Discussion Do you think you are a bad person?

[Megsallthewaydone]

Yes. I try not to but I can be extremely Machiavellian. My bpd makes me an awful person as well. I'm an imposter so by not being genuine, that's another "bad" aspect

I can relate 100%

 

[Gray Wounds]

No. But I'm so good being bad. And if I am bad, then, I don't bloody regret it.

 

[lululoo]

I don't know anymore. Right now I feel like a bad person. Generally I don't. I wonder if I am worse than I realize. Probably. I hate that because I don't want to be a bad person on top of all my other failings.

 

[HelpPlease]

Yes I was a piece of shut drug addict deadbeat dad

 

[Allpainnogain]

YES the very worst kind. I hate myself

I think I've become a bad person.

I feel like I don't care enough about the few people in my life who still care about me. I am numb to their needs, and tend to shut them all out because it's easier for me that way. It seems like some empathetic and compassionate part of me that used to function is now broken. Generally now, when I hear about terrible things that have happened to others, I don't really feel or think anything anymore. I often have to force myself to say socially-congruent things in those situations, but I don't really mean it. Sometimes I feel so numb and indifferent that I wonder if I am becoming a sociopath.

I guess I just feel like I am a waste of space that's toxic to the few people who try to stay connected with me. I don't know if that makes me a bad person, but I'm certain it doesn't make me a good one.

I really feel this way too and hate myself for it because I used to feel so deeply for others

 

[DrownedOctopus]

I think I'm a shit person. I have so many issues and bad habits and god awful mental health that I'm convinced everyone in my life is always incredibly irritated with me and the shit they have to deal with because of me.
I definitely feel like that lonely person everyone feels sorry enough for to strike a conversation, but they immediately regret that decision because it turns out I'm the shittiest human being they've ever encountered.
Somehow I have friends, but I don't understand why anyone puts up with me.

 

[LastFlowers]

I think I am a "good" person where a lot people are not, but I also think I am becoming a "bad" person in other ways, because of the inevitable bitterness my situation allocates.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

Yeea-no... Maybe? I don't know. I'm honestly not sure. Hence my username. I have conflicts with myself, and I well, I love cats.

 

[Kaladin]

yes, I'm a terrible person, especially to my parents. but I swear I tried my best.

 

[Vero]

I have tried to be good and empathetic for the most part.

 

[Dun Emeritus]

Well, I am willing to kill myself knowing it would absolutely devastate my girlfriend. And I don't care if my friends miss me. So I think that means I'm not exactly a good person.

 

[sunny.sativa]

When I'm experiencing a depressive episode, I'm an asshole. I'm just rude and condescending and just.. my words are harsh and it makes me hate myself because my purpose is to be KIND and lift people up, not shit on their feelings, y'know? Especially my family. All I want is to be kind and loving to them, always.
But the words just dump out of my mouth, no stopping them and I apologize afterwards.. so people KNOW I'm fuckin nuts. Aaghhh

I guess I don't think I'm a BAD person, just.. mean ;((

No. I'm a product of my environment. I'm not a bad person. My father is and I've learnt everything from him. From him l learned to bully, abuse, manipulate, lie, decieve. Didn't realise I was like him until it was to late. People could see there was something not right about me. And they left. All the people that mattered left because they could see evil in me. I don't hate myself. I hate my father and I don't think I'll ever forgive him. I had happiness in my life and I couldn't sustain it because he's messed me up. If I ever achieve happiness again I'm not letting it anywhere near my father

I have to say this. You're not your dad. You don't have to be like him and if you've made the choice to be, you cannot blame him for your personality. You can be better than him.

 

[Roger]

I had some good points, but fundamentally I was selfish and unkind.

 

[KnightOfEnceladus]

No. I know for certain I was not. Not the best either, but I've always kept to myself and know I've objectively done more, much more, good than evil. I just got unlucky, have always been unlucky, and always suffered for doing the right thing and putting others ahead of myself. Well...it's almost over, with any luck. I need to do the one massively selfish thing I will ever do; figures it would be my death, huh?

 

[Livinginhell]

Yes, definitely. I say things without thinking of the consequences, I think bad things unintentionally, I do things that I shouldn't and am totally absorbed in myself /problems nothing else seems to matter.

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

Bad? Of course I am. I'm only human

 

[Bärchen]

No, others tell me i am nice...but nice is shit as far as i know.
And i'm boring.

