Early goodbye

[KleinerWolf]

This an early goodbye thread.
I've made up my mind to die by sn with only ibuprofen 1 hour early to the sn drink.

I will most likely ctb between 8th/9th but no later than the 12th this month.
I will start organising a final clean of my room, laundry, delayed emails, song list, electronic wipe, and these miscellaneous things.

my reason to commit suicide is because being a Chinese citizen is inhumane,
I've struggled for 10 years hoping for skilled migration to save me but it didn't work out.
I've decided that I would prefer to die in New Zealand than going back to a communist oppression country where no freedom exists.

anyhow, this thread should serve the purpose of saying goodbyes,
As I will only post a brief thread on the day of my suicide and won't be reading as many comments by then.

You have been an amazing community where I received emotional support, as well as a more peaceful method for exit compared to my original method.

so thanks again.
I wish you all the best in your journey whether it is recovery or ctb.
Godspeed.

Much love to you all,
KleinerWolf,
Till the end of eternity.

 

[botanormal]

I am so sorry your situation is so difficult, you deserve so much more than this. I respect your decision to ctb, and I hope you have a comfortable journey, if it is truly your final decision. You have been a wonderful member of this community, and you deserve to find some peace. Good luck with everything, I hope it goes the way you want it to! Thank you for posting this, and much love to you too. I'm sending you the biggest hugs right now.

 

[user398417]

Nobody knows when that 'see you soon' it can really be goodbye.
- goodbye forever.

 

[ohhgeeitsme]

I wish the world was a better place for you. I hope you finally find peace, however that may come. All my love

 

[WornOutLife]

Oh my dear wolf-kun,

I'm gonna miss you so much! We've talked a few times and I realized you're an amazing guy.

I'm so sorry about China's situation! I wish you could move to another country but things don't always go as planned I guess.

Anyway, if this is what you really want I can do nothing but wish you peace! I'm sure you'll find it. Also, it's good you have a plan. I'm glad you're not being impulsive.

Send you lots of hugs and love and we might see each other again, who knows?

Matt

 

[Good4Nothing]

I'll miss having you around. I wish things could have worked out for you.
Fare well, friend.

 

[aminend]

I hope peaceful transition for u. Keep us updated as much as u can

 

[Amumu]

I love you Wolf. You're an amazing person. Life has been unfair to you.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I love you Wolf. You're an amazing person. Life has been unfair to you.

Danke,
Hab dich auch lieb für immer @Amumu ..

 

[demuic]

I hope you have a peaceful journey.

 

[deleted]

I understand you our country sucks, if I could blow it all up, I wish good luck friend

 

[GoingMyOwnWay]

Knowing that there was someone else in my country on this forum made me feel a bit better, so thank you for that. Knowing the reasons for your decision, it's sad and unfair. You just want to be able to stay in the country you now think of as home!

Hope to chat with you in the group chat more before you ctb. Lots of love <3

 

[Abir_london]

I'm so sorry life has been so cruel for you

 

[woknows]

Is there no option to ask for asylum or something? China does like to crack down on different groups of people. Maybe you can also pretend to belong to one such group.

 

[Abir_london]

Is there no option to ask for asylum or something? China does like to crack down on different groups of people. Maybe you can also pretend to belong to one such group.

Exactly
Try again
Don't give up just yet

 

[KleinerWolf]

Is there no option to ask for asylum or something? China does like to crack down on different groups of people. Maybe you can also pretend to belong to one such group.

I haven't been daring enough to voice my opinions publicly other than on western media.

I feel like I haven't been vulnerable enough to be protected or qualify for refugee. I've mostly been a political mute. Since I've been relatively quiet, they have not noticed me enough to prosecute me or cause me immediate physical harm, despite me being a danger to myself for not wanting to go back, I presume it appears kinda "voluntary" and lesser priority in terms of refugee processing.

I've been thinking about applying refugee but I feel like my chances are not promising.

I tried to call immigration today they were on the line didn't get through. I feel like a political beggar.
I'm not sure if it's worth submitting a formal application.

I cannot imagine what it's like to get approved.

