Goodbye Sanctioned Suicide

[hihi2027]

When I went on Sanctioned Suicide I thought that I would find like minded individuals who heard my story but instead it is just the same crap as every other platform. I am constantly shut out by everyone - no one can connect to me no one at all; they just shut me out because I am pathetic and nothing. They promised me a community but it's not that at all - it is an echo chamber of misery, which yes thats what this site is for. It is for you to share thoughts on suicide that you otherwise would not be able to, but they trick you with lies of a community. There is no community, it is just a forum made up of islands owned by individuals with their own strugglea that will never feel anyone connect to their story. You will get passbyers that perhaps react with a heart or hug or a thumbs up (hate this one) and maybe a useless comment but that's it. I have never been able to hold friendships anywhere, not even on here. I am just not here for anyone I suppose and no one wants me. I am a boring piece of crap; no one wants me here. They offer to message you but they never get back to me. Only after 10 hours they get back to me and give a 2 sentence reponse. It's they don't care. Why would they? am not worth anyone's time. Do not even reply to this post honestly don't even bother. I will disappoint you and I will disappoint myself. I am a waste of space in all communities I go to, even this one. No one cares about me. All I wanted was a friend that would listen and not abandon me but obviously I do not deserve that and guys do not even bother messaging me; I will not want to be burned again and I've already seen enough. I only want this site for a method and I have mine already it's just a matter of planning it at this point and gathering the resources needed. But even that part is going to take awhile, so I have to suffer in limbo for who knows how long.

 

[SASU-KE]

It's been just around 1 1/2 months since you have joined. It takes time. Chemistry needs to be there for good relationships. Both people need to like each other and meet at the right stage of their lives.
It's not an indictment against you.

If you message someone going through a really tough time now, or is busy or is getting evicted or one of the many difficult things people here face they won't be able to respond much. So you need to give people leeway.

Give it time and Stick around Please.You just need one good friend. You'll eventually meet them.

If you don't, I'll look at your past post history and give you likes(thumbs up) for every single post.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Sorry for replying, but I feel the same, I never had friends because I was severely neglected and bullied and even in online people make fun of me because where I'm from, who I am. I get the worthless and useless feeling so much when I try to make friends it's always end up in regretting like why did i even tried in the first place?! When in my college everyone has friends I frickin sit down and my heart goes up thinking people will pity me on how frickin lonely I am. I don't want to be pitied, judged, feel like I don't belong, worthless but that's what I feel all of these years and I just isolate myself....I just wanted human connection but I couldn't because I feel like I don't deserve that somehow cause my trauma believed me that and I don't know why people seems to ignore me so much until there's something really important thing to ask.

I feel so ashamed that I still keep breathing I don't even feel like a human, I feel like I am an alien who is lost in this stupid planet. I hope the best for you. You can connect with me...I can't say about a good friendship but a human connection.

 

[EternalShore]

I'm sorry you feel that way about here~ :( I think it's mentioned somewhere, but a lot of the people here are depressed, meaning that it is more difficult for them to make responses and maintain active discussion~ unfortunately, I too have difficulties with making friends~ >_< not to mention all the working and studying means that I'm hampered as to how quick I can make responses (usually on Sundays)~ >_< I hope you can make friends~ :( I hope I can too~ >_< I do think people do make connections and friendships here, altho it's not as often as one would like~ >_< I feel like that's been a recent shift unfortunately, whereas it used to be easier in that regard~ >~<

When in my college everyone has friends I frickin sit down and my heart goes up thinking people will pity me on how frickin lonely I am. I don't want to be pitied, judged, feel like I don't belong, worthless but that's what I feel all of these years and I just isolate myself....I just wanted human connection but I couldn't because I feel like I don't deserve that somehow cause my trauma believed me that and I don't know why people seems to ignore me so much until there's something really important thing to ask.

it'd be really neat if people could come over and talk to us~ >_<

 

[booplesnoot34]

Well that's sad. I only saw one of your posts but I saw a bunch of people replying and giving advice. Tbh it's hard to make friends here because so many of us die.

 

[MatiSendiri]

I hate to say it but you have good rest for the last few days? I think you need it