Discussion Does anyone here not care at all how it might affect others?

[nigelhernandez]

I keep seeing so many posts on Reddit and a few posts here of "I don't want to hurt my family/friends". That doesn't resonate with me. Firstly I don't have friends and secondly, my family is pretty shit. I couldn't care less how they feel. I don't think its my responsibility.

Am I sociopathic because someone online suggested I am. I don't feel the slightest bit of guilt.

 

[RileyTanaka]

I also don't care too much how it affects my family, but it took me a while to release the guilt I might feel. I don't think it necessarily makes you a sociopath in and of itself. It's not like you'd make the choice with the intention of hurting them and therefore *not* feeling any emotion about it. I'm pretty sure that would be sociopathic.

 

[ceelo]

your perception is your reality

 

[nigelhernandez]

your perception is your reality

What do you mean?

 

[The Dark Chaos]

I do care about them that's whyy I'm still here. I just don't want them to blame it on themselves, which I know theyy will no matter howw muchh I tryy to explain them in real life and in myyy ctb note..

 

[emie_]

It's completely understandable not to care about hurting people in your life if the latter are shitty to you or don't care about you or have hurt you and so on. Personally, my loved ones have been nothing short of amazing, but I still feel the need to ctb, which makes me feel guilty because it makes it seem like I'm not grateful for their love and effort (but I really am), and most significantly, I know that dying will devastate them, especially my mom, sister and boyfriend. I'm extremely torn, and for the longest of time, they were the sole reason why I was still alive, but my current decision is to ctb by the end of the month.

Also, the person who suggested you're a sociopath is an a**hole.

 

[InterstateFlowers]

Not at all. If your family sucks and you have no friends, what good reason is there to feel guilty for them? It's not sociopathic at all, I think it's completely normal. It's different in my situation but our suicidal cases are unique to each of us.

 

[ceelo]

What do you mean?

exactly what it says.

 

[SpottedPanda]

I care, but I'm not willing to do something for what is potentially another fifty years (live) just to avoid some temporary heartbreak. I couldn't use the fear of hurting others' feelings to change my course. When someone decides they don't want to be here anymore they've pretty much opted out

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Nothing matters to me. I'm selfish and I only care about myself. I am.miserable and thats the truth.

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

Firstly I don't have friends and secondly, my family is pretty shit. I couldn't care less how they feel. I don't think its my responsibility.

I can totally relate to this. No friend and abusive parents who destroyed my mental health. No reason to feel some guilt. Your parents are your parents just because they gave birth to you anyway. Every animal can do that, it's not a super power.

Am I sociopathic because someone online suggested I am. I don't feel the slightest bit of guilt.

You're not a sociopath based on this. You're a person with no close people.

 

[Tintypographer]

I don't worry about it. I feel that after I'm gone I won't have those regrets at that point or it will be so different I can't comprehend it anyway. I can't worry about whether they will be sad or not.

 

[muffin222]

I don't really care, honestly. I feel a twinge of pain when I visualize the devastation it may cause certain people, but that's not enough to deter me by any means

 

[Final Escape]

I honestly don't care. Then again I have no one. Estranged from family and any friends I've had. I hit the point where I'm at peace with ctb because I know I'm basically fucked. I have no ability to lead a functional decent life. I can't continue to stay with my friend who I'm basically freeloading off of. I know I don't want to stay here but I'mtoo broke to move or relocate. I plan to die in this little town. I'm only now waiting for the antiemetics. Found someone with a script I can't believe it. Convinced them to fill it for me. I'm pretty desperate to ctb at this point. I can't stand my life anymore. Everyday feels like I'm in prison.

 

[Starflow11]

It's completely understandable not to care about hurting people in your life if the latter are shitty to you or don't care about you or have hurt you and so on. Personally, my loved ones have been nothing short of amazing, but I still feel the need to ctb, which makes me feel guilty because it makes it seem like I'm not grateful for their love and effort (but I really am), and most significantly, I know that dying will devastate them, especially my mom, sister and boyfriend. I'm extremely torn, and for the longest of time, they were the sole reason why I was still alive, but my current decision is to ctb by the end of the month.

Also, the person who suggested you're a sociopath is an a**hole.

