sunbleachedflies
If it is meant to be then it will be.
- May 1, 2024
- 21
I am a complete failure, a collection of "almost" and "could've been". I couldn't live with this anymore. However, I feel this constant immense guilt for wanting to ctb. I have support from family and friends. They have always been around. My parents & extended family care for me. I have friends I can count on. But for this, I could not be honest to them about my struggle. 2 of my friends know, but not the severity of it. I cannot stop thinking about ctb. I look for methods, I "plan" what I will do.. but I could not get rid of this guilt and shame of wanting to do it.