Discussion Do you think of your family when you want ctb?

[nowhere123]

I wonder how many people think of their family, and even decide not to commit suicide because of them. At least it affects me a bit, but when I really want it, I don't think of my family, I just want to die.

 

[yuri77]

My family is the only reason why I don't commit and they're the only reason why I am suicidal, it's pretty funny

 

[nowhere123]

My family is the only reason why I don't commit and they're the only reason why I am suicidal, it's pretty funny

oh, me too, in some way.

 

[yuri77]

oh, me too, in some way.

I really wish I could stop caring about them

 

[nowhere123]

I really wish I could stop caring about them

me too

 

[Baka]

I wish I could. I genuinely don't have an attachment to any of them, which makes me feel so horrible. I wish to at least care for my siblings, even if i can't muster the courage to love my parents. The only thoughts I have is I don't want to inconvenience them.

 

[hughmun9]

a tiny bit. My dad has finally found some lasting happiness in the past few years after his divorce and has ended up with a genuinely sweet person. He's in his 50s so he likely has 10 years of so of good health left, and 20-30 of life left in him. I really don't want to burden him with this at this time in his life.

But in the end I don't care enough to stop me from doing it. It's my life, I have a right to do what I want with it.

 

[suncide10]

I used to, and I still think of them sometimes, but not as much as before. I just don't care

 

[sleepytime5]

I wonder how many people think of their family, and even decide not to commit suicide because of them. At least it affects me a bit, but when I really want it, I don't think of my family, I just want to die.

no no and no

 

[Rev346]

Its the main thing holding me back. Have a wife and two kids and as main provider for the family I can't go without at least setting something up so they will be ok financially. They are also part of my reason for wanting to ctb. Endless shouting, leaving garbage everywhere, wasteful with money. I just don't know what to do and I can't really talk to anybody without fear of being committed. Its not like I can walk into a CPA and say "what is the best way to keep my family financially afloat after I kill myself in a month?"

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I used to, and I still think of them sometimes, but not as much as before. I just don't care

It's the same for me. At the end of the day, it's my life and I'll end it whenever I please. If my family can't deal with it then it's their problem.

 

[cowlover1252]

My family is the only reason I'm alive right now. I feel like I've lived my whole life for other people. I am suffering and only living to prevent my pain from being dispersed to the people around me. Now that I've decided I'll be gone within the next week or so, because it's all just too much, I feel like I've wasted all this time. If I'm doing it now what was the point of "protecting" people from my death for so long. I feel like I've lead everybody on making them think im someone who's capable of living a normal life

 

[StarsAbove]

No. I think of my friends but believe they would recover. I honestly mostly think of my cats

 

[darksouls]

I despise my family, they are human scum

 

[starboy2k]

lol no. fuck em

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Luckily being a bit older now and having them know my illnesses, I think about how they would understand.

 

[letsnotmakeittoo22]

I use to. Now I just think about how much I want the pain to end. I've surpassed the level of caring. I just want my head to silence, and this pain to stop m

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

Sometimes I feel for my mum and dad who really are trying to help me, unsuccessfully tho. It's not like I want to cause them pain, but I also wonder if it wouldn't be less pain in the end if I just caught the bus... not sure whats the correct answer there. Then, in the end I kind of hate them also for not respecting my wishes and keeping up the therapist speech no matter how shitty I feel. I guess they just don't really get it.

Apart from my one cousin, who congrats me on my birthday but otherwise also is living her happy life apart from me the rest of them didn't really give a fuck about me for years, so no. Pretty sure they are all ignorant to this subject anyway with their near perfect and happy lives. So I couldn't care less how it would make them feel or rather even hope it pains them somewhat. Like all the happy oblivious people, really.