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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
Yup in my early youth ages 12-20 I would have approached more people showed my personality and had no fear if I liked my skin but nope I was hit with brutal acne skin condition
 
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Eol21

Member
Aug 22, 2021
15
I get decent amount of physical compliments. I'm not happy.

I have a lot of respect for people that don't have that. A lot of them have a lot more confidence than me and I find that encouraging. Often times they have beautiful spirits and personalities.
 
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Fenrirsend

Student
Jul 15, 2018
106
I think one reason for my extreme low self confidence and people disliking my company is that I look ugly. I hate my ugly face so much. If I looked prettier, my life could have been so much better.It's my ugly teeth which I'm most insecure about. Because of that I can't even smile freely.I should have had braces as a child but my parents were too poor to afford it for me.If I was born to a wealthy family I could have been able to afford surgery and fix the things I'm insecure about my looks but not only I'm poor, I'm ugly and mentally ill too. Being poor,ugly and mentally ill is the worst combination. Prince charming only married Cinderella because she was physically stunning looking and mentally healthy even if she was poor. Being pretty and having a likeable personality is a must have for a girl to attract good opportunities in life. I would not miss anything about me if I kill myself. I see news about extremely good looking girls with friends and a good social life ended up killing themselves so what do I have to lose compared to them? I have nothing. I want to stop feeling this pain and misery. Some people have both good and bad days but everyday is a miserable day for me. I wish I had a magical drink or something which I can drink and die quickly. It's not having a fast and reliable method which takes forever for me to take actions to kill myself.
Honestly I hate to say it but yes.

I started losing my hair at a young age...trust me that fucks you up inside.

Honestly of I could afford bosley or something it'd improve my life greatly. It's honestly not even that expensive I just don't have money.

Its not like I can make a go fund me or something if just get a lotta no one cares.

For like 2-5 grand my life could be hella improved.

Kills me inside honestly.
 
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stygal

meow
Oct 29, 2020
1,731
Nope, since I needed to be 100 % physically healthy to be able to "show off" and get feedback. Being gorgeous while being in pain and not able to move is pretty much pointless.

I just want money.
 
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TheSomebody

TheSomebody

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Sep 28, 2020
283
My life would be 100% better, im sure about It. i wouldnt even be here
 
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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
Omg yes, I wouldn't have gone through bullying if I was pretty. Shy&beautiful= cute , shy&ugly= worse than a monster.
 
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AtMostOkay

AtMostOkay

Screw your courage to the sticking place.
Jun 29, 2021
926
I don't think so. It's difficult to dodge men who mean harm as it is. In fact, I've gone through periods of gaining weight, looking more dull, just to be left alone. And I'm no beauty.
 
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Naufrago

Somos o que pensamos...
Sep 24, 2021
82
It is relative, in each case there are variants. I do not ignore the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual condition of everyone here. I see beautiful people physically, but bitter and empty in their inner self. I see people who aren't beautiful, but they're nice in personality. There are beautiful people physically and beautiful inwardly. There are people without outside beauty and also without inner beauty.
Basically; I believe that 90% of humanity is not happy with itself. Normally, we want what we don't have, so give us dissatisfaction.

In this world, the only thing permanence is impermanence.
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
Life is cruel and should not be imposed on anybody.
 
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existtosuffer

existtosuffer

Student
Sep 22, 2021
150
No. I'm considered good looking, but I've been depressed since childhood & have bipolar. I'd rather have a balanced Brain.
 
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BrokenHopes

BrokenHopes

What doesn't kill you, f*cks you up.
Nov 27, 2019
162
I think one reason for my extreme low self confidence and people disliking my company is that I look ugly. I hate my ugly face so much. If I looked prettier, my life could have been so much better.It's my ugly teeth which I'm most insecure about. Because of that I can't even smile freely.I should have had braces as a child but my parents were too poor to afford it for me.If I was born to a wealthy family I could have been able to afford surgery and fix the things I'm insecure about my looks but not only I'm poor, I'm ugly and mentally ill too. Being poor,ugly and mentally ill is the worst combination. Prince charming only married Cinderella because she was physically stunning looking and mentally healthy even if she was poor. Being pretty and having a likeable personality is a must have for a girl to attract good opportunities in life. I would not miss anything about me if I kill myself. I see news about extremely good looking girls with friends and a good social life ended up killing themselves so what do I have to lose compared to them? I have nothing. I want to stop feeling this pain and misery. Some people have both good and bad days but everyday is a miserable day for me. I wish I had a magical drink or something which I can drink and die quickly. It's not having a fast and reliable method which takes forever for me to take actions to kill myself.
Im not sure. I dont think so. I just hate my body no matter how I look. In the summer I was nice and thin but still was not at all content with myself. Now I am 12 kilos bigger and I am painfully aware of it. I hate every second in my body. But in reality I felt bad about myself even when I was thin.
 
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Ren Elsie Jewelria

Ren Elsie Jewelria

I sneezed!
Aug 30, 2020
366
I'm ugly but even if I was handsome I'd still think that the mind is the most beautiful thing ever. I've seen some very attractive people physically and all I could feel was the rotting stench. And no, I''m not jealous.
 
