lostinthecha0s
Borrowed time.
- Jul 29, 2026
- 10
That's what I call the SH thoughts I have. Rats. They squeak in my hears until I can't think anymore. "You're in pain, feel it. Show it." "You're not doing anything? Just wasting your life. End it" "you're nothing to anyone" they're just rats. I could grab them by their tails and throw them out. But still their squeaks permeate my thoughts daily. I'm eating my favorite food with my favorite person "you should CTB" I'm listening to my favorite music doing my hobbies. "Waste of space, stop filling it" my creative mind that wants to make and spread creativity is trapped in a sinking boat filled with rats and they're gnawing at the floor boards.
Why can't I get off this sinking ship. If I did it and knew it would just restart and try anew I would, I would try to be so normal society would swallow me whole and finally I'd be accepted.
Why can't I get off this sinking ship. If I did it and knew it would just restart and try anew I would, I would try to be so normal society would swallow me whole and finally I'd be accepted.
