Discussion Dose anyone else fantasize about being kidnapped, raped, and murdered?

[WanderingJerboa]

It's not even just a fantasy, I purposely dress attractively and go for walks alone at night hoping someone will take advantage of me.

 

[daydreamer52]

I do, about getting murdered, a lot, if there was a school shooting or if I were in a shop that is being robbed I wouldn't run, I would approach the person with the gun and do a fast movement with my hands so hopefully he would feel threatened and will shoot me.

 

[WanderingJerboa]

I do, about getting murdered, a lot, if there was a school shooting or if I were in a shop that is being robbed I wouldn't run, I would approach the person with the gun and do a fast movement with my hands so hopefully he would feel threatened and will shoot me.

Lol, I do this with cops sometimes. Like, I don't do anything that can be read as intensional so I don't get arrested but I'll purposely look sus as fuck, then quickly reach into my pocket and pull out my phone.

 

[daydreamer52]

Lol, I do this with cops sometimes. Like, I don't do anything that can be read as intensional so I don't get arrested but I'll purposely look sus as fuck, then quickly reach into my pocket and pull out my phone.

Real, I've thought about approaching a cop, take his gun and blow my brains out but a lot of things can go wrong, like what if my movement is not fast enough and he grabs my arm just when I'm trying to grab the gun, or what if the gun is not loaded or what if it doesn't has any ammo at all lol

 

[locked*n*loaded]

or what if the gun is not loaded or what if it doesn't has any ammo at all

A cops gun is ALWAYS loaded. It would be useless if it weren't.

 

[WanderingJerboa]

Real, I've thought about approaching a cop, take his gun and blow my brains out but a lot of things can go wrong, like what if my movement is not fast enough and he grabs my arm just when I'm trying to grab the gun, or what if the gun is not loaded or what if it doesn't has any ammo at all lol

If a cop is carrying a gun it's definitely going to be loaded, question is if it's primed and if the safety is on, both of which you won't have time to fiddle with. Hell, it would be easier to just go buy a gun.

 

[mimithemimic]

ya, i actively put myself in harms way for this purpose. obv haven't been killed, so I've basically just been self-destructively piling more and more sexual trauma onto all of the other sexual trauma i have lmfao
ya, i actively put myself in harms way for this purpose. obv haven't been killed, so I've basically just been self-destructively piling more and more sexual trauma onto all of the other sexual trauma i have lmfao

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Real, I've thought about approaching a cop, take his gun and blow my brains out but a lot of things can go wrong, like what if my movement is not fast enough and he grabs my arm just when I'm trying to grab the gun, or what if the gun is not loaded or what if it doesn't has any ammo at all lol

And give someone else a trauma they will never recover from? That's just sick. You want to ctb, don't drag someone else with you.

 

[daydreamer52]

If a cop is carrying a gun it's definitely going to be loaded, question is if it's primed and if the safety is on, both of which you won't have time to fiddle with. Hell, it would be easier to just go buy a gun.

True, but in my country you need a permission which has many requirements for you to be able to buy and carry a gun, I wish I lived in U.S.A lol

And give someone else a trauma they will never recover from? That's just sick. You want to ctb, don't drag someone else with you.

Sorry about that, it isn't my intention to give someone a trauma, I'll re think that method

 

[Gonnerr]

I wish i knew which flight will be the next to crash , i would buy a ticket for sure, its an instant death , crashing at hundred of km/h in the ocean.

 

[Kerrtu]

It's sort of surprising hearing/reading of those who fantasize about having their autonomy absolutely decimated, in a forum where choice is paramount.

 

[mimithemimic]

It's sort of surprising hearing/reading of those who fantasize about having their autonomy absolutely decimated, in a forum where choice is paramount.

It's a bit weird but, i think this forum is pretty diverse so you can't really know what to expect. Plus,, this is all usually a survival/coping mechanism. If i choose to put myself in a bad situation where i got hurt it proves to me that I'm in control of my body and life.

 

[John Ryder]

It's sort of surprising hearing/reading of those who fantasize about having their autonomy absolutely decimated, in a forum where choice is paramount.

Right? Also "Yeah, the pain and terror you'd do anything to erase from your memory is my kink"
I would "like" but couldn't bring myself to spoil that reaction score of yours

It's a bit weird but, i think this forum is pretty diverse so you can't really know what to expect. Plus,, this is all usually a survival/coping mechanism. If i choose to put myself in a bad situation where i got hurt it proves to me that I'm in control of my body and life.

