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bobpork

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Sep 23, 2024
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I was wondering if anyone else had any big ambitions in life when they were younger, (or now tho that's unlikely considering where we are lol) and realized that they simply were not good enough to compete at the high levels. I don't want to go into specifics but now I just don't really want to do anything. I don't want kids I don't want a family or anything, i don't understand what's so great about living? What do people enjoy?
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
666
When I was like 11 I used to be obsessed with the idea of becoming an expert chef working for Gordon Ramsay. I used to watch Hell's Kitchen religiously, and I was a very impressionable little guy. Obviously, I dumped those dreams a year later

When I was like 12/13 though I developed the dream of becoming a successful actor on broadway and stuff. I got inspired by my friends at the time who were a lot more theater obsessed than I was. At the time, I thought I was pretty talented, but after seeing just how cringe and pathetic I was compared to other people, I decided it wasn't worth it. Not like I could ever be that successful anyway.
 
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Mr. Snrub

Mr. Snrub

Specialist
Aug 10, 2025
318
Paleontologist :pfff:
 
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The Unanswered Q

The Unanswered Q

Student
Jan 1, 2025
129
Pretty sure everybody had completely unrealistic goals as a kid. How many people do you think there are that do their childhood dream job? Used to want to be a game designer, but then actually tried programming and realised could never do it xD
 
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QuincyME

QuincyME

Student
Feb 23, 2024
121
I'm dating myself, but after watching QuincyME with Jack Klugman, I wanted to be a medical examiner. Actually came close in a weird way.
 
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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
I wanted to be another Edgar Allen Poe or Stephen King.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,849
I never had a specific dream of a career. I had two conceptual dreams as long and as far back as I can remember:

1. Have a partner. A girlfriend, wife, and ultimately a family of my own.
2. Have enough money that I could live and support my family comfortably AND be wealthy enough beyond that to be able to start a foundation and contribute positively, measurably, to other people's lives and give them opportunities to have good lives.

My wording/phrasing/imaging of those dreams evolved as my language and experience improved... but conceptually, those have always been my two dreams.

#1 has never even come remotely close and is dead in the water now. I could still have #2 if I win the lottery before it comes time for me to go.
 
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Vlad Tepes

Vlad Tepes

Experienced
Jun 24, 2025
265
Oh man, I used to daydream around the clock as a kid. As you can imagine, I had all these grand dreams, and in particular, I was always really obsessed with romance, and I daydreamed constantly about having a girlfriend. But even as a kid, I realized that these were mere fantasies and that the cards were simply stacked against me. As I've gotten older, my pessimism has only been confirmed further. I was born to suffer. Nobody will ever love me.
Paleontologist :pfff:
Nice profile picture, my man.
 
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Monomni

Member
Aug 15, 2025
11
This probably sounds unbelievable but when I was a kid my dream was to die lmao. When I was 6, I planned out my whole life's trajectory. I was going to get all A's, go to high school, get a minimum wage job, live off of nothing but plain sandwiches to save money, go to college, and once I finished college I waa going to kill myself.

I planned it out this way so nobody could say that I had disappointed them, or hadn't done what I was "supposed" to do. My actual life panned out very differently (I stopped going to school in 6th grade), and the only true goal or ambition I've ever had has been to make others happy. It's not a job, but it's the one thing I've ever wanted.
 
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iwantitover

iwantitover

Member
Jun 19, 2025
30
I was wondering if anyone else had any big ambitions in life when they were younger, (or now tho that's unlikely considering where we are lol) and realized that they simply were not good enough to compete at the high levels. I don't want to go into specifics but now I just don't really want to do anything. I don't want kids I don't want a family or anything, i don't understand what's so great about living? What do people enjoy?
When I was a kid I wanted to move to America study medicine and become a general practitioner with my own clinic as I got older I got put in a special ed school and pretty much had no hope of becoming a doctor im meant to be starting community college in September but Intended on ctb in late August
 
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fallendevil

fallendevil

Horrible Woman
Oct 6, 2024
790
I still do and that's why I'm alive

Life is too short to do absolutely nothing
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,497
I am affectet by the wrong planet syndrome
I have always felt like a stranger
in society, with other children and within my own family
I have never understood people
money or material things have never meant anything to me
I also could not understand other peoples desire to work to buy status symbols
from a very early age everything seemed pointless to me
 
nool

nool

He who has not tasted grapes says sour
Aug 17, 2025
117
I don't think I've ever had any career goals as a kid. I probably thought about careers and was like "that's cool," but I never thought about actually pursuing anything. Any thought about a career was surface level at best. I guess I've just never been amibitious. Still, as a kid I just knew I wanted to be rich. No plans on how I'd actually become rich, but still just wanting to have money to do anything I wanted. But who doesn't wanna be rich?
 

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