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sammii

sammii

I have no idea what I’m doing.
Oct 9, 2019
221
Not really depraved..But I love to be totally dominated and hurt during sex.. choked, slapped, hair pulled, you name it..
Same! And getting tied up too, I'm super submissive in the bedroom. I think anything's fine tho as long as it's consensual and no one's getting hurt too bad :tongue:
 
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Bathsheba

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Aug 31, 2019
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Same! And getting tied up too, I'm super submissive in the bedroom. I think anything's fine tho as long as it's consensual and no one's getting hurt too bad :tongue:
Yes consensual is a must.. but the thing that crosses my mind lately is that because I self harm so much, is getting my sexual partners to hurt me just an extension of whatever drives me to self harm? Recently I was strangled so hard and slapped during sex and it was a massive turn on but after I cried alone. I'm just fucked up I guess.
 
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sammii

sammii

I have no idea what I’m doing.
Oct 9, 2019
221
Yes consensual is a must.. but the thing that crosses my mind lately is that because I self harm so much, is getting my sexual partners to hurt me just an extension of whatever drives me to self harm? Recently I was strangled so hard and slapped during sex and it was a massive turn on but after I cried alone. I'm just fucked up I guess.
Wow that's a really good point! I self harm too but I've never really thought about it like that, it makes sense tho. If it makes u feel any better, if you're fucked up then I guess I am too :wink:
 
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sammii

I have no idea what I’m doing.
Oct 9, 2019
221
How privileged is to have deranged kinks that one can conceivably put into practice. If I had a sex buddy with mutual care and affection, I'd be into all sorts - piss play, bondage, cnc, etc.

In reality, I'm still long for the first girl who wants to hold my hand. One who doesn't look away in disgust and actually notices that I exist. I can't even get that.

That's the difference between men and women. Women are as sexually adventurous as they want to be. Women can live whatever sex life they want to live. The most obscene fantasy for Monday can be played out for real by Friday. What women want, bedroom wise, they can get. But some men are left starved of everything for their entire lives. Having a fetish for such men is on a par with thoughts about teleportation, x ray vision, etc. It's not deranged, it's deluded. It's not a fantasy, it's a form of psychological masochism.
I'm pretty sure there's a lot of women out there that can't / aren't getting laid too, pretty sure it's not strictly a male thing. I can't physically get close to anyone rn because I have social anxiety and PTSD and whenever I've tried I freeze up and end up having a panic attack. I also have a friend who's the same age as me (28) and she's a virgin. Everyone has their own struggles, gender is irrelevant. I'm sure you can still find someone, you'd be surprised how many nonjudgmental women there are out there.
 
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Bathsheba

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How privileged is to have deranged kinks that one can conceivably put into practice. If I had a sex buddy with mutual care and affection, I'd be into all sorts - piss play, bondage, cnc, etc.

In reality, I still long for the first girl who wants to hold my hand. One who doesn't look away in disgust at my ugliness and actually notices that I exist. To feel wanted, rather than total dirt in the eyes of the opposite sex. I can't even get that. I will die sexless, loveless, alone.

That's the difference between men and women. Women are as sexually adventurous as they want to be. Women can live whatever sex life they want to live. The most obscene fantasy for Monday can be played out for real by Friday. What women want, bedroom wise, they can get. But some men are left starved of everything for their entire lives. Having a fetish for such men is on a par with thoughts about teleportation, x ray vision, etc. It's not deranged, it's fucking deluded. It's not a fantasy, it's a form of psychological masochism. A fantasy for a woman is flirting with possibility. For many men is the equivalent of having your head cracked in a vice.
You are passionate, sensitive and deep thinking. As I said in my PM those are appealing traits to any woman. X
 
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Sweet emotion

Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
I was into every vile, depraved fetish you could possibly imagine. That's part of why I wanted to start cross-sex HRT, to get rid of my disgusting libido. Now that I've been on estrogen and anti-androgens for nearly a year, I'm proud to say that my sex drive is almost entirely null. In fact, climax gives me physical pain and nausea now.
Oh that's not good though. It seems you went from one extreme to another.
Yeah, my fetish is to be loved by a man who doesn't look at other girls or compare my body/face to theirs. Someone who loves to cuddle with me and thinks I'm the cutest girl ever.
I don't think that's a fetish. I think that is what every girl wants.
Yeah, my fetish is to be loved by a man who doesn't look at other girls or compare my body/face to theirs. Someone who loves to cuddle with me and thinks I'm the cutest girl ever.
I don't think that's a fetish. I think that is what every girl wants.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
Gangbangs, bukkake, feet. That's my lot
 
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THCTemplar

Member
Oct 30, 2019
31
Gangbangs and cum. Love it.
 
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coma-baby

Misanthropic Drunken Loner
Aug 21, 2019
88
I like being roughed up. Powerless. I like when my partner is in charge. He gets bonus points for being mean.
 
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truthseeker

Student
Sep 9, 2019
123
Our thing was pretty vanilla but I had a professional dominatrix for a gf for a couple of years. I wasn't into the lifestyle and she was an anthropologist in real life. Her dungeon always amused me, she had everything.
 
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Self disgust

Im an idiot
Oct 20, 2019
10
Unfortunately i feel ya. Nothing illegal but sex is my downfall
 
ravergirl

ravergirl

Death becomes her
Jul 22, 2020
294
Many. Some of which I shouldn't talk about.
 
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