Wouldn't self harm signify that more definitively? Putting yourself in a spot to be passively victimized by another is very distinct from that. The middle man makes it feel like something else entirely, like absolving oneself somehow. "This is happening to me, I just happen to be here". Feels like having one's cake/eating or something

 

[Kerrtu]

Right? Also "Yeah, the pain and terror you'd do anything to erase from your memory is my kink"
I would "like" but couldn't bring myself to spoil that reaction score of yours

Thank you for that laugh. Have you ever seen the movie 'The Burbs'? In it, Tom Hanks is neighbors with a family who everyone on the block suspects of foul play. One afternoon, Hanks and another neighbor go over to "meet them" aka get a feel for what's going on, and when they ring the doorbell, the 9 falls and the house number becomes 666 (669 previously). Then a swarm of bees come flying out of the hole behind the number.



It's a good one.

 

[John Ryder]

Thank you for that laugh. Have you ever seen the movie 'The Burbs'? In it, Tom Hanks is neighbors with a family who everyone on the block suspects of foul play. One afternoon, Hanks and another neighbor go over to "meet them" aka get a feel for what's going on, and when they ring the doorbell, the 9 falls and the house number becomes 666 (669 previously). Then a swarm of bees come flying out of the hole behind the number.

It's a good one.

Oh yeah, quality flick. First saw it on cable as a kid and it stuck with me for a long time. Similar vibes to Nothing But Trouble (1991)

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Yes but by a girl.. unfortunally its almost impossible to happen, even if people say im good looking

 

[Stormy Raine]

I fantasize about the murder part only, I wouldn't even try to stop the person with a gun, I'd probably laugh. I'm so over this life, I'd probably tell them to pull it faster and stop talking!

 

[Kerrtu]

It's a bit weird but, i think this forum is pretty diverse so you can't really know what to expect. Plus,, this is all usually a survival/coping mechanism. If i choose to put myself in a bad situation where i got hurt it proves to me that I'm in control of my body and life.

If that's ones choice and/or fantasy, to be raped to death, so be it.

I've been raped, multiple times. The first rape is the mortal wound, but the bleed out can be lengthy and often takes shape over time in the form of self harm, substance abuse, isolation, loss of self, physical health decline, family abandonment, shame, increased mental health issues, etc.

Choosing rape would be a rare example of self harm in the sense one at least may think they know what they're getting into, as if they had control, when their only control was relinquished once a basic agreement was made. Or not. Rapists tend not to care for boundaries and/or agreements.

It's often a descent into hell, which again - if that's one's wish, so be it.

Oh yeah, quality flick. First saw it on cable as a kid and it stuck with me for a long time. Similar vibes to Nothing But Trouble (1991)

Sometimes I randomly text my sister gifs of Queenie being all suspicious:



Fun fact: The dog who played Queenie in 'The Burbs' also played Precious in 'the Silence of the Lambs' AND was 'pink poodle' in 'Pee Wee's Big Adventure'

Real name: Darla (RIP)

Such a scene stealer

I'm going to have to check out 'Nothing But Trouble'

 

[anhedonicNfoggy]

No, I would not want to be kidnapped, raped, and murdered. I can't think of anything worse than that. Someone who is capable of doing that might even use torture as a form of rape. I just get reminded of that true crime case on Junko Furuta

 

[Duality]

No, this is a horrible thing to have happen to you or to someone else. I'm not a believer in having your freedoms taken away in such a manner.

 

[Kerrtu]

No, I would not want to be kidnapped, raped, and murdered. I can't think of anything worse than that. Someone who is capable of doing that might even use torture as a form of rape. I just get reminded of that true crime case on Junko Furuta

I don't know how Junko Furata was able to endure as long as she did. Whenever I hear of her, I feel such sadness. Death couldn't have been more of a relief.

 

[Ineedthis]

I do, about getting murdered, a lot, if there was a school shooting or if I were in a shop that is being robbed I wouldn't run, I would approach the person with the gun and do a fast movement with my hands so hopefully he would feel threatened and will shoot me.

Omg, I was just watching that clip of the school shooting from fallout and fantasized after that for like five minutes about running at a school shooter.

 

[puppy_lix]

I actually hoped this would happen whenever I was inexperienced. I felt that if someone came into my house to rob and murder me, back then, I would have asked them to at least rape me so that I didn't die without experiencing what it felt like. I was 12 when I first had this thought. Being 19 now and having experienced the first two things already...I'm good .

