Does anyone else feel kind of sad that it’s come to this?

[sserafim]

Does anyone else feel kind of sad that it's come to this? Personally, I guess I had a pretty privileged upbringing, I was born and grew up in one of America's richest towns, and then went to an elite high school and then one of the best colleges. I think that I had many opportunities along the way to succeed, but because of my neurotype (ASD), I failed and became a hiki after college. My parents view me as a failure because I failed to launch into the workforce/real world. However, I think that the world just wasn't built or meant for me…

 

[ctbcat]

not in the most similar of circumstances, but i still feel the same sentiment, yeah. i wish i could pretend i didn't care i'm taking my life, but as much rationalisation as i can plant into my brain, it's still pretty fucking sad

 

[walkingdead2023]

I relate my family called "rich" and I was the younger to graduate with RN diploma and now in NP program which I'm hoping to be gone way before graduating.. the thing is depression and sadness do not discriminate we all in this together I do feel sad but that's my every day.. I have no clue why I'm depressed and want to CTB life it's just not for me! I hear you friend! Did you try therapy?

 

[sserafim]

I relate my family called "rich" and I was the younger to graduate with RN diploma and now in NP program which I'm hoping to be gone way before graduating.. the thing is depression and sadness do not discriminate we all in this together I do feel sad but that's my every day.. I have no clue why I'm depressed and want to CTB life it's just not for me! I hear you friend! Did you try therapy?

I tried therapy (CBT) before during high school, but it didn't work on me. I heard that it doesn't usually work on people with ASD, something about how our minds are wired or something…

 

[walkingdead2023]

I tried therapy (CBT) before during high school, but it didn't work on me.

What about ABA?

 

[divinemistress36]

Ya I'm sad I never got to experience love or a career

 

[notforl0ng]

I think an unfortunate reality of the modern world is that it wasn't built with most of us in mind. Humans aren't meant to be caged and forced into voluntary slavery. On top of that everybody's just reproducing way too much and expecting each and every person to achieve the very best. Competition has always been in human nature but we're genuinely in the most dystopian hellscape humanity has ever seen.

I'm not saying life a thousand years ago was easier, but if you wanted to go off into the wilderness and homestead and not be bothered by anybody, it was as easy as working for a month or two, buying your tools, and doing it. Minimum wage can't even pay for a one bedroom apartment anymore, and if I move to somewhere where they're cheaper there isn't any work.

I had all of the odds stacked entirely against me growing up and ended up successful with a great paying job, but the pressure of having to keep that up or lose everything I worked so hard for is daunting and I cracked. Untreated mental illness and a poor choice in friends led to me developing a severe drinking habit and I'm gonna lose that job. You really need to have a specific mentality to keep going onwards and upwards in this life. Most of us are going to end up miserable.

I just wish "only the strong survive" was a phrase that was still applicable. Anybody can survive these days, actually getting to live is hard and dying is hard as fuck. Who would have thunk it

 

[Forever Sleep]

To be honest, not really. It's felt fairly inevitable from a young age for me.

 

[sserafim]

What about ABA?

I don't think I've ever tried or heard of that, thanks for letting me know about it

 

[John-Doe]

it is kind of unfortunate, i'd rather just live a happy life. when i was suicidal in the past though i felt a lot more sad about missing out on my future, whereas now i find it somewhat relieving.

i guess i've become more accepting of the fact that it's the right choice for me, although there are still a few things it would've been nice to experience first.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I'm not sad because of this. I've grown apathetic to life in general and I have been for ages. I'm just sad because I'm forced to continue existing despite me wishing to be dead. As long as I'm dead, I don't have to care about life or what could have been

 

[sserafim]

To be honest, not really. It's felt fairly inevitable from a young age for me.

I kind of feel this way as well. I never wanted to live past 18 and thought that I would never reach adulthood. I never saw or envisioned myself becoming an adult. I feel like it's my fate and destiny to die young…

 

[walkingdead2023]

I don't think I've ever tried or heard of that, thanks for letting me know about it

Np. ABA is for ASD, I can tell you they are so smart like genius! Something about your brain it's setup for computers and other electronics that none can figure! My friend is like that too I do believe he's here somewhere

 

[sserafim]

I think an unfortunate reality of the modern world is that it wasn't built with most of us in mind. Humans aren't meant to be caged and forced into voluntary slavery. On top of that everybody's just producing way too many humans and expecting each and every one of them to achieve the very best. Competition has always been in human nature but we're genuinely in the most dystopian hellscape humanity has ever seen.

