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sammii

sammii

I have no idea what I’m doing.
Oct 9, 2019
221
Not really depraved..But I love to be totally dominated and hurt during sex.. choked, slapped, hair pulled, you name it..
Same! And getting tied up too, I'm super submissive in the bedroom. I think anything's fine tho as long as it's consensual and no one's getting hurt too bad :tongue:
 
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Bathsheba

Specialist
Aug 31, 2019
318
Same! And getting tied up too, I'm super submissive in the bedroom. I think anything's fine tho as long as it's consensual and no one's getting hurt too bad :tongue:
Yes consensual is a must.. but the thing that crosses my mind lately is that because I self harm so much, is getting my sexual partners to hurt me just an extension of whatever drives me to self harm? Recently I was strangled so hard and slapped during sex and it was a massive turn on but after I cried alone. I'm just fucked up I guess.
 
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sammii

sammii

I have no idea what I’m doing.
Oct 9, 2019
221
Yes consensual is a must.. but the thing that crosses my mind lately is that because I self harm so much, is getting my sexual partners to hurt me just an extension of whatever drives me to self harm? Recently I was strangled so hard and slapped during sex and it was a massive turn on but after I cried alone. I'm just fucked up I guess.
Wow that's a really good point! I self harm too but I've never really thought about it like that, it makes sense tho. If it makes u feel any better, if you're fucked up then I guess I am too :wink:
 
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sammii

sammii

I have no idea what I’m doing.
Oct 9, 2019
221
How privileged is to have deranged kinks that one can conceivably put into practice. If I had a sex buddy with mutual care and affection, I'd be into all sorts - piss play, bondage, cnc, etc.

In reality, I'm still long for the first girl who wants to hold my hand. One who doesn't look away in disgust and actually notices that I exist. I can't even get that.

That's the difference between men and women. Women are as sexually adventurous as they want to be. Women can live whatever sex life they want to live. The most obscene fantasy for Monday can be played out for real by Friday. What women want, bedroom wise, they can get. But some men are left starved of everything for their entire lives. Having a fetish for such men is on a par with thoughts about teleportation, x ray vision, etc. It's not deranged, it's deluded. It's not a fantasy, it's a form of psychological masochism.
I'm pretty sure there's a lot of women out there that can't / aren't getting laid too, pretty sure it's not strictly a male thing. I can't physically get close to anyone rn because I have social anxiety and PTSD and whenever I've tried I freeze up and end up having a panic attack. I also have a friend who's the same age as me (28) and she's a virgin. Everyone has their own struggles, gender is irrelevant. I'm sure you can still find someone, you'd be surprised how many nonjudgmental women there are out there.
 
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Bathsheba

Specialist
Aug 31, 2019
318
How privileged is to have deranged kinks that one can conceivably put into practice. If I had a sex buddy with mutual care and affection, I'd be into all sorts - piss play, bondage, cnc, etc.

In reality, I still long for the first girl who wants to hold my hand. One who doesn't look away in disgust at my ugliness and actually notices that I exist. To feel wanted, rather than total dirt in the eyes of the opposite sex. I can't even get that. I will die sexless, loveless, alone.

That's the difference between men and women. Women are as sexually adventurous as they want to be. Women can live whatever sex life they want to live. The most obscene fantasy for Monday can be played out for real by Friday. What women want, bedroom wise, they can get. But some men are left starved of everything for their entire lives. Having a fetish for such men is on a par with thoughts about teleportation, x ray vision, etc. It's not deranged, it's fucking deluded. It's not a fantasy, it's a form of psychological masochism. A fantasy for a woman is flirting with possibility. For many men is the equivalent of having your head cracked in a vice.
You are passionate, sensitive and deep thinking. As I said in my PM those are appealing traits to any woman. X
 
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Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
I was into every vile, depraved fetish you could possibly imagine. That's part of why I wanted to start cross-sex HRT, to get rid of my disgusting libido. Now that I've been on estrogen and anti-androgens for nearly a year, I'm proud to say that my sex drive is almost entirely null. In fact, climax gives me physical pain and nausea now.
Oh that's not good though. It seems you went from one extreme to another.
Yeah, my fetish is to be loved by a man who doesn't look at other girls or compare my body/face to theirs. Someone who loves to cuddle with me and thinks I'm the cutest girl ever.
I don't think that's a fetish. I think that is what every girl wants.
Yeah, my fetish is to be loved by a man who doesn't look at other girls or compare my body/face to theirs. Someone who loves to cuddle with me and thinks I'm the cutest girl ever.
I don't think that's a fetish. I think that is what every girl wants.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Gangbangs, bukkake, feet. That's my lot
 
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THCTemplar

Member
Oct 30, 2019
31
Gangbangs and cum. Love it.
 