It is exciting to allure/seduce people, but be cautious with how you carry yourself. People can and will deliberately take anything as a "yes" no matter what state you're in.
I completely understand fantasizing about that stuff (getting kidnapped, raped, and murdered; abused for me- I don't want to die at the hands of anyone, but myself lmao). For me though, I'd want it to be with someone I know or am physically attracted to because a random person doing it to you is genuinely traumatizing. It doesn't feel sexy- it makes you feel worse. There's no shame in wishing this, but I stopped romanticizing it once it happened to me.

I recommend joining a group that practices that kind of preying in a safe and controlled way. I'm sure it exists somewhere. (I'm talking about this in terms of BDSM!! Tread carefully though.)

I also don't mean any of this to come off offensive; I simply mean for it to act as a precaution with some advice!

Edit: I also think I romanticized all that stuff because the idea of it made me feel like I was wanted in some way and attractive enough for someone to do that to me.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

But honestly i would prefer if the girl i love do that to me.. its more hard for me to accept the rape part than murder, i didn't even go to escort, i want to have sex only with her..

 

[John Ryder]

Sometimes I randomly text my sister gifs of Queenie being all suspicious:

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Fun fact: The dog who played Queenie in 'The Burbs' also played Precious in 'the Silence of the Lambs' AND was 'pink poodle' in 'Pee Wee's Big Adventure'

Real name: Darla (RIP)

Such a scene stealer

I'm going to have to check out 'Nothing But Trouble'

That I did not know. Damn she had a hell of a run. My favorite cinematic canine performances are probably Thor the German shepherd in Bad Moon and...Rimshot from the Ernest movies. Lmao?



Nothing But Trouble isn't in the same league as The Burbs imo, but shares a lot of common dna. Ok not to take this thread too far in a really weird direction...

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

I've thought about going to a dangerous neighborhood in hopes of being murdered. If there was ever a shooting I'd walk right into the store or wherever and try to stop the shooter. Having a death wish means either I stop said shooter or I get shot and killed while trying to stop the shooter. Plus if I'm a target there's time for others to get away. Win win I guess.

 

[depressedteddybear]

Real, I've thought about approaching a cop, take his gun and blow my brains out but a lot of things can go wrong, like what if my movement is not fast enough and he grabs my arm just when I'm trying to grab the gun, or what if the gun is not loaded or what if it doesn't has any ammo at all lol

Look up retention holsters

 

[Kerrtu]

That I did not know. Damn she had a hell of a run. My favorite cinematic canine performances are probably Thor the German shepherd in Bad Moon and...Rimshot from the Ernest movies. Lmao?



Nothing But Trouble isn't in the same league as The Burbs imo, but shares a lot of common dna. Ok not to take this thread too far in a really weird direction...

Darla/Queenie/Precious did indeed have a good run.



Favorite cinematic canine performances - that could be a whole other post in "Offtopic".

In the animated category, Dug from 'Up' has my vote:



Pixar movies almost always have me crying.

 

[CW36]

I wish i knew which flight will be the next to crash , i would buy a ticket for sure, its an instant death , crashing at hundred of km/h in the ocean.

90% chance it'll be Aeroflop.

 

[WanderingJerboa]

I actually hoped this would happen whenever I was inexperienced. I felt that if someone came into my house to rob and murder me, back then, I would have asked them to at least rape me so that I didn't die without experiencing what it felt like. I was 12 when I first had this thought. Being 19 now and having experienced the first two things already...I'm good .

It is exciting to allure/seduce people, but be cautious with how you carry yourself. People can and will deliberately take anything as a "yes" no matter what state you're in.
I completely understand fantasizing about that stuff (getting kidnapped, raped, and murdered; abused for me- I don't want to die at the hands of anyone, but myself lmao). For me though, I'd want it to be with someone I know or am physically attracted to because a random person doing it to you is genuinely traumatizing. It doesn't feel sexy- it makes you feel worse. There's no shame in wishing this, but I stopped romanticizing it once it happened to me.

I recommend joining a group that practices that kind of preying in a safe and controlled way. I'm sure it exists somewhere. (I'm talking about this in terms of BDSM!! Tread carefully though.)

I also don't mean any of this to come off offensive; I simply mean for it to act as a precaution with some advice!

Edit: I also think I romanticized all that stuff because the idea of it made me feel like I was wanted in some way and attractive enough for someone to do that to me.

Thing is, I have been raped before, by my uncle when I was around 6. I don't know what is wrong with me but the whole point is to be more traumatized, I WANT to suffer and hurt both mentally and physically. I just don't deserve a peaceful death.