friend (if you're ok with that). Yeah, I also hate how much our brain play games with us. Our body is built to avoid CTB at all costs and it sucks so much. I wish I can just somehow command my heart to stop beating or something.

 

[invisiblesuffering]

Lots of hugs to you my friend (if you're ok with that). Yeah, I also hate how much our brain play games with us. Our body is built to avoid CTB at all costs and it sucks so much. I wish I can just somehow command my heart to stop beating or something.

hugs to you too. There is a mental wall that I need to break. Some people have hard time to do it. But that doesn't mean they don't want to die im thinking about suicide months.its not that I don't know if i can't get better but more like i don't know if i want to get better.

 

[assisted]

harold and maude

 

[Unknown21]

My brain is playing games with me. Where was this ok feeling when i wanted to live? Its seems like my brain realise that im going kill myself so it decide to save me. I was going to do it. i was certain. I felt very calm no anxiety which made me not do it.

I have the same problem, my mind is playing with me.