Don’t EVER GO TO MENTAL HEALTH HOSPITAL ( Canada )

[FriesLovee]

Hi
So I went with my cousin to the mental health hospital to try to get a psychiatrist prescription as I was feeling suicidal and I couldn't refuse the help because my cousin did so much for me . So I do have a psychiatrist but his earliest appointment is 3 month away and it's way too long . I was expecting to stay there for a couple of hours and get prescription and leave.
First entered and cheked in explained everything .
Next I see how the department for th mental health institute is and it was scaring me because I could see the cameres overlooking the place before going in there. There is a door that separates the patients and the nurses .
I'm so traumatized like these people are not functioning people in society. I'm depressed suicidal and have social anxiety . These people there was 14 people there and all of them were legit crazy asf . Walking around naked , pooping with door open , peeing in bathroom floors , farting non stop ( for me I'm very germaphobe and it's like the worst thing for me ) . They were raging at eachother or the nurses , I genuinely felt so out of place and like why are they putting me with these crazy people .
The system is soooooo BAD . I legit felt like I will never ask for help anymore after this second experience.
Anywyas I stayed there awake the whole time from 8pm to 12am , then the doctor saw me and assessed me . Unfortunately I had to sleep the night there . I couldn't even sleep, I had to be forced to sleep in the same room as all the other patients while they were farting screaming , talking to themsleves the whole night . I finally woke up in the morning at 8-9 and saw a resident student and she assessed me again ( she was extremely nice ) then my cousin stayed with me in that institute for like 3 hours more until I saw the head psychiatrist and she prescribed me zoloft and I could fianlly leave .

All this to say that you should never ever go to these places , they aren't meant to help people like us. It's gonna make u worse tbh , unless it's ur last effort to stay alive then don't go there your gonna feel way worse . I'm so glad I have a support system that will help me .

Btw I saw this girl that came in there she was like me just normal but she had cut her wrist I think and she looked very traumatized.
She was crawled up in a ball the whole time I was there . The morning one of the mean male nurse touched her shoulder and kept telling her to go back to her bed and she started shaking so hard and crying uncontrollably. I'm pretty sure she's scared of men or something traumatic happened to her involving men . Me and my cousin witnessed it how she was shaking and scared for her life and we were talking about the fact that she was Put there with crazy people that have no social awareness to realize she was in that state of trauma . Right before I left I saw this creepy ' crazy ' guy talk to her and she started crying again. I felt so bad for her , she was probably max 16-18 and she was there stuck with those people after a traumatic experience…
These places are for actual crqzy people , not people like us who are suicidal and need psychological help ( not only a fkn medication) .
Worst experience of my life , I got my prescription and I will try it but holy idk what to think anymore , it was very traumatizing to me too . I hate that place and just be careful when going to mental health hospital they will keep you there against your will :)

 

[John8]

Sometimes in life people just have bad luck being born, should just be put out of their misery, it is actually ultimate in empathy and compassion to do so.

 

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

Hi
So I went with my cousin to the mental health hospital to try to get a psychiatrist prescription as I was feeling suicidal and I couldn't refuse the help because my cousin did so much for me . So I do have a psychiatrist but his earliest appointment is 3 month away and it's way too long . I was expecting to stay there for a couple of hours and get prescription and leave.
First entered and cheked in explained everything .
Next I see how the department for th mental health institute is and it was scaring me because I could see the cameres overlooking the place before going in there. There is a door that separates the patients and the nurses .
I'm so traumatized like these people are not functioning people in society. I'm depressed suicidal and have social anxiety . These people there was 14 people there and all of them were legit crazy asf . Walking around naked , pooping with door open , peeing in bathroom floors , farting non stop ( for me I'm very germaphobe and it's like the worst thing for me ) . They were raging at eachother or the nurses , I genuinely felt so out of place and like why are they putting me with these crazy people .
The system is soooooo BAD . I legit felt like I will never ask for help anymore after this second experience.
Anywyas I stayed there awake the whole time from 8pm to 12am , then the doctor saw me and assessed me . Unfortunately I had to sleep the night there . I couldn't even sleep, I had to be forced to sleep in the same room as all the other patients while they were farting screaming , talking to themsleves the whole night . I finally woke up in the morning at 8-9 and saw a resident student and she assessed me again ( she was extremely nice ) then my cousin stayed with me in that institute for like 3 hours more until I saw the head psychiatrist and she prescribed me zoloft and I could fianlly leave .