I hate this. I hate how life is just about survival and competition. I hate how adulthood is basically modern-day slavery and how people have to work for a living just to survive. I hate how people have to become slaves to capitalism and society for the majority of their adult lives. Personally, I'm refusing to participate in the system, I don't want to conform. I don't want to compete with others in the capitalist rat race, I guess I'm voluntarily opting out. I'm also at a disadvantage anyways because everything is about social interaction and talking to/interacting with people, you'll have to socialize wherever you go. I wish that I didn't have to (eventually) participate in society and instead could escape it.

 

[Homo erectus]

Yes, it's sad that people don't always get what they want. But time is still on your side. You can still wait for the world to change.

 

[R_N]

I probably still have part of me that would be content in different circumstances but then I take a look around and see many around me struggling. Even well off people can't escape limitations of their human bodies and urges.

And am I sad that it ended like this for me... well, when I consider all living beings and what they have to do in order to survive just to die eventually, and then how the cycle was a thing long before me... I don't really see the point in being sad anymore. This is not just about me and there are so many things I don't even know about this world or any. We don't even know enough about earth, particularly depths of it. Yesterday there was a short earthquake here and it made me think. One day even this planet and all lives on it might end and there will be no one to tell the tale.

Sorry I kinda went off topic but I don't think it is unrelated, not to me. I just think what I wanted of this life previously isn't that important when it comes to the bigger picture. I also think most if it was thrown at me by parents, society, nurture, nature... What am I in the end and why would my needs be anything more than an impulse. They felt important because of the urge but are they? -just based on that...


I am sorry I feel so out of place recently whenever I am being honest.

 

[Silent Raindrops]

Yes and no...

Yes, it's sad because it's taken so long.

And no, when my world got flipped upside down, and the one thing that meant the most to me in this world got taken from me, I'm no longer sad, I'm now more determined than ever to finish this once and for all.

There's absolutely nothing that can, or will, change that.

 

[Raven2]

Very much so. Plagued with social anxiety from a young age, depression hit in my teens after unfortunate events, mental health up and down in my 20s. I have had somewhat of good life then I had a breakdown some years ago, fucked everything up and now I'm left in this suicidal state. Life could've continued to be good but it's just my luck really. Some days I have hope but then I realise I've had my chance and it's all gone to pot. Dont see how things are going to change.

 

[notforl0ng]

I hate this. I hate how life is just about survival and competition. I hate how adulthood is basically modern-day slavery and how people have to work just fo survive. I hate how people have to become slaves to capitalism and society for the majority of their adult lives. Personally I'm refusing to participate in the system, I don't want to conform.

I'm in the same boat. I'd reject society and return to monke if I could. Life is to be lived and enjoyed. You're looked down on and outcast if you choose to do that by people who don't know how to do anything other than be a slave and fight to the top of the pile or die trying.

We're exactly the same as cattle in a slaughterhouse, and I've tried so hard to look at it any other way but it always comes back to that. I'm neurodivergent too so I understand not fitting in, not wanting anything to do with the rat race. It's completely unnatural.

 

[sserafim]

Yes, it's sad that people don't always get what they want. But time is still on your side. You can still wait for the world to change.

There's nothing that I want out of life though, there's nothing that I want to become. Ever since I was little, I didn't even have a dream job/career, there was nothing that I wanted to be. I don't want to become just another NPC normie, I don't want to become just another slave to society and the system. I also don't want what most people want in life, the checklist society has for being successful never appealed to me.

 

[Henryk]

I understand what you mean, I didn't have as many privileges as you but I also didn't experience any needs throughout my life. Even so, I feel like a complete failure and I feel terrible about having to get to the point where I have to resort to the CTB. My biggest regret is knowing the pain I will leave behind for those who will stay here, I just wanted a way to not cause more problems for the people around me but I know that this is kind of impossible. The reality is that I didn't really want to kill myself, I wanted to be happy and live a happy life next to the one I love, but after suffering for so long I know that my destiny is to leave this world as quickly as possible.