 

[stygal]

 

[Abir_london]

I haven't been daring enough to voice my opinions publicly other than on western media.

I feel like I haven't been vulnerable enough to be protected or qualify for refugee. I've mostly been a political mute. Since I've been relatively quiet, they have not noticed me enough to prosecute me or cause me immediate physical harm, despite me being a danger to myself for not wanting to go back, I presume it appears kinda "voluntary" and lesser priority in terms of refugee processing.

I've been thinking about applying refugee but I feel like my chances are not promising.

I tried to call immigration today they were on the line didn't get through. I feel like a political beggar.
I don't know if it's worth submitting a formal application.

I can never imagine what it's like to get approved.

Try everything before you decide to ctb

 

[KleinerWolf]

Try everything before you decide to ctb

Right, tomorrow I'll ring free legal advice in my country of residence and ask them for some basic advice regarding the refugee criteria and my chances.

im so disheartened, my ctb plan remain in place more or less.
I'm not super hopeful about this >.< if I'm being honest.

 

[whywere]

If the main reason to ctb, is staying in New Zealand , then please try all possible avenues first. I really care for you as a global family member and I want the best for you. All my love and empathy that I have goes out to you in the hope that you can live where you want. Walter

 

[KleinerWolf]

Right, tomorrow I'll ring free legal advice in my country of residence and ask them for some basic advice regarding the refugee criteria and my chances.

im so disheartened, my ctb plan remain in place more or less.
I'm not super hopeful about this >.< if I'm being honest.

I'm legit so exhausted that I could probably take my sn drink as long as I've fasted.
I kinda dread applying for refugee.
Chances are very slim.
Not sure how I feel about this one.

 

[StateOfMind]

I wish you Godspeed!

Btw. do you have an overt fascination for the German language?

 

[eternaltroubador]

Right, tomorrow I'll ring free legal advice in my country of residence and ask them for some basic advice regarding the refugee criteria and my chances.

im so disheartened, my ctb plan remain in place more or less.
I'm not super hopeful about this >.< if I'm being honest.

I hope youre able to apply and get accepted as a refugee. Definitely try everything before ctb. If it doesnt work out and you continue with your plan, I hope your journey is peaceful and tranquil I've only spoken to you a short time, but I can tell youre a really amazing person.

 

[Shadowrider]

I'm legit so exhausted that I could probably take my sn drink as long as I've fasted.
I kinda dread applying for refugee.
Chances are very slim.
Not sure how I feel about this one.

Please, try EVERYTHING before catching the bus.
I see how hopeless your situation is - mine is a little bit similar but not as serious as yours -, but I recommend what others do: please, give yourself a chance and do what you can!
You seem to be a good and kind person. And I admire your German skills! (I suck at German, you see.)
You deserve to find reasons to stay alive.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I've enjoyed your company/posts since you joined. I know you've been battling this immigration thing for a while now. I'm sorry it hasn't been working out for you. We're here for ya man in whatever you decide to do

 

[Zhontafly]

You'll be missed around here dude (originally StrokemyEgobaby)! I am sad to see that you are really doing this because you feel trapped by the oppressive commie Chinese gov. I too have some issues with governments in the form of financial issues, both here in Germany cause of their soc welfare system and with the US because of their financial tracking, tracing and taxation on citizens living abroad, I am also marked as a mentally disturbed person.
Anyway, I hope you can find a way out and find somewhere to stay in this manic western world. If I could pull strings for you here in Germany I would but yeah, sadly I dont have that clout. Fingers crossed for you und Daumen gedrückt.

Best of luck and peace.

 

[Silver]

I'm sorry you've come to this point but I'm glad you are taking steps to investigate refuge. Surely if you're at risk of suicide if you repatriate to your home country, that would make you vulnerable and eligible to remain?

 

[Acopia]

It breaks my heart that this is how the situation ends for you.
I am so sorry.
-A.

 

[Thanatonaut]

I'm so sorry it has come to this. I wish you peace in whatever journey you end up taking, my friend.

 

[SkarletWitch]

Ah, it will be a loss for comunnity, but we all stand with you.
Good luck.