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CursedSoul
Cursed to stay, Cursed to Suffer...
- Jun 4, 2022
- 69
i'm writing this thread because man....
* I wake up
* feel a presence in my bed, it's my girlfriend
* cuddle her while she is still asleep for a good hour
* get up, go prepare breakfast, pet my cat downstairs and give her favorite food, a smile drawn on my face as she purrs from seeing me, getting pets and eating some good cat treat
* breakfast is finally done, some nice coffee with milk like i love, 3 sugar because i'm all about SUGAR man haha.
* go upstairs, wake up GF, she is happy and surprised, thanks me profusely, gives me a kiss, we enjoy our breakfast in bed together, very cozy and comfy.
* finally decide to go on the pc, log in discord, launch steam, see my favorite games with the updates we waited for, log in to 2 messages, it's my friends that ask me and my gf to join the group
to play all together
* me and gf launches our pc, join our buds on discord, we have a great time, my cat jumps on my desk, so it's cool, i can pet her when i'm dead ingame, having a laugh with buds and joking.
* open my minifridge, get some energy drinks, some monsters, my favorite man :)
* we play all day, it becomes late, GF wants some PEGI 18+, after it's done, cuddle and go sleep together, what a great day today, can't wait to see what tomorrow has to offer.
* fall asleep.
X- WAKE UP
X - IT WAS ALL A FUCKING DREAM
X- WAKE UP TO 0 MESSAGES, REMEMBER MY GF IS MY EX THAT LEFT ME BECAUSE SHE WAS TIRED OF MY ILLNESSES
X- REMEMBER MY FRIENDS, THEY ALL LEFT AS WELL
X- ABSOLUTELY FEEL LIKE IM ABOUT DO DIE BECAUSE MY DEPRESSION FUCKS UP MY BODY (to the point i cough blood sometimes)
X- FATHER BARGES IN, SCREAMING AT ME THAT I BECAME A DEPRESSED SLUG WITH NO FUTURE, THAT I'L NEVER GET A JOB AND SUCCEED IN LIFE IF I DON'T GET BETTER AND SLEEP ALL DAY (it was 3pm)
X- MY ROOM IS AN ABSOLUTE MESS, BOTTLE AND CANS EVERYWHERE BECAUSE DEPRESSION CRIPPLES ME TO THE POINT I CAN'T CLEAN UP AND HATE LIVING IN THIS SHIT
X- GO MAKE COFFEE, ALMOST TRIP IN STAIRS OUT OF THE DIZZINESS AND HEAD RINGING, IT TASTES FUCKING BAD
X- LAUNCH DISCORD, SEE MY 3 FRIENDS, WHEN I SUSPECT ONE ACTUALLY COMMITED SUICIDE, HE DOESNT ANSWER ANYMORE
X- PLAY ALONE, PTSD COMES IN, THOUGHTS OF ME DYING ALONE, REMEMBERING THE NICE DREAM I HAD, REMINDING THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE THIS IN MY LIFE
X- FULLY KNOW THAT THE PAIN WILL TRULY END WHEN I WILL SUICIDE, AND I'M SURE THAT WHEN I WILL FINALLY DIE, IT WILL BE FROM EXCRUTIATING PAIN AND SUFFERING.
why does my brain does this to me ? "X-" content actually happened today, WHY ?! does any of you gets absolutely trolled by dreams like that ? It's been 4 weeks i at least dream once a week of scenarios like this, actually believing it's real, for me to wake up and live my shitty life again. Feel free to post your brain absolutelly memeing you/similar experiences/debate/laugh, everything is welcome, thanks for reading.
Fuck this life, and fuck god for doing this to me. I'm cursed bro.
* I wake up
* feel a presence in my bed, it's my girlfriend
* cuddle her while she is still asleep for a good hour
* get up, go prepare breakfast, pet my cat downstairs and give her favorite food, a smile drawn on my face as she purrs from seeing me, getting pets and eating some good cat treat
* breakfast is finally done, some nice coffee with milk like i love, 3 sugar because i'm all about SUGAR man haha.
* go upstairs, wake up GF, she is happy and surprised, thanks me profusely, gives me a kiss, we enjoy our breakfast in bed together, very cozy and comfy.
* finally decide to go on the pc, log in discord, launch steam, see my favorite games with the updates we waited for, log in to 2 messages, it's my friends that ask me and my gf to join the group
to play all together
* me and gf launches our pc, join our buds on discord, we have a great time, my cat jumps on my desk, so it's cool, i can pet her when i'm dead ingame, having a laugh with buds and joking.
* open my minifridge, get some energy drinks, some monsters, my favorite man :)
* we play all day, it becomes late, GF wants some PEGI 18+, after it's done, cuddle and go sleep together, what a great day today, can't wait to see what tomorrow has to offer.
* fall asleep.
X- WAKE UP
X - IT WAS ALL A FUCKING DREAM
X- WAKE UP TO 0 MESSAGES, REMEMBER MY GF IS MY EX THAT LEFT ME BECAUSE SHE WAS TIRED OF MY ILLNESSES
X- REMEMBER MY FRIENDS, THEY ALL LEFT AS WELL
X- ABSOLUTELY FEEL LIKE IM ABOUT DO DIE BECAUSE MY DEPRESSION FUCKS UP MY BODY (to the point i cough blood sometimes)
X- FATHER BARGES IN, SCREAMING AT ME THAT I BECAME A DEPRESSED SLUG WITH NO FUTURE, THAT I'L NEVER GET A JOB AND SUCCEED IN LIFE IF I DON'T GET BETTER AND SLEEP ALL DAY (it was 3pm)
X- MY ROOM IS AN ABSOLUTE MESS, BOTTLE AND CANS EVERYWHERE BECAUSE DEPRESSION CRIPPLES ME TO THE POINT I CAN'T CLEAN UP AND HATE LIVING IN THIS SHIT
X- GO MAKE COFFEE, ALMOST TRIP IN STAIRS OUT OF THE DIZZINESS AND HEAD RINGING, IT TASTES FUCKING BAD
X- LAUNCH DISCORD, SEE MY 3 FRIENDS, WHEN I SUSPECT ONE ACTUALLY COMMITED SUICIDE, HE DOESNT ANSWER ANYMORE
X- PLAY ALONE, PTSD COMES IN, THOUGHTS OF ME DYING ALONE, REMEMBERING THE NICE DREAM I HAD, REMINDING THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE THIS IN MY LIFE
X- FULLY KNOW THAT THE PAIN WILL TRULY END WHEN I WILL SUICIDE, AND I'M SURE THAT WHEN I WILL FINALLY DIE, IT WILL BE FROM EXCRUTIATING PAIN AND SUFFERING.
why does my brain does this to me ? "X-" content actually happened today, WHY ?! does any of you gets absolutely trolled by dreams like that ? It's been 4 weeks i at least dream once a week of scenarios like this, actually believing it's real, for me to wake up and live my shitty life again. Feel free to post your brain absolutelly memeing you/similar experiences/debate/laugh, everything is welcome, thanks for reading.
Fuck this life, and fuck god for doing this to me. I'm cursed bro.