This forum is the only community to which I feel like I belong, otherwise I am almost alone.
I created threads on this forum to tell you about my horrible life, disabled, chronically ill, incurable... abused during childhood.
In ordinary society, what's more, in my country, known for its dirty mentality (especially by foreigners), I am rejected, that it is my fault if I was born disabled, with horrible parents, that I I haven't succeeded in my life (my life, my studies were stolen from me)...
I created threads on this forum to tell you about the massive lynching that I suffered from an association of gifted people (internationally recognized, and even if this only concerns the local branch of my country) which claimed to be a community of peaceful support, moral support, when it is narcissistic people (for the most part), who belittle others, spread gossip, gossip girls, shoot vulnerable people in the back, elitist... So a disabled, who complains about his life, just to have moral support, it bothered them, and they lynched me, talked trash about me to as many people as possible, rejected me, ghosted me,....
It is in this forum that I was able to have real support for my complaints, and I am extremely grateful to you, it is my only way out, and, paradoxically, allowed me to avoid a hasty and extremely violent CTB!
Since this forum has existed, I no longer complain elsewhere, it has helped me. In fact, I cut ties with most of the people who are toxic, those around me in my country (I feel like a foreigner in my country), I ghosted the association (I am still a member, in this shitty local antenna, reluctantly, but only to go and see foreign branches and their members).
Like, with this forum, this community, I know that I can be listened to, when I need to vent anger, or simply have moral support, or give support too. I no longer feel forced to evacuate my feelings elsewhere, with the risks of rejection, lynching, gossip, which I usually suffered before having known this forum. I am less subject to the risk of forced hospitalization, I am finally breathing (even if my health is still deteriorating, without hope)!
Opponents of this forum criticize the "suicide" part of the forum, but if it weren't for this "suicide" part, many people would have CTB out of desperation, violently, hastily, etc., because they didn't feel not listened to, understood, helped in their desire to leave. The simple fact of feeling listened to, that we provide them with help, methods, approaches, and also support, is enough to, paradoxically, live a little longer in this brutal world, knowing that at any moment, there will always be support to be able to escape from this world, from this life, at any time, with the peaceful effect of the moral support of this community, generally peaceful! I am grateful to you! This forum is, for many people, and many more people since the coronavirus crisis, which has destroyed mental health throughout the world, the only place, the last place to decide about one's life, end of life, etc. , in the absence of the legalization of assisted suicide or euthanasia (and that access to this right is not too strict).
No offense to pro-lifers, opponents, prison guards, this forum does not encourage CTB, it leaves the choice, in addition to moral support, which encourages, precisely to live, because we are less alone, we have exit solutions, and also because, in this forum, there is a part of "recovery", to help people to live (it is forbidden to talk about CTB in this part of the forum). Everyone can do what they want with their life without being judged, and this freedom still makes you want to live, or even restart your life, if that is possible and desired. Many people thanked this forum, our community for all this, knowing that it was practically impossible elsewhere! It is certainly not the paternalism of hospitals, hotlines, laws, which, with their contempt, were going to help people live.
This forum should be a perfect example for society to question itself, and be peaceful, benevolent, everywhere in the world, unless this society voluntarily creates distress, for example, to sell medicines, weapons of war, consumerism...!
Thank you very much @RainAndSadness for your forum administration, good luck and I hope this forum longer exist!
