Venting drinking is the only thing that i enjoy anymore

[livefastdieyoung]

im drunk as i type this LMFAO

but yeah ive been drinking almost everyday for the past few weeks. i dont even care anymore bro. i tell myself i will stop, but then something slightly upsets me and i think "yep im gonna drink tonight".

please dont try and give me advice or try to make me quit, i truly appreciate it, but its not what i need right now. ive just accepted this is who i am.

hey, better than SH right? sometimes i do that too oops!

sorry i have no idea why im posting this. i just feel so tired all the time. it really never gets better!!! anyways, does anyone else use this to cope im curious. i keep putting off buying equipment to test my method, i dont know why. maybe next paycheck i will actually do it. i want friends. nobody really cares anyway. this is so stupid, i am so stupid!!!

this site has become my only source of comfort. thank you all! (please be my friend)

gooooooodbye !

 

[bankai]

And I have to get into a thread about drinking.'Cause that's all I've been doing every day lol,

That was until two weeks ago. So last week I set a rule for myself saying I wouldn't drink on weekdays anymore. But I would on weekends. And I've been doing that for the last two weeks.

Yeah, you won't really get any stern advice from me. The weekday thing is working for me though. I think drinking is mostly done in phases. And I think eventually you'll know when to quit unless it turns into full blown alcoholism.
Now my biggest challenge is getting all these empty bottles of rum out of my house without anyone finding out

 

[unluckysadness]

My old doctor once told me "thankfully people are addicted to alcohol !" This sentence shocked me.

How can a doctor say such a thing? It took me years to understand what he meant: if being addicted allows you to survive, then it's better than dying or self harm. So you don't have to feel guilty about drinking, it's the only way your brain has found to survive in the chaos of life.

I'm not addicted to alcohol or drugs for now but my female cousin does SH and drinks alcohol and she feels so bad. I think we are just born unlucky. That's so unfair. Hugs to every addicts who will read this post

 

[livefastdieyoung]

And I have to get into a thread about drinking.'Cause that's all I've been doing every day lol,

That was until two weeks ago. So last week I set a rule for myself saying I wouldn't drink on weekdays anymore. But I would on weekends. And I've been doing that for the last two weeks.

Yeah, you won't really get any stern advice from me. The weekday thing is working for me though. I think drinking is mostly done in phases. And I think eventually you'll know when to quit unless it turns into full blown alcoholism.
Now my biggest challenge is getting all these empty bottles of rum out of my house without anyone finding out

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thank you man, and i didnt mean to shade you in anyway. i know you tried to help on my last post, i just didnt want you to waste words on me. i am a lost fucking cause.

i dont even know what to say anymore. it is the only thing that helps but also does not. ive been SH'ing tonight as well. i just feel hopeless. im so so so tired of holding on.

thank you for responding it means alot to me.

My old doctor once told me "thankfully people are addicted to alcohol !" This sentence shocked me.

How can a doctor say such a thing? It took me years to understand what he meant: if being addicted allows you to survive, then it's better than dying or self harm. So you don't have to feel guilty about drinking, it's the only way your brain has found to survive in the chaos of life.

I'm not addicted to alcohol or drugs for now but my female cousin does SH and drinks alcohol and she feels so bad. I think we are just born unlucky. That's so unfair. Hugs to every addicts who will read this post

thank you !!! i literally was thinking about this. i think about this all the time. "id rather see my friend addicted than dead" i saw a friend of a coke addict say that once. it always stuck with me.

this misery we call life, we must find any fucking joy in it. or hope. or anything.

i am so so so miserable. i relate alot to your female cousin ive begun an SH addiction too. i just simply dont care anymore. we are 100% born unlucky. i was born to an unloving mother and father who will never understand me and never really tried to. ive decided this is my fate. i hope i get the courage to end my life because i am SO tired holy shit.

wishing the best for you!