does anybody else feel like they're destined for death

[snooperdooper]

no matter what i do i feel like the only trajectory in my recovery is getting worse. there have been fleeting moments of hope but they're fleeting for a reason. it feels like every step i take forward into my recovery diminishes my mental health even more. i was happier when i wanted to kill myself because at least i had a feasible end goal with no more suffering. now it just feels like i am struggling just to get the opportunity to struggle more. things just keep getting worse and worse and i really wanna get better but they just get worse. everything gets worse. why am i such a pussy? why am i so scared of death?

 

[Cyagangy]

It's human nature to be scared, also death is inherently apart of the human experience. I don't know much about your situation or how fucked you are but I'd say that you probably can't keep running from what ever is happening.

 

[getoutgirl]

It's human nature to be scared, also death is inherently apart of the human experience. I don't know much about your situation or how fucked you are but I'd say that you probably can't keep running from what ever is happening.

"i don't know you or your situation at all but you are probably going to die and can't run from that ^^" ?
is that your take? to say to someone u don't know in the recovery section
do i have very poor reading comprehension here?
or wtf <3

 

[Cyagangy]

"i don't know you or your situation at all but you are probably going to die and can't run from that ^^" ?
is that your take? to say to someone u don't know in the recovery section
do i have very poor reading comprehension here?
or wtf <3

Dude. We are ALL going to eventually die. I think I poorly worded it here but I meant it in that regard and not in the "All is lost we're going to die soon" way.

 

[grandmotherboxing]

We're all destined for death. We all deal with hopelessness but depression can be functional, much like how joy is fleeting so can this blackness inside. It is very hard to but there's an ability to learn when it comes and when it goes

 

[akafuka1999]

I am. Only drugs would help me but it would only prolong my life. I must ctb.

 

[caquico]

no matter what i do i feel like the only trajectory in my recovery is getting worse. there have been fleeting moments of hope but they're fleeting for a reason. it feels like every step i take forward into my recovery diminishes my mental health even more. i was happier when i wanted to kill myself because at least i had a feasible end goal with no more suffering. now it just feels like i am struggling just to get the opportunity to struggle more. things just keep getting worse and worse and i really wanna get better but they just get worse. everything gets worse. why am i such a pussy? why am i so scared of death?

Yeah its kinda like that. Everyday i just feel so down and hopeless all the time. Even when i tried and ''got'' better after some time i just begin to feel hopeless again. Its like ctb is the only option for me. No matter when or where i just feel so alone and so depressed every day. But the thought of dying relieves me. Yet i feel very scared of death itself. i feel like i'm running on borrowed time you know.

 

[Hime]

it's a neverending feeling. A conclusion I came forwards to when I was really young, that I was simply meant to CTB one day. That this is my Destiny. No matter how much time passas it never changes...