I too wish it was very different. I was so close to having it all. Now there is no other option and on top of that why do the methods have to be so difficult. I'm new to this site because I HAVE to do this soon. No other option. Since I found the news that I can't live with all I've done is try to find a painless end. They all seem so hard. I thought benzo and alcohol but sadly that won't do. It's bad enough to have to go, it just shouldn't be so hard
I'm mad I was born and only have violent methods of suicide at my disposal. If I had a peaceful option I would take it and never look back from the void
Lupgevif
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- Jul 23, 2020
- 928
I am mad that dying by suicide is way too hard.
CarbonMonoxide
Marejeo ni ngamani
- Oct 13, 2019
- 369
I'm sorry to hear this. I also get pissed off by the futility of my existence and the absurd difficulty of ending it. If only we could simply wish ourselves dead, then again the human race would be long gone by now. Unfortunately even with N you have to fight the survival instinct. SI is like a sadistic prison guard.
BPD Barbie
Visionary
- Dec 1, 2019
- 2,361
Having to die by my own hand just feels cruel to someone who has already suffered so much in life. I wish it could be different, I do feel sad that it's come to this. I really do. Life and the world are beautiful things but I just wasn't made for it.
In the same boat. For me, I am salty that normies can get away with putting zero preparation into their inevitable expirations meanwhile us poor bastards will still posthumously catch flack even if we broke our backs making our deaths as straightforward to deal with as possible. It feels like we can't win. No matter what, we are deemed selfish. This is one of the main aspects of suicide I am miserably coming to terms with. It's hard.
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