Does your family and friends know?

[Sick&TiredURGH]

No one knows I have joined this site. No one will ever know I hope. Plan on removing the browser I use on my phone and laptop before ctbing. For other reasons as well as this website.
My partner would freak if he knew and start doing the whole 'how could you even think of doing that to me'.
Problem is it's not all about him.
Just pissed with him at the moment and longing for someone from my past who will never be in my present...

 

[QuietEnd]

No, my husband does not know I come to this forum. He does know I have suicidal ideaology and have since I was a preteen, long before he was even born, he is twenty-two years my junior. I do not hide the fact I am on here I just do not flaunt it.
I CAN tell you that he has mentioned to me that I am more relaxed and seem to fixate less on my miserealities (miserable realities) just recently, only since I have joined this group a little over a month ago.
He has seen and experienced the unfair treatment and bullying I receive on a continual and ongoing basis by the majority of the human population, and though I can see in his eyes his fear I will one day leave him by my own hands, he has NEVER once told me I should not feel the way I feel or tried to talk me into believing life is worth living, he simply accepts how I feel and tells me he loves me and would miss me and wants me to stay.

Yes my partner knows I'm on this site, and my plan to CTB and my reasons why which he understands and accepts. He's very much like this person's partner. We're trying to come up with an alternative so I can live life isolated from society, so whilst we can't do anything about my physical illnesses we can maybe make a world where my autism isn't a problem and my mental health can improve.

I have no friends.

 

[NeverEndingPain]

Yes my partner knows I'm on this site, and my plan to CTB and my reasons why which he understands and accepts. He's very much like this person's partner. We're trying to come up with an alternative so I can live life isolated from society, so whilst we can't do anything about my physical illnesses we can maybe make a world where my autism isn't a problem and my mental health can improve.

I have no friends.

I wish I had someone like that. All I get is people who want to have me put into a mental hospital to get better. I've suffered 22 years of on and off depression. I'm 45 now. I'm tired of trying and just want to be at home and have someone there so I'm not alone with my thoughts

 

[Lily (Osako)]

No. I've stopped hanging out and stopped calling. Idk if they've really noticed.
They knew I was going through a rough time, and needed to isolate.
But they have no idea that I've actually cut them all off and have pulled away so I can do this without intervention.

 

[Jupit3rs]

I'm pretty sure nobody (around me) knows this kind of site exists in the first place... So nope. My friends are aware that I want to end my life, however, i told them i'll never do it (y'know... like a liar) and they don't think i'm capable of it either lol. My family... Sometimes I get the feeling they deep down know about my suicidal thoughts, i can see sadness in their eyes when they look at me, like a unspoken secret. But besides my gut feeling, I'm pretty sure nobody expect me to actually go with my plan, i guess it will be a very interesting surprise.

 

[Regen]

No one of my family knows it. I mentioned it to two of my friends, but in an easy, some funny way (and without the name of the website). I calm down their questions. My psychologist know about it, but not the name of the website. And she asked not much about it, i think she dont like the theme suicide or she fears it and so she try to avoid the hole theme. But that's not good for me. I wish she would ask me more, because at the moment I actually dont want to end my own life and asking me helps to handle the thoughts and the wish about suicide a little bit better.

 

[sevenkarmas]

No and I erase my history after each session. No need to bring attention to it and create more issues.

 

[LesbianCarpetPython]

Yes. I talked about killing myself with my friends and they called the police so my parents know as well

 

[patpat]

Yes, I was made to go on Vortioxetine haha I'm a week in and i feel about the same except I'm not sobbing. Still plotting

 

[BGooG]

No one in my family knows I spend time here. My wife would freak out and demand to see everything I've written here. But I hide my misery fairly well; no one knows how depressed I am, not how much I pray to die repeatedly.

 

[BlazingBob]

They know, and don't care. I told my mom I got a copy of the PPH. No shits given. I told my dad I've thought about suicide and he said to stop talking about it and just do it. In fact he even suggested it as a solution to my problems years before I ever brought it up again. The people in my life only care insofar as how my death 'might' affect them. This isn't me feeling sorry for myself. It's true. It sucks. At least I have nothing holding me back except my senior doggies.