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iblamethemfr

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May 5, 2026
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Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
 
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F@#$

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Nov 8, 2023
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If for whatever reason I pass in my sleep, great. But I'm almost positive gun fire will end my life.
 
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iblamethemfr

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May 5, 2026
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If for whatever reason I pass in my sleep, great. But I'm almost positive gun fire will end my life.
I'm going for a SN, cause i'm not planning on shooting myself i feel like i might survive and that gonna suck
 
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bl33ding_heart

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Jun 24, 2025
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I'm honestly kind of conflicted on this. 💀
 
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Bishop

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Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
Many of us feel this I think. We don't want to continue on with pain and suffering.
 
tannhausers

tannhausers

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Apr 23, 2026
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I think everyone wants to die peacefully in their sleep

With a sole exception of masochists, of course
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
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Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
None of us will ever be that lucky--I envy actor Walter Matthau's death
 
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F@#$

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Nov 8, 2023
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I'm going for a SN, cause i'm not planning on shooting myself i feel like i might survive and that gonna suck
I'm not so sure someone else won't be the one shooting me. I'm 100% equipped to do it myself, but I'm finding myself on everyone's bad side lately. Fuck 'em all.
 
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sanctionedusage

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Sep 17, 2025
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peaceful deaths creep me out for some reason. i got anxious the first time i watched that MAID video of that one applicant's experiences. she got all dressed up, laid in bed, took a drink, ate chocolate to wash out the taste, claimed to get sleepy and just passed right there, surrounded by family. gives me the heebie jeebies. i don't think it was SN, but idk. i also heard a case of a girl who went to sleep, heart heart suddenly stopped, and she just never woke up. suicide or not, it unsettles me. i guess it just seems too similar to a living process like sleeping or taking a nap that it registers in my brain as treacherous rather than peaceful.
 
iblamethemfr

iblamethemfr

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May 5, 2026
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None of us will ever be that lucky--I envy actor Walter Matthau's death
there was a girl we knew before and she was almost the same age as me, she died while she was asleep and i feel guilty for feeling envious but yeah i 100% believe that suicidal people won't have such a peaceful gifted end
Many of us feel this I think. We don't want to continue on with pain and suffering.
Yeah for sure
 
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FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, it's all I want, in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

It truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of this terrible, painful existence, to me existence will always be a mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd only be relieved to never exist ever again. It's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all, only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.
 
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iblamethemfr

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peaceful deaths creep me out for some reason. i got anxious the first time i watched that MAID video of that one applicant's experiences. she got all dressed up, laid in bed, took a drink, ate chocolate to wash out the taste, claimed to get sleepy and just passed right there, surrounded by family. gives me the heebie jeebies. i don't think it was SN, but idk. i also heard a case of a girl who went to sleep, heart heart suddenly stopped, and she just never woke up. suicide or not, it unsettles me. i guess it just seems too similar to a living process like sleeping or taking a nap that it registers in my brain as treacherous rather than peaceful.
you got a point there, if it could be announced before it happens
I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, it's all I want, in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

It truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of this terrible, painful existence, to me existence will always be a mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd only be relieved to never exist ever again. It's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all, only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.
I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, it's all I want, in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

It truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of this terrible, painful existence, to me existence will always be a mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd only be relieved to never exist ever again. It's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all, only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.
I understand you. non-existence feels less frightening than continuing to endure a reality built around suffering, its a curse
 
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PanaxMan

Arcanist
Apr 11, 2023
426
Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
When I'm sleeping or when I'm chilling. After all it's probably what vsed does to me I hope
 

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