Does anyone feel like life already pasted them by?

[gravesfrommiami]

So recently i just turned 20 but I feel so old. I feel like all the fun things i use to do and enjoy i don't anymore and i feel like i missed a lot of opportunities to spend time with friends back when i was in high-school. Going on a field trip with them, going to prom with them.

All opportunities i will never get back and experience again. And since most of the people i know are always busy im usually always alone and it really sucks…

 

[Murt]

I'm so sorry you feel that way. I really hope you make some good connections that give you life

 

[im here i guess]

I feel somewhat similar. Im agoraphobic, I've spent so many years in my bed. I'm only 19, i know that I'm very young and I could have a lot of time left if I chose to, but I feel like I wasted my most important years. My chance at getting a good education is now gone, my body is unhealthy and I struggle to see myself fixing it realistically, things like that yk.
my childhood that I should have spent having fun, was spent in trauma in my room. The years I should have spent learning how to cope with the world and do basic tasks, I spent suffering alone. I feel like I wasted my chance to learn to be a human.
calling myself old wouldn't be accurate, I don't think either of us are old, but I understand what you're trying to say, I think. Childhood years are very important, and they're already gone now. I wonder what's left.

 

[lament.]

I feel somewhat similar. Im agoraphobic, I've spent so many years in my bed. I'm only 19, i know that I'm very young and I could have a lot of time left if I chose to, but I feel like I wasted my most important years. My chance at getting a good education is now gone, my body is unhealthy and I struggle to see myself fixing it realistically, things like that yk.
my childhood that I should have spent having fun, was spent in trauma in my room. The years I should have spent learning how to cope with the world and do basic tasks, I spent suffering alone. I feel like I wasted my chance to learn to be a human.
calling myself old wouldn't be accurate, I don't think either of us are old, but I understand what you're trying to say, I think. Childhood years are very important, and they're already gone now. I wonder what's left.

I relate to this a lot. I'm also 19 and spent the majority of my later school years in bed sick or in hospital. After I got well enough to go back to schooling I couldn't take the anxiety and depression so I dropped out, I've reached the point where I haven't left the house without my brother in months now. I don't see any real way of fixing my broken body and I've lost my chance at an education - not that I have the will to pursue one at this point.. With all the constant pain and fear I've been in throughout my life I also wonder what's left and what more life can bring, and whether or not I want to be around to find out.

 

[MrDarkness]

I'm 18 and I just graduated high school, fuck I feel old, it felt like I've lived 50 years, sure I had some good moments, mainly pain. I can't wait to pass on, I can finally rest my old bones lol

 

[im here i guess]

I relate to this a lot. I'm also 19 and spent the majority of my later school years in bed sick or in hospital. After I got well enough to go back to schooling I couldn't take the anxiety and depression so I dropped out, I've reached the point where I haven't left the house without my brother in months now. I don't see any real way of fixing my broken body and I've lost my chance at an education - not that I have the will to pursue one at this point.. With all the constant pain and fear I've been in throughout my life I also wonder what's left and what more life can bring, and whether or not I want to be around to find out.

Speaking from personal experience, im in a limbo of motivated and unmotivated. I desperately want to learn, I just... can't find the energy. It's not laziness, I genuinely find some things interesting and beautiful and I want to understand the world, I just can't bring myself to consistently study.
the only times ive gone outside in a very long time is when I'm drunk enough to not feel scared.
i feel like I'm in a prison and I want to be free.

 

[lament.]

Speaking from personal experience, im in a limbo of motivated and unmotivated. I desperately want to learn, I just... can't find the energy. It's not laziness, I genuinely find some things interesting and beautiful and I want to understand the world, I just can't bring myself to consistently study.
the only times ive gone outside in a very long time is when I'm drunk enough to not feel scared.
i feel like I'm in a prison and I want to be free.

I feel almost the same as you with your motivation issues, every now and again I will get the will to do something, maybe one day in a month - but it will disappear the next day and even thinking about trying to continue makes me feel tired and for a lack of a better word bored. Like all the emotions I just felt the day prior have dried up and gone completely numb.

Good old alcohol though, always helps get through our fears. One of the last times I can remember genuinely being happy was when I was the drunkest I've ever been in my life.

 

[im here i guess]

I feel almost the same as you with your motivation issues, every now and again I will get the will to do something, maybe one day in a month - but it will disappear the next day and even thinking about trying to continue makes me feel tired and for a lack of a better word bored. Like all the emotions I just felt the day prior have dried up and gone completely numb.

Good old alcohol though, always helps get through our fears. One of the last times I can remember genuinely being happy was when I was the drunkest I've ever been in my life.

I genuinely believe one day I can recover, if I really try. I'm not entirely out of hope yet.
I also resisted the urge to drink tonight, I feel pretty proud of myself for that.
I guess im just trying to reassure you a tiny bit, if I can

 

[HoldOnToThatHope]

I relate to this post. I turned 25 a few weeks ago and I felt a lot of things. However when I look back at me at 19/20 - I see a different person. I had different hobbies, talked to different people.
I believe that change is part of the journey and can be embraced. Sticking too close to the past can be destructive however. Figure out what you want to do right now - what makes you happy and stick to that!

Good luck :)