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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

waiting on the other side for my beloved💜
Jul 19, 2026
224
I'm planning to have my last moments recorded, in case anyone who cares about me wishes to see, also to hopefully give more resources to other people wishing to go the FSH route, to show that it IS easy and a good way to go..

This makes me think if I should get pretty for it, do my makeup, put on a nice outfit, it'll be the last my beloved sees of me, should I have his memory of me be in a pretty outfit?

I'm honestly not sure, on one hand, being discheveled and messy shows desperation and patheticness, which is sort of romantic, on the other hand dressing up pretty and looking nice is also romantic, I'd be found in my best outfit..

What do you all think?
 
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Die.A.Ria

Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined my whole life
Jul 17, 2026
119
Thats what i wanna do but btw there have been people on here that have a job that makes them see what people that do FSH look like after and they said its horrifying like tounge swollen and out , eyes bulging out etc

I was thinking of doing FSH since i dont think you suffer as much but i would do it if i cant get SN
 
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fluorescentpearl

waiting on the other side for my beloved💜
Jul 19, 2026
224
Thats what i wanna do but btw there have been people on here that have a job that makes them see what people that do FSH look like after and they said its horrifying like tounge swollen and out , eyes bulging out etc

I was thinking of doing FSH since i dont think you suffer as much but i would do it if i cant get SN
Haha yeah after being found you do look horrifying, I've watched countless videos of the process and you don't look as horrible during it, since I'm planning to have the video taken of During my death rather than after a few hours I should be able to still look presentable
 
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