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Xisalittletired

Xisalittletired

Knee-deep in the poacher's dream
Feb 17, 2023
25
Do things that used to cheer you up even make you happy anymore? Like old shows, cartoons, hobbies, people, music... Anything?
 
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IDontLikeMyself

IDontLikeMyself

Member
Nov 8, 2022
30
Not really. I genuinely don't feel actual happiness anymore from anything. I am just a dull shell of a human being. Even the things I used to love don't bring me any joy anymore. Even though it does seem like I am happy on the outside.
 
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Proxycake

Proxycake

Matrimony
Feb 20, 2023
83
I distract myself so much I stop thinking normally, or I force myself to write. Writing is always lovely; I have always written stories, poetry, things of the sort, it is my passion, and frankly, why I still barely think I have just enough worth to stay on this planet, if just for a bit longer.
 
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Noisemaker

Noisemaker

Watchout For Skypilgrimes
Feb 21, 2023
6
Not really, the closest thing I get to happiness anymore is temporary excitement.
 
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DeathToSpiesSMERSH

DeathToSpiesSMERSH

Member
Feb 22, 2023
78
Nothing ever really makes me happy anymore. I can't bring myself to play video games, go outside regularly, see "friends". I'm not even sure if I really have friends.
 
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GrizzlyGrapefruit

GrizzlyGrapefruit

Student
Jun 17, 2019
123
Nope. I've been suffering with anhedonia for several years now and counting.

Graduating school didn't bring me any joy. Getting my first job didn't bring me any joy. Getting a promotion didn't bring me any joy. Being around friends and loved one doesn't bring me any joy (I think the "joy" I feel now is just enjoying the distraction -- nothing remotely as enjoyable as how I used to feel). Listening to my favorite songs brings me no joy....

You get the idea. It's so harrowing and oddly dehumanizing to lose something as simple as enjoying things. I feel so less than for my inability to enjoy things anymore. By going through this, I feel I have slowly watched myself die while everyone that isn't aware of this happening to me thinks I'm still living.
 
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Dextroid

Dextroid

Member
Feb 20, 2023
16
The people I like, the topics I hyperfixate on, drawing (though I can barely do that anymore due to wrist pain), and food all make me happy, but I still realize how not happy I am during those times and especially after. Some days, none of the above are able to work and it sucks. Well, might as well enjoy these things while I'm still here
 
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TormentV2

New Member
Feb 22, 2023
3
Do things that used to cheer you up even make you happy anymore? Like old shows, cartoons, hobbies, people, music... Anything?
I used to love talking to friends all of the time, and I still do, but no one talks to me anymore. Everyone important in my life has forgotten me and nothing else matters.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,180
Yes, I can still feel happy. Not all the time- obviously but I can still appreciate things. I even enjoy comedy... That still doesn't make the overall experience of life worth living (to me anyhow.)
 
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LadyAlastor

LadyAlastor

Fading In And out losing time with the two I love.
Jan 13, 2020
151
The only thing that really makes me happy right now is music and spending time with my partners but even with all of that, I don't know how else to say this other than the void always keeps coming back.

And every time she does it's just more and more tempting.

fighting her is extremely difficult.

Yes I mentally I guess gave my depression I guess or suicidal depression I honestly don't know what you call it these days.
But I pretty much gave it a personified form So I just write a lot about it or more of I think a lot about it especially The Times when the void comes in it drives me insane and the only thing that can calm it down or make it worse as a certain playlist I have.
The only thing that really makes me happy right now is music and spending time with my partners but even with all of that, I don't know how else to say this other than the void always keeps coming back.

And every time she does it's just more and more tempting.

fighting her is extremely difficult.

Yes I mentally I guess gave my depression I guess or suicidal depression I honestly don't know what you call it these days.
But I pretty much gave it a personified form So I just write a lot about it or more of I think a lot about it especially The Times when the void comes in it drives me insane and the only thing that can calm it down or make it worse as a certain playlist I have.
I just kinda sit there in a heap of mess crying consistently trying to avoid blades or even robecause I am more quick to pick up a rope than I am a blade but I would rather be safe than sorry.

But at the same time I just want it to stop.

Even though me and my partners have a suicide pact 8 years From now It still just eats me up.
 

