Does anyone else not want to die but feel like they have to?

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

I really, really want to live, and to this day I feel that way.

As others have already mentioned, death seems like the only way to get rid of the pain. I'm sticking around as long as I can though so that when the time comes (at this point I'm 98% certain that I'll die by suicide), I'll be certain. I think being certain of my suicide is the last comforting thing I can squeeze out of my life -- unless some miracle happens and the worst of my health issues disappear!

 

[Pure]

I really, really want to live, and to this day I feel that way.

As others have already mentioned, death seems like the only way to get rid of the pain. I'm sticking around as long as I can though so that when the time comes (at this point I'm 98% certain that I'll die by suicide), I'll be certain. I think being certain of my suicide is the last comforting thing I can squeeze out of my life -- unless some miracle happens and the worst of my health issues disappear!

I'm glad you feel that way about your life. Suicidal thoughts and planning is a form of hell

 

[Versailles]

There are many different points of view for each person on this topic. Generally, there are those who want something that can solve the problems in their life and thus give up CTB, but seeing the impossibility of achieving this, they feel that it is best to end everything and thus avoid unnecessary suffering.

On the other hand, there are those who may not have irreparable problems but still face the reality of knowing or feeling that life is simply absurd and meaningless and as time goes by, people are feeling more and more empty and unmotivated. .

I believe that I am between both parties, I do not think I will find a satisfactory solution to my problems, but I also do not believe that having a solution can give up CTB. I don't think CTB is some kind of duty that I have to fulfill, I just see it as a reasonable option, an escape.