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glided~hydrangea

glided~hydrangea

Life is highkey 2 stressful
Jan 2, 2026
49
Not at all. I hate my body, my voice, my appearance, my mind, my ego, my insecurity, my incompetence, my laziness, my loudness, my awkwardness, my short temperament, my familial and friend relationships, virtually every aspect there can be about my being I dislike.
 
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sherlock

sherlock

Art lover
Jul 9, 2026
18
I hate myself more than words can express.

AMs hate speech from I have no mouth and I must scream doesn't even come close to capturing the self hatred I have. Not much to love.

But. Who cares?
I'm sorry you feel that.

I'm also surprised you know AM. Feeling the same as AM sounds unbearable, I wish you feel better. :heart:
 
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ladylord

ladylord

Member
May 29, 2023
9
I actually love myself,
I see myself as the greatest human being,
A work of art,
but I still wanna die.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
1,105
I don't hate myself. I hate all the cruelty and suffering in this world. I'd rather not have been born into this hellscape.
 
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Bad Mojo

Bad Mojo

Not Student
Jul 10, 2019
298
I'm split. I have a deep love and a deep hatred for myself.

I actually love myself,
I see myself as the greatest human being,
A work of art,
but I still wanna die.
I'm starting to see myself and a lot of other people like this
 
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lucyisleavingus

Member
Jun 28, 2026
6
I struggle with this question every single day. I certainly want to! However, I find it very hard to see my redeeming qualities. My life is nothing but a pile of failure, and regret. I know I've tried as hard as I could given my circumstances but when I look at the current state of my life I find it hard to love myself, for I am responsible for putting myself in my current position regardless of circumstance. How can I love that which is responsible for my undoing even if it is me?
 
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Canto XIII

Canto XIII

Student
Jul 4, 2026
117
I often say I hate myself, but perhaps it would be more correct to say that I despise myself. If I hated myself I would desire for bad things to happen to me, which I don't. On the other hand, I think I'm a low-value, unworthy, evil person.
 
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blackorchid

blackorchid

Facing the brink.
Mar 27, 2026
79
I hate myself with all I've got.
 
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passthisnote

passthisnote

chronically online
May 6, 2026
53
well i was starting to like the me i've been becoming for the past two years but it literally doesn't matter because i'm an adult now so what the hell is there left to even do after this year i hate that i have to age and work and my looks to an extent but not myself as a person
 
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name2come

Member
Sep 30, 2025
81
I'm not sure I'd say I love myself, but I don't hate myself. I'd be comfortable saying I like myself. I like who I am. I don't think I would change much about myself, I just wish I made more sense in this world. I think sometimes it might be easier if I hated myself, if I hated life. I'd know the next step. There wouldn't be much to struggle with. But I've liked being me, I just never found the place I fit into. I never found the people I made sense with. I think I bare at least some of that responsibility, but I think maybe I was just never going to find a place. Some people just don't. We don't have to like that, it just is. But not liking circumstances is different from not liking myself.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
1,421
I hold disdain and disguste for what I am, love?
Well thats all the love I couldn't give myself but rather to somone who I time and time again throw me under the bus, like family and the love of my life and souly just every single person I've gotten the slightest bit close to.
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

forever sorry
Jul 6, 2026
59
no. i have only loved one person these past few years, and it has only been my fp. not myself, not anyone. he was my only friend.
 
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Bitter Almonds

Student
Jan 16, 2026
114
Absolutely not. I try to tell myself I'm not a terrible person, and I try to tell myself things but nothing matters. I deserve to die.
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
Nov 26, 2025
1,165
I don't exactly love myself because that would be kind of narcissistic. But I have no reason to hate or even dislike myself. I work a good job, I'm not lazy. I struggle and try to overcome my problems.I didn't 'cause my own problems either. My anhedonia has just set in on its own.

I am kind and considerate, pretty normal, and none of my issues are of my own making. So I don't really have a reason to hate myself.
 
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x9x99988

x9x99988

New Member
Jul 11, 2026
4
No I don't like anything about me. Not a single thing.
 
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Gone&Over

Member
Jun 10, 2026
6
I'm indifferent towards myself.
 
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TransientEternal

Experienced
Sep 24, 2023
223
Don't know what to feel about myself.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,719
I wouldn't say it was love exactly but, I have more compassion for myself than I used to. I'm not sure that's always a good thing though. It can mean I let myself off the hook from doing things I probably should. For example- I can feel compassion towards myself for feeling socially anxious around real life people. