Does anybody else here genuinely not have any friends?

[bing]

I'm literally socially isolated and hate my parents. My one "friend" lives across the country lmao.

It's over

 

[Lullaby]

None at all. My last one and the person who I was the closest to, recently manipulated and took advantage of me. So I'm completely alone now.

 

[whatevs]

I can only relate 50%, as I am mostly friendless but have family.

 

[TheBroken]

None - nada

 

[Kismet]

I was just curious if anybody here can relate. I have been to multiple depression forums and suicide chat rooms before, and I noticed that most of these people are quite normal. People would always mention that the reason they'd never commit suicide is because of friends and family, and seeing that over and over would make me feel really terrible inside. I wonder if anyone here understands what it's like to have nobody.

I feel like i could have made this post 100%. I literally have nobody and it's my own doing. I'm right there with you when wondering about exactly this. Trust me when I say that I have nobody and I understand exactly what that is like. I credit myself and my selfishness as most of the reason. If it wasn't for my dog, I'd have done been fine and that's a fact that I am very certain of

 

[Mtnwildflowers]

None anymore. I had a few good friends for over a decade but Once they had kids it was like they moved to a different phase in life and are too busy to bother with friends anymore

 

[alwaysSuffering]

I don't have what I think constitutes as a friend. There are some people who I know and I could send them a text and get a response. But if I'm having a bad day and wanted to talk to someone in person or on the phone, I have literally nobody. I don't have anyone who I can hang out with. It seems like nobody would ever talk to me if I didn't contact them. I've tested this theory several times in the past and people who I would contact regularly literally never talked to me again once I stopped initiating. So I realized they were never really friends and were just being friendly out of politeness.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

None. The last one which I thought I had was selfish and non understanding. And by friends, if you mean someone with whom I could share most of the things in life, genuinely enjoy being with them ,not feel constanly anxious and count on them for getting even minor help, then none in the past 12 years atleast. I certainly miss having a true friend but it doesn't matter now.

 

[MatthewV3]

I have literally 0 friends in real life. The only person I am talking to is my mother. I spend all days on suicide/depression forums as this is the only way to interact with people.

 

[whatevs]

None. The last one which I thought I had was selfish and non understanding. And by friends, if you mean someone with whom I could share most of the things in life, genuinely enjoy being with them ,not feel constanly anxious and count on them for getting even minor help, then none in the past 12 years atleast. I certainly miss having a true friend but it doesn't matter now.

Did you use to be mark'something'?

 

[watchingthewheels]

I'm estranged from my abusive family, and my one good friend has moved on, without me. (The other "friends" I did have I found I could not trust or were betrayed by them.) I just have online "friends", at this point, who I've never met in person, and two high school friends in other states who I haven't seen since, well, high school. But none I'm in physical contact with. And honestly, after finding out the truth about my family, and being betrayed by "friends", I'm not exactly eager to try and make new ones. My heart's been done in.

 

[existcrisisactor]

yes i have none i came here hoping to find like minded frens i hope i can make frens with some of you

 

[fatefulstillness]

No friends left. At some point I knew a lot of people, some were genuinely good, but sometimes bonds break and things don't work out. Some others were pretty good at not caring much, and apparently I am good at disappearing.

 

[Vyking]

you've got yourself you just have to start taking better care of yourself

 

[littleshopofhorrors]

I feel like it would be disrespectful to say that they're not my friends, and while I love them, I don't know if I could go to them if I were in a crisis. So ultimately I feel very alone; especially when I'm going through a mental health crisis.

 

[theloserestloser]

i only have men who want sex out of me. i keep them around because im so lonely but the second i say no to them they cut me off forever.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

Did you use to be mark'something'?

Yeah. That was my username earlier

 

[Fml]

I don't really have many friends either. I have a friend who I've known for over ten years who I still talk to but his opinions annoy me at times. My best friends are my mum and my two dogs. I don't really trust most people as I've been hurt and rejected in the past so I only really trust my close family and my dogs. If anyone here needs anyone to talk to feel free to message me.

i only have men who want sex out of me. i keep them around because im so lonely but the second i say no to them they cut me off forever.

