Do you sometimes have strong urges to catch the bus without any reason or concrete cause?

[Defenestration]

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[Gomomon]

Yes, I feel like most of the time it'll be from something irrational, or like I'll literally be perfectly fine and then all of a sudden I'm struck with an intensity to die, nothing will bring it on, like a break-up or something. I guess it just comes with Depression and having intense mood swings, sometimes it's just like an okay blah day and others randomly hit you with like spiralling out of control.

 

[finalmission]

I always had a reason, matter of fact, countless reasons

 

[historiaegiptu]

Yeah all the time, when something actually happens it takes away my attention. Its like adrenaline keeping me going, but the second life calms down and gets mundane i feel this constant need to die

 

[morina]

For me, there is always a cause I can pinpoint when the thoughts flare up above their usual level.

 

[lpdsvm]

Before realizing how bad thigs are I still had some urge to do it because it's easy and why wait then.
For example today I have no problems, but I still want to CTB. - It's more like due to uncertainty about the future and many pieces of evidence that it will likely to make it happen.
I do it maybe from overthinking; I wanted to end things earlier or plan ahead to make sure I am ready to do it any time. I don't view future problems as today's problems fully - otherwise CTB immediately lol. I always have worries and especially now. I cannot tell that I have lived with no issues that bothered me even one day. I only masked it.

 

[Defenestration]

For me, just like anything can hurt me, there's always a reason, more or less...