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coma-baby

coma-baby

Misanthropic Drunken Loner
Aug 21, 2019
88
I like being roughed up. Powerless. I like when my partner is in charge. He gets bonus points for being mean.
 
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truthseeker

Student
Sep 9, 2019
123
Our thing was pretty vanilla but I had a professional dominatrix for a gf for a couple of years. I wasn't into the lifestyle and she was an anthropologist in real life. Her dungeon always amused me, she had everything.
 
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Self disgust

Im an idiot
Oct 20, 2019
10
Unfortunately i feel ya. Nothing illegal but sex is my downfall
 
ravergirl

ravergirl

Death becomes her
Jul 22, 2020
294
Many. Some of which I shouldn't talk about.
 
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rachel_rayrayy

4rchangel.
Jun 15, 2026
17
I'm not sure how depraved this is considered, or if a paraphilia can technically be called a kink at all, however.. wireplay and synthetics have been very interesting as of late, to say the least.
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
7,279
Bro is Sanctioned Suicide a psy-op? Do they want to collect incriminatory information to blackmail us one day? Is the CIA or mossad behind Sanctioned Suicide? (Bro I could make a thread about that..) I am joking obviously. I won't share in what I am into. But it is suspicious this thread is so old. And after 7 years it is buried out again. Sounds like a false flag attack.
 
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Mrs. T-800

Mrs. T-800

schwarzenegger fangirl ♡t-800 from t2 is my love♡
Nov 25, 2025
158
Did you ever see Commando (1985), I want John Matrix to do everything he does to me instead of Arius' men.
I'll like to be his doll.
So, the answer is yes, at least in theory. I try in practice, and I just cry about it and run away.
But, I love T-800 the most, still, in my head, I imagine John Matrix just keeps me on this island and is depraved as hell.
I feel better when I think about getting injured. I think about Matrix's quote often: You don't just want to pull the trigger, you want to put the knife in me, and look me in the eye, and see what's going on in there when you turn it. That's what you want to do, right?
T-800 is a sweetheart and would never.
Sorry, I am drunk.

TLDR: Yes but only if it's me getting hurt in the end

gear up arnold schwarzenegger GIF
 
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softfur

sweet dreams my angel, at last goodbye
Mar 22, 2026
84
I feel better when I think about getting injured. I think about Matrix's quote often: You don't just want to pull the trigger, you want to put the knife in me, and look me in the eye, and see what's going on in there when you turn it. That's what you want to do, right?
yes this is awesome this is the shit

i don't need to respond to this and xpose myself for no reason but i am kicking my feet at some of these replies la la 🌸
 
Mrs. T-800

Mrs. T-800

schwarzenegger fangirl ♡t-800 from t2 is my love♡
Nov 25, 2025
158
yes this is awesome this is the shit

i don't need to respond to this and xpose myself for no reason but i am kicking my feet at some of these replies la la 🌸

Commando is a healing film and John Matrix makes me twirl my hair, kick my feet, make gum bubbles and write my i's and j's with hearts (I cannot be blamed and I do not fawn alone). I will happily absorb his anger.
It has good feet-kicking quotes. He's hanging a guy over a cliff begging for his life: Listen, loyalty is very touching. But it is not the most important thing in your life right now! But what IS important is gravity! I have to remind you Sully, this is my weak arm!
Swoon.

lets-party-arnold-schwarzenegger.gif


Honorable mention for Conan, too, I guess. But he's less vicious/torturous and more just, slay ASAP for revenge. Still, something like this would be fun and I hope he'd get a laugh.

Arnold Schwarzenegger Film GIF by Arrow Video
 
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Seneca65AD

Experienced
Oct 28, 2025
260
I live a life style of monogamy and religious penance - stricly no sex outside marriage; missionary position with eyes closed, no sex except for the purpose of procreation, and any self abuse is flagellation as dictated by the Old Testament and 13th century Christianity. I won't even shake my penis more than twice when urinating lest it be considered pleasure. All the rest of you heathen bastards are going to hell.

(There, let's see what the CIA and NSA can do with that)
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
221
Yes, I want to (lovingly) get beaten during sex. It's probably because of my low self esteem but idk
 

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