I can relate to this. I was talking to guys on a dating site and they would either just be after sex and if I didn't want that they'd stop talking to me and even the guys who weren't like that would just push me away for no reason. It hurts .

 

[Rogue]

I have noobody.

Mine too.

Same here. Nobody

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I guess I technically do. What do I mean by that? Well, today my "friend" mentioned a card store that recently opened an hour away and I suggested that we could check it out. He said "maybe, I'll let you know". Almost 4 hours later and I have not heard from him so idk.

Just reaffirms my position that my life sucks since no one wants to even hang out. Not that I blame them. I am a dud in life.

 

[2020wanderlust]

I'm an introvert with no friends although I do socialise with work colleagues. I have a very social boyfriend though. I dont like/trust people and find making conversations to be exhaustive but that's not the reason I want to ctb.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I have no friends since 6 years, occasionally men approach me when I'm not shut in the house however I have deep rooted trust issues because of my childhood, teenage trauma, and first abusive relationship

 

[Sprite_Geist]

No. I am not connected to anybody else enough to consider them a friend. There are maybe 1 or 3 acquaintances who consider me their friend, but the relationship that we have is superficial - I do not want to be their friends either.

 

[butterfly3]

i have one and we dont speak very often outside of school, so i pretty much spend all my time alone at home in my room with no notifications or texts, unless they're my mum calling me to bring her a charger or something.
Even though i have one friend i still feel so deeply lonely so you aren't alone

 

[blissfulbacon]

I have friends but what I lack is a true connection to them

 

[nopride86]

I don't have any friends! Never have. I was discouraged from making friends growing up, punished for it when I tried, and most people could sense that something was "off" from a mile away anyway. Then, I just never had the right skills as an adult.

I've always managed to have a boyfriend though….for a long time I thought that counted but it just doesn't. It also became a breeding ground for codependency and enmeshment. I think I'm actually Ace, but I learned very young that the closest I can get to friendship is if I offer my body first.

I feel like I've missed some part of the human experience. I watch shows with many seasons, so the characters become like friends to me. Same with bands that I've listened to for years. I have no desire to have a real friendship anymore, it seems like too much maintenance. I don't even want a relationship with my family, but as long as they're around, I don't have the mental and emotional bandwidth to let anyone else in. Unless I CTB, that means at least another 30 years of their shit. I'm struggling as it is to make sure my partner feels valued, there's barely room for him as it is.

So TL:DR can't miss what you never had. But in moments of clarity, it's pretty damn sad.

 

[Fml]

I have like one friend who I've been friends with for quite a while now but I've not seen them in a long time, just talk to them online everyday. The last time I met up with a friend and did something with them like meet up for a coffee was so long ago! So yeah, I'm virtually friendless, I find going out and socialising tiring and I'm not very good at it, probably due to my Aspergers.

 

[TapeMachine]

I had 3 best friends for 15, 14, and 20-something years. In the last year, however, I have dropped all of them.

I just realized recently how poorly I chose friends when I was younger. Every one of those friends abused my desire to "keep the peace" (conflict makes me uncomfortable). They took advantage of that, but I ignored it for years and years. And I finally decided that I'd rather have zero friends than 3 "best friends" who don't really care about me as a person.

So now I have zero friends.

Edit: I'm scared some of you will think my post here sounds stuck-up, like maybe I suddenly think I'm so much better than those friends. So I just want to say that it's nothing like that; I simply started respecting myself for the first time in my life, and I decided I will not accept less than respect and love from my friends. If that makes better sense?? :)

 

[arcadia]

I had one best friend for most of my life, but not in the past few years. We used to play SSB and stuff together, but we split up after GCSEs because we had to go our seperate ways. I've tried to keep contact, but it seems like it wont be possible to remain friends.

 

[Hotsackage]

due to my cognitive decline i do have friends but i dont talk to them as much. just merry christmas and happy birthdays. basically other then that i just make sarcastic comments because thats all the cognition i got left. would rather just be left alone so i can rot and meditate or drink