 

[sserafim]

I'm in the same boat. I'd reject society and return to monke if I could. Life is to be lived and enjoyed. You're looked down on and outcast if you choose to do that by people who don't know how to do anything other than be a slave and fight to the top of the pile or die trying.

We're exactly the same as cattle in a slaughterhouse, and I've tried so hard to look at it any other way but it always comes back to that. I'm neurodivergent too so I understand not fitting in, not wanting anything to do with the rat race. It's completely unnatural.

Definitely. I don't understand why everything in this world is just about survival and competition. We're like cattle being bred for slaughter. It's like we're being farmed. The sad thing is that normies look forward to participating in the capitalist rat race, they enjoy competing with each other. They love to out-do and out-class each other. Personally, I just don't see the point of it all. What's the point? We all die in the end anyways, at the end of the day, your achievements won't matter.

 

[Relic]

Success is a strange thing, no one is not quite there yet. It's like chasing a shadow, the goal posts are ever moving, too much is never enough. People still end up empty and dead inside. I guess it is the ability to appreciate what is there that allows the feelings of happiness. Some use drugs to get there, but in the end it's all the same. The "focus on the journey, not the result" does not apply here, because all the buzzkill, all the sacrifices are in the name of results. Somehow successful people are some of the most miserable humans to walk the earth.

 

[Homo erectus]

Success is a strange thing, no one is not quite there yet. It's like chasing a shadow, the goal posts are ever moving, too much is never enough. People still end up empty and dead inside. I guess it is the ability to appreciate what is there that allows the feelings of happiness. Some use drugs to get there, but in the end it's all the same. The "focus on the journey, not the result" does not apply here, because all the buzzkill, all the sacrifices are in the name of results. Somehow successful people are some of the most miserable humans to walk the earth.

Even the most successful people will die one day. Will they feel empty and meaningless at last? Do some people don't really die? They just change body. Some people seem to have a much longer and deeper plan.

 

[R_N]

Definitely. We're like cattle being bred for slaughter. It's like we're being farmed. The sad thing is that normies look forward to participating in the capitalist rat race, they enjoy competing with each other. They love to out-do and out-class each other. Personally, I just don't see the point of it all. What's the point? We all die in the end anyways, at the end of the day, your achievements won't matter.

I feel some of us would enjoy being a monk in some monastery more than participating in a rat race.

But whenever I think about that I remember those people believe in things I consider a fairy tale (like reincarnation). I also never attempted to meditate for a prolonged amount of time or give up some of my urges and habits completely. I do dance around the idea and find it appealing tho.

 

[terra.nuvo]

I would say i'm in a kind of similar situation and yeah it really sucks. I had so many hopes for my life but due to the way my mind works I have put myself in a position where I don't see a content and livable future. I wish things were different but here I am.

 

[Homo erectus]

There's nothing that I want out of life though, there's nothing that I want to become. Ever since I was little, I didn't even have a dream job/career, there was nothing that I wanted to be. I don't want to become just another NPC normie, I don't want to become just another slave to society and the system. I also don't want what most people want in life, the checklist society has for being successful never appealed to me.

Yes, in a sense the world seems to have become more narrow and rigid. There are more fixed perceptions on what success is. Internet makes people compare with the world, the outstanding, the highest likes. Before internet, people looked more locally. Not everyone had the mind on becoming "successful". Perhaps life was still not meaningful after all, but there was probably not that strong pressure to quit.

 

[heisenberg]

i'm sad i'll never get to see what my life could have been. i was in honors and had great grades until my sophomore year of high school and nearly didn't graduate. i pulled through the last half of my senior year. i didn't go to college. i had dreams, and i'm still interested in, of becoming a nurse or a paramedic. i would have been the first person in my family to graduate college. both my parents immigrated to the US from different countries. i feel like im letting them down. so i guess i just mourn the life i'll never have. maybe in another universe, but not this one.

 

[girlsboysthems]

yeah...

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I don't want to die but circumstances may require CTB. Yes I'm kinda sad that I failed and probably will have to end my life if things don't get better.