All this to say that you should never ever go to these places , they aren't meant to help people like us. It's gonna make u worse tbh , unless it's ur last effort to stay alive then don't go there your gonna feel way worse . I'm so glad I have a support system that will help me .

Btw I saw this girl that came in there she was like me just normal but she had cut her wrist I think and she looked very traumatized.
She was crawled up in a ball the whole time I was there . The morning one of the mean male nurse touched her shoulder and kept telling her to go back to her bed and she started shaking so hard and crying uncontrollably. I'm pretty sure she's scared of men or something traumatic happened to her involving men . Me and my cousin witnessed it how she was shaking and scared for her life and we were talking about the fact that she was Put there with crazy people that have no social awareness to realize she was in that state of trauma . Right before I left I saw this creepy ' crazy ' guy talk to her and she started crying again. I felt so bad for her , she was probably max 16-18 and she was there stuck with those people after a traumatic experience…
These places are for actual crqzy people , not people like us who are suicidal and need psychological help ( not only a fkn medication) .
Worst experience of my life , I got my prescription and I will try it but holy idk what to think anymore , it was very traumatizing to me too . I hate that place and just be careful when going to mental health hospital they will keep you there against your will :)

Yeah it's rough all over the world it seems ): They either act like you're completely insane and a ticking time bomb or like you're just some attention seeking regular person or something. Either way they're gonna speak to you with condescension and dismiss your concerns. Once had to spend a week in an adult psych ward as a minor so yeah…I certainly understand it lol

 

[aespa]

Hi
So I went with my cousin to the mental health hospital to try to get a psychiatrist prescription as I was feeling suicidal and I couldn't refuse the help because my cousin did so much for me . So I do have a psychiatrist but his earliest appointment is 3 month away and it's way too long . I was expecting to stay there for a couple of hours and get prescription and leave.
First entered and cheked in explained everything .
Next I see how the department for th mental health institute is and it was scaring me because I could see the cameres overlooking the place before going in there. There is a door that separates the patients and the nurses .
I'm so traumatized like these people are not functioning people in society. I'm depressed suicidal and have social anxiety . These people there was 14 people there and all of them were legit crazy asf . Walking around naked , pooping with door open , peeing in bathroom floors , farting non stop ( for me I'm very germaphobe and it's like the worst thing for me ) . They were raging at eachother or the nurses , I genuinely felt so out of place and like why are they putting me with these crazy people .
The system is soooooo BAD . I legit felt like I will never ask for help anymore after this second experience.
Anywyas I stayed there awake the whole time from 8pm to 12am , then the doctor saw me and assessed me . Unfortunately I had to sleep the night there . I couldn't even sleep, I had to be forced to sleep in the same room as all the other patients while they were farting screaming , talking to themsleves the whole night . I finally woke up in the morning at 8-9 and saw a resident student and she assessed me again ( she was extremely nice ) then my cousin stayed with me in that institute for like 3 hours more until I saw the head psychiatrist and she prescribed me zoloft and I could fianlly leave .

All this to say that you should never ever go to these places , they aren't meant to help people like us. It's gonna make u worse tbh , unless it's ur last effort to stay alive then don't go there your gonna feel way worse . I'm so glad I have a support system that will help me .