 

[Kuris]

I'm usually too kind to others and that has hurt me in the past. But sometimes I just snap and say things that I really mean and hurt others.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Nobody is a terrible person ultimately speaking. We all have love deep inside of us, that is our source, our essence. If someone isn't expressing that love then they are just blinded by ignorance, lack of true knowledge.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

Yes.

 

[KN95]

It doesn't really matter in the end.

 

[maka]

Most definitely. I'd harm a lot of bad people if it were legal. I have serious anger issues my parents never let me get therapy for. I am extremely selfish unless I care about you (although I admit, it's easy for me to start caring about someone.) I love people a lot but I hate opinions and beliefs if they don't agree with mine. I really wish I wasn't this way because I love to help people and see them smile, but it's so hard when the world around me pisses me off so very much. Maybe I got it from my narcissistic mother but I don't want to blame my hideous heart on others.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

Nobody is a terrible person ultimately speaking. We all have love deep inside of us, that is our source, our essence. If someone isn't expressing that love then they are just blinded by ignorance, lack of true knowledge.

Love's in us all but some of us choose to not accept it, to push it away.

I do it cause I don't love myself, I despise who I am.. and I know how that affected my ex.

Maybe it's ignorance to not have faith in yourself but at some point people like me accept that this is what life is, this is who we are.

I feel I'm a terrible person, growing worse everyday

 

[KN95]

Most definitely. I'd harm a lot of bad people if it were legal. I have serious anger issues my parents never let me get therapy for. I am extremely selfish unless I care about you (although I admit, it's easy for me to start caring about someone.) I love people a lot but I hate opinions and beliefs if they don't agree with mine. I really wish I wasn't this way because I love to help people and see them smile, but it's so hard when the world around me pisses me off so very much. Maybe I got it from my narcissistic mother but I don't want to blame my hideous heart on others.

Why won't your parents let you go to therapy? If you're having mental health problems

 

[maka]

Why won't your parents let you go to therapy? If you're having mental health problems

They're not the most caring people in the world and they don't believe in mental illness. They think if word gets out to friends that their "supposed to be perfect daughter" has mental issues it'll ruin their image. Plus here in America anything medical costs an arm, leg, and your first born child, so it's understandable that they don't want to pay.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

They're not the most caring people in the world and they don't believe in mental illness. They think if word gets out to friends that their "supposed to be perfect daughter" has mental issues it'll ruin their image. Plus here in America anything medical costs an arm, leg, and your first born child, so it's understandable that they don't want to pay.

America's screwed. No offense

 

[KN95]

They're not the most caring people in the world and they don't believe in mental illness. They think if word gets out to friends that their "supposed to be perfect daughter" has mental issues it'll ruin their image. Plus here in America anything medical costs an arm, leg, and your first born child, so it's understandable that they don't want to pay.

It sickens me how ignorant people are about mental illness. I can understand in some way though. Before I developed anxiety and depression I doubt I'd have been able to comprehend what it's like to deal with it. But it's crazy to think about it now. It's like 'normal' people are blind to how shitty it can be to live like this. You see the world differently to them. But with the way the world is, I feel like they're the crazy ones that they don't see how crappy life and humanity is.

It sounds like your parents need to get their head out their ass. My dad is like that, he only cares about his image. He hasn't bothered with me since I broke down mentally.

Sorry that you have to deal with this shit

 

[GeorgeJL]

Love's in us all but some of us choose to not accept it, to push it away.

I do it cause I don't love myself, I despise who I am.. and I know how that affected my ex.

Maybe it's ignorance to not have faith in yourself but at some point people like me accept that this is what life is, this is who we are.

I feel I'm a terrible person, growing worse everyday

Take a psychedelic and you can feel that love once again.

 

[Jean Améry]

Not at all. Why would I think ill of myself?

I find you all fascinating, intelligent, and altogether likeable, at least in internet conversation form.

Important distinction, lol.

 

[maka]

It sickens me how ignorant people are about mental illness. I can understand in some way though. Before I developed anxiety and depression I doubt I'd have been able to comprehend what it's like to deal with it. But it's crazy to think about it now. It's like 'normal' people are blind to how shitty it can be to live like this. You see the world differently to them. But with the way the world is, it feels like they're the crazy ones that they don't see how crappy life and humanity is.

It sounds like your parents need to get their head out their ass. My dad is like that, he only cares about his image. He hasn't bothered with me since I broke down mentally.

Sorry that you have to deal with this shit

I'm equally sorry that you have to suffer like this as well. No one deserves to go through something alone because someone else is too egotistical to help them. It must really hurt. It also seems like only the sane ones can see what a disaster this existence has become.