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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
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I sometimes dream that I'm doing CTB , often while jumping, but it doesn't work, so I try again, and each time it doesn't hurt and it's rather pleasant... but I try again... They're beautiful dreams every time... Do you have CTB dreams?
 
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mrk´

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I did have a dream once where I was asking someone else to kill me because I was too afraid to do it myself. Then a few weeks later I had a new dream where I poisoned myself to end it. It's like a progression, what's next?
 
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WrathfulGloom32

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I die in most of my dreams, well 70-80% of them. I did kill myself in them many times, to escape whatever was pursuing me, that was when I was younger, now I just let them play out, haven't screamed from a nightmare since I was 14, I keep trying hoping I will wake up one night shaking and sweating, feeling any sort of fear, nope, I usually just wake up drink water and go back to sleep.

I've been having nightmares and sometimes (when I was younger) daily night terrors since I could dream haha.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
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Why to want to be afraid?
 
WrathfulGloom32

WrathfulGloom32

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Why to want to be afraid?
Being afraid means that you have something dear to lose, a nightmare that would make me feel afraid would mean that I have something to live for/that I'm afraid to lose.
 
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Apr 10, 2025
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I sometimes dream that I'm doing CTB , often while jumping, but it doesn't work, so I try again, and each time it doesn't hurt and it's rather pleasant... but I try again... They're beautiful dreams every time... Do you have CTB dreams?
I've dreamt of CTB practice, and the method beginning to work fast, tho I stopped in time
 
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MourningFlower

MourningFlower

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Jan 8, 2025
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Yes, and then I get annoyed that I woke up.
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

The future prepared for us is a twisted joke.
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Oh, quite a lot. I often die in my dreams one way or another but there are a some ctb dreams too.

I have this recurring dream where each of my family members, including myself are taking turns hopping into some kind of ctb pod which turns you to ashes within seconds. It's painful and I often end up waking up at this moment.

There's also this dream in which I'm jumping off a really tall building and the people down there are telling me to do it. As soon as my feet leave the solid rooftop I feel relieved. Blissful. Happy. The dream ends when I hit the ground.

This one's recent and I've had it twice in the past month: I'm in some nostalgic carnival themed room and I'm being administered some kind of fluid (that'll kill me) intravenously. The worker there asks me if I really want to do it and I say yes. Its a peaceful death.
 
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Realog11

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Dec 4, 2025
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I sometimes dream that I'm doing CTB , often while jumping, but it doesn't work, so I try again, and each time it doesn't hurt and it's rather pleasant... but I try again... They're beautiful dreams every time... Do you have CTB dreams?
I had a dream of someone asked me if I wanted to go to heaven or reincarnate back on earth, I also had dreams of me drowning or jumping I'm guessing this would be ways my soul would be ok with
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,164
J'ai rêvé que quelqu'un me demandait si je voulais aller au paradis ou me réincarner sur Terre. J'ai aussi rêvé que je me noyais ou que je sautais. J'imagine que ce sont des façons pour mon âme d'être en paix.
Interesting i dream that i jump but not death
 
Unlucky777

Unlucky777

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Dec 10, 2025
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I dreamt one time over a year ago that I jumped off a bridge over a waterfall trying to drown myself. Mind you, my biggest fear in life is drowning.

Not sure if that was symbolic or whatever. IDK my dreams are weird
 
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