Btw I saw this girl that came in there she was like me just normal but she had cut her wrist I think and she looked very traumatized.
She was crawled up in a ball the whole time I was there . The morning one of the mean male nurse touched her shoulder and kept telling her to go back to her bed and she started shaking so hard and crying uncontrollably. I'm pretty sure she's scared of men or something traumatic happened to her involving men . Me and my cousin witnessed it how she was shaking and scared for her life and we were talking about the fact that she was Put there with crazy people that have no social awareness to realize she was in that state of trauma . Right before I left I saw this creepy ' crazy ' guy talk to her and she started crying again. I felt so bad for her , she was probably max 16-18 and she was there stuck with those people after a traumatic experience…
These places are for actual crqzy people , not people like us who are suicidal and need psychological help ( not only a fkn medication) .
Worst experience of my life , I got my prescription and I will try it but holy idk what to think anymore , it was very traumatizing to me too . I hate that place and just be careful when going to mental health hospital they will keep you there against your will :)

I honestly found comfort in a hospital but I was a child and everybody's experience is different

 

[HereTomorrow]

Not from Canada but I saw a post on Reddit that resonated with me that essentially said "Mental Hospitals are meant to keep you safe and stable, not comfortable".

It's a place not intended to help you, but to take you out of or process a crisis such as active suicidial thoughts or psychosis so you don't hurt yourself or others. Because they are only keeping you stable, there is a lack of empathy and humanity there for your pains, which makes people there no longer actively suicidial, but more paranoid, traumatized, and now stigmatized by those around them who know.

I'm very glad you're out and got the prescription you want, I can't imagine the pain of being there.

 

[Higurashi415]

Not from Canada but I saw a post on Reddit that resonated with me that essentially said "Mental Hospitals are meant to keep you safe and stable, not comfortable".

It's a place not intended to help you, but to take you out of or process a crisis such as active suicidial thoughts or psychosis so you don't hurt yourself or others. Because they are only keeping you stable, there is a lack of empathy and humanity there for your pains, which makes people there no longer actively suicidial, but more paranoid, traumatized, and now stigmatized by those around them who know.

I'm very glad you're out and got the prescription you want, I can't imagine the pain of being there.

But doesn't it also increase the risk of worsening whatever you're going through? Seems counterproductive
I seriously don't understand the reasoning behind it

 

[HereTomorrow]

If you CTB, you will be dead. They can't help a dead person.

If they stop you from CTBing and send you to the hospital in the name of help, you should come out alive.

The intended goal is to stabilize (make you not actively suicidial) so you can be redirected to a less restrictive from of treatment (therapy). You may be traumatized in the hospital, but you (should) come out not actively suicidial.

Therapy as treatment can only make progress if you are stable, and lowering the threat of you CTBing from moderate to low. Therapy will not work if you are actively suicidial (aka you will CTB very soon and cannot be talked out of). A therapist should resonate with your trauma that the system caused and help you cope with it, saying at least you are alive and traumatized and not dead. It's all done behind closed doors, therefore nobody else will know your pain or recovery.

Or well, that's the intended pipeline. When I came from an ER visit for extreme suicidial tendencies and went to my next therapy session venting how scared I was, she shrugged it off and said "Well well well" in a half mocking tone and said I should of told her or else it'll happen again. Made me untrustworthy and terrified on the system that is supposed to make people feel better.

If a person is scared to speak up in fear of being locked in the hospital, you know the system is bad.

 

[maniac116]

It's really a difficult situation to be in! Sorry you had to go through that. I was a psych nurse for a couple decades.
One of the problems is that the "system" has many "frequent flyers"; the chronically mentally ill people. The ones you spoke of that shit on floors, talk to themselves etc. I don't know what country you're in but in the US, the state hospitals which are the most appropriate for the chronically ill patients have been shutting down, forcing them into the community.
They don't take their meds while on the streets, resulting in repeated admissions & since state hospitals are going away they are taken to community mental health facilities where others with lesser severity such as yourself are exposed to the chronically mentally ill & their behaviors. It's traumatizing to those such as yourself as well as to the staff who face being stressed out & burned out. I retired because of stress, being attacked almost daily, & suffered general burnout.
It's a mess right now!! But in my experience the system gets bad, then straightened out somewhat then goes to hell again.
It's sad for people in the community who come in for depression etc only to be traumatized by the weird behavior on the unit.
I glad you got to go home!