Aweee eye feel you dear... I'm in similar situation as well, my family has been wonderful and extremely supportive throughout my journey. I know this will absolutely devastate them, especially my mom and sister. So yeah I'm torn but I think, what if this is experience of me taking my life will be catalyst for their spiritual growth?

 

[Green Destiny]

I know i'm selfish for considering it, but i'm past the point of caring now.

 

[Ardesevent]

I'm kind of done with caring about them at this point. I don't feel like they care about me that much, so it's not really worth stressing over.

 

[pian]

Yeah. I've actually been considering hydrogen sulfide as a method. People say it's too selfish because the smell could harm their neighbors/first responders so people usually put up warning signs when they ctb that way. But honestly I might just not even bother with signs if I do it. I wouldn't want to intentionally harm anyone, but if my suicide ends up inconveniencing some people then boo hoo.

 

[InTheAirTonight]

I agree, I don't care at all. I got extremely unlucky in life to turn out like this. Like 1 in 10000 chance. Why should I give a shit about other people? Especially after I'm dead?

 

[mathieu]

I don't really care either. I love them but I have to go. I care more about my dog. I'm all he has.

 

[disabledandhopeless]

I don't care. They don't care either.

 

[Bct]

It's normal to have thoughts like you if you have no friends and family is shitty. In my case, I'm afraid to hurt my father, nephew, & niece but those still won't be my main consideration to keep myself alive.

 

[lostangel]

Yes, I'm in the same boat. I'm not close with my family and I have zero friends.

 

[Fish Face]

I do not have any friends. My mum and dad are not the type of people who are capable of feeling any guilt or responsibility. They always just cared about themselves.

 

[Swoods]

I honestly do not care how it effects my friends and family. It is my life and decision. I have always told them that they can kiss my ass and I will not change now. They don't feed, fuck, or promote me so I do not care.

 

[moonchild]

I think I used to convince myself I cared, because that's what you "should" feel. But it's not that I'm doing it to actively hurt anyone, it's that it's something I feel I have to do for myself that will possibly have a negative effect on others. An unfortunate consequence. So I don't feel guilty, because I'm not at fault, if that makes sense.

 

[Fish Face]

I just don't care. They have made their hatred of me known for decades now. They can only show love when I am happy, or they think I am. Even my mum has said I would be better off dead. They realise it's inevitable now.

 

[Alec]

I don't think you are a sociopath. You just don't have anyone worth caring about, that's not your fault, if people around you are trash it doesn't mean there's something wrong with you and it doesn't mean you should care about them or their opinion, that's their fault you don't care, not yours. And I totally get it, I don't have any friends at all too and my family is absolute trash. I don't care at all about how it will affect them and I definitely don't think it's my responsibility to care about what it will do to them. This is about me, doing what I think is best for me, it's not about them. I don't live and don't plan to live my life for them. Even if I cared about them I'd still feel justified to ctb because again, it's about me, but I would feel sorry it would hurt them because I would love them and I wouldn't want to see them in pain, still I would ctb free of guilt, just a sad for their pain. Because it's my life, my choice, it's my right and it's my decision, and they have to learn to respect it. If I had a wonderful family it would still not be my responsibility to care about what my ctb will do to them, I would care not because it's my responsibility but because I would care about them, that's not to say that I'm responsible about how they feel or their pain, it's something that is as a consequence of being alive, and I gotta do what I gotta do, what's best for me. I hope I'm explaining myself well. But since they are horrible anyway, I don't care if they'll be sad and it's definitely still not my responsibility. If they don't care about us enough to ever do anything that will make us wanna stay(and keep the change alive because just one good deed in a lifetime of bad ones is not showing they are worth it to be around) so then why should I care if they gonna be sad if I go? We are not responsible for other people's feelings. Period.

Love,
—Alec.

 

[Kumachan]

maybe just a tiniest bit... Almost imperseptible... its interesting for me to know how one particular person would react but other than that no.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

No. I don't have many people in my life; most people act like I'm not even there. If they don't want to be a part of my life then they have no business dictating what I do with it.

They say suicide causes pain to others, but no one ever thinks about the other side: About the pain that might have been caused to a suicidal person in the first place - like in the case of bullying or abuse. Nobody seems to care, or take responsibility, for the pain they caused in how they treated, or behaved towards me, so why should I care about them? It's a 2-way street.

Suicide isn't a selfish act. It's a reaction to a selfish world.