Venting missing those who’ve wronged me

[lacedup]

i find myself often missing those who've groomed in the past, even when i was kid. i sometimes even miss the people who've sa'd me. and physically abused me. i feel disgusting, i know i just crave attention. i always want it, and i find myself doing anything for it. i'll talk to people i don't really like just for it. i'm beyond selfish, i don't deserve my life.

whenever i'm alone i just want them to come back to me , even if it's been years. i'm attached to so many people i shouldn't be.
and then 2 seconds later i hate them LOL
fml

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I have the same feelings toward the so-called friends who backstabbed me recently. I guess there were also lots of good memories that make us miss them once in a while. But yeah in general, fuck those cunts

 

[fluorescentpearl]

It's normal for a victim to miss their groomer / abuser, it's only natural, after they made themselves such a huge part of your life and took everything else away from you, your own nervous system begins to falter and "need them" almost
It doesn't make uu gross at all, it's sadly natural : (