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draingang

draingang

białasy podbijają na funkcję jak
Feb 21, 2023
52
Hanging out with my online friends on discord, but that is a rare occurence. Also listening to music, especially nostalgic music that lets me at least reminisce about better times

I also used to enjoy making music but that has been less and less satisfying over the years. I usually just open up a project on FL Studio, play some notes for a few minutes and then close it without saving, cause it all always sucks.
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
6,044
There is one thing that resembles happiness the most. Yesterday I met my best friends and we celebrated our time together. I love to make them laugh with my jokes. They help me so much. They are the best thing that happened in my life. I am so grateful for them. I have the feeling 95% or all other people would never be so patient and compassionate to me. Though I worry a lot how strong they will be affected when I ctb.
 
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liverhood

liverhood

𝐑𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐌𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐨𝐜𝐡𝐧𝐢𝐤
Feb 23, 2023
44
i have optimized happiness in my life. I never leave the house and play video games/surf the web all day long. this doesn't make me want to kill myself any less though
dude, i'm a skeleton with Alzheimer's
you should read the rules again. there's like a whole section about mental illnesses
 
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imcurious

imcurious

Member
May 6, 2022
97
As a kid I remember feeling very happy. My home and my parents weren't the best, but I had a great childhood. I felt the entire spectrum of emotions—happy, sad, angry. I had interests and hobbies and often jumped from one to another. I loved everything.

I think I've become jaded as I got older. My feelings are best described as an incredibly dulled emotional palate. I still feel things, just not the way I used to. I am frequently bored and it's hard to keep my interest in any one thing for long. Whether that be a romantic relationship, a major, a job, etc.

It can be lonely at times. I can't envision a future at times and feel like my time is short for some reason. When there is an impending sense of doom, it feels hard to feel excited for anything long term.
 
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The Eeyorish One

The Eeyorish One

Member
Oct 9, 2022
97
The only thing that brings me enjoyment is sharing something with others. In my case, it's almost always sharing a tv show or game. I love watching other people react to it and enjoy it.
 
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Midnight-rain

Student
Jan 1, 2020
191
Yes there are things but it's extremely diluted "happiness" and more often than not I am just too tired to even do the thing.
 
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Caoine01

Caoine01

Experienced
Feb 23, 2023
212
I numb myself with food, movies and sleep deprivation. But at the end of the day I feel empty.
 
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D_Ana

D_Ana

Member
Feb 21, 2023
6
i like drawing and watching vtubers, but is not same as it used to be, it doesnt make happy and is awful to feel this away.
 
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NHLTradeRumor

NHLTradeRumor

wow life sucks
Dec 13, 2022
106
Not really anymore, no. I used to enjoy video games a lot, but most of that is gone sadly.
 
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angelcircuit

angelcircuit

"I feel like I can do... just about anything."
Feb 23, 2023
49
Anything that made me feel remotely happy would now instead place guilt and misery (if not pure emptiness) within my heart, along with the bitter afterthought that it's all temporary. Nothing is fulfilling, nor is it permanent. A simple video game could give a person entertainment for hours upon hours, sure, but then I start to think about how anything that brings you happiness is simply a distraction from the truth. The truth that this world is cruel, and we will never escape it's misery for less than a moment.
 
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stermc

stermc

libertas quae sera tamen
Nov 24, 2022
946
Watching people I love smiling and laughing still makes me happy. Drinking beer on the weekend with a friend while we talk about stupid things. Reading books that are capable of making me feel surprised or just add something to my life. Being with my dogs or seeing birds flying while I am reading on my porch. Realizing I am a strong person and so proud of myself for everything I have been through and how far I have come. My soul. Nature. Realizing I don't need to be happy to live. The possibility of dying and being at peace.
 
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rest in peace

rest in peace

Member
Feb 23, 2023
40
Do things that used to cheer you up even make you happy anymore? Like old shows, cartoons, hobbies, people, music... Anything?
probably being loved and cared for, however that doesn't happen anymore, so i wouldnt know. nothing else makes me feel happy
 
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eashanm

God
Feb 22, 2023
512
A "peaceful, reliable and good" death will make my happy :wink: Hopefully, I get access to N soon
 
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