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fruit-loops

fruit-loops

Student
Jun 27, 2021
150
Being appreciated like a painting doesn't actually improve your life by itself. To bring any benefits looks have to be actively weaponised
It will because of a series of chained reasons.
Beauty gives you continuous appreciation by others and consequently your self confidence increases. That will automatically improve your social skills and to feel "to be enough" and so you will probably be part of a group and the society. It will also help you to get a good and easy job. All of that can give you a sense of fulfillment and it can definitively improve your life.

There can be some edge cases, but in general good looking people have better life than the ugly ones. That's for sure
 
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arie

arie

yeah idk anymore
May 21, 2021
71
Maybe I'd have an easier life, but i don't think it will make me not ctb. Would still have this messed up brain of mine
 
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Ijustwantpeace

Member
Feb 21, 2020
30
Life will always be better if youre more attractive. Im good looking and havnt had it hard when it comes to comes to women, but if I were model tier my life would be very different. If I was worse looking Id have probably roped 5 years ago.

Id argue that good looks are way more important then money in this day and age (for first world countries).
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,664
Yes. Being ugly has ruined my life and life chances. If I wasn't ugly I would be okay and living a good life. I have no doubt at all. It hurts.
 
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deadverysoon

so f****ing ready
Aug 19, 2021
216
I think one reason for my extreme low self confidence and people disliking my company is that I look ugly. I hate my ugly face so much. If I looked prettier, my life could have been so much better.It's my ugly teeth which I'm most insecure about. Because of that I can't even smile freely.I should have had braces as a child but my parents were too poor to afford it for me.If I was born to a wealthy family I could have been able to afford surgery and fix the things I'm insecure about my looks but not only I'm poor, I'm ugly and mentally ill too. Being poor,ugly and mentally ill is the worst combination. Prince charming only married Cinderella because she was physically stunning looking and mentally healthy even if she was poor. Being pretty and having a likeable personality is a must have for a girl to attract good opportunities in life. I would not miss anything about me if I kill myself. I see news about extremely good looking girls with friends and a good social life ended up killing themselves so what do I have to lose compared to them? I have nothing. I want to stop feeling this pain and misery. Some people have both good and bad days but everyday is a miserable day for me. I wish I had a magical drink or something which I can drink and die quickly. It's not having a fast and reliable method which takes forever for me to take actions to kill myself.
i think you cant be that ugly and im sorry if someone made you feel that.

i also sayd something really bad to someone i really loved and i hated me for that because i knew it maybe would hurt the other person deep but i couldnt take that back.

i apoligized one - but whats said is sayd. and that makes me feel really guilty.

i hate hurting people.

for correcting teeht there are maybe some cheap options.

but i had a girlfied with a big theeth gap and i think it was also the reason why i loved ger so much. shr also tried to hide it but for me it was my unique mark and i didnt feel ashamed for anything on her.
 
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agate

Member
Sep 29, 2021
54
If I felt I looked normal , let alone average or above average , my life would have been better , but I would still be suicidal I'm sure. As my reasons are very varied.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Not anymore. Even though it's eating me from inside still, causing me a tremendous pain, looking the way I do. But at the end of the day, none of it matters.
Not being born would've been the best thing.
I don't think I made much sense there lol
 
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Merhaba

Merhaba

Member
Dec 27, 2020
11
Yes. I'm not beautiful, never have been, and am fixated on it. Beautiful women get rewarded by simply existing. Nobody has a perfect life but I can't help but feel jealousy.
 
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come to dust

Arcanist
Oct 28, 2019
454
It would be miles, miles better than it currently is. But i want to ctb due to chronic illness so id probably still be suicidal.
 
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Nolan96

Nolan96

Mage
Feb 12, 2022
506
It's hard to feel like you care more about your appearance and work harder on it than other people, and still are considered inferior.
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
No, it would have made no difference…
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I'm plenty good looking enough… But I've been crippled by anxiety fatigue and bad decision making
 
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easytarget

Member
Jun 15, 2022
12
YES. 100%. I was. Fat baby, fat toddler, fat child, fat teen and now a fat adult. I lost a lot of weight 80kg through an eating disorder, but then gained a bunch back after being in the psych ward for 3 months and being put on meds, and coz I started bingeing and purging. I wasn't happy even at my lowest weight because being fat my whole life and having everyone make fun of me and society hate me has affected me too much, even weight loss didn't help. I hate my disgusting self.
 
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Graytaichi

Wizard
Feb 14, 2022
606
There are good looking people lookinh for ugly people but with a kind heart.
 
AloneInCollege

AloneInCollege

The one and only
Mar 7, 2022
167
Omg yes, I wouldn't have gone through bullying if I was pretty. Shy&beautiful= cute , shy&ugly= worse than a monster.
I know this comment is a year old so it's kind of weird to reply to it. But omg this is literally 100% true, there's so much in life that is completely different depending on your looks. As a guy, if you're cute and shy, that's hot to a lot of people, it's a character archetype. But if you're ugly and shy, you're seen as some loser at best.
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
Of course. Pretty women get access to the best men, making their lives way easier. When you're pretty, you also get better job access, education, and so much more. Pretty privilege is not a joke, and those who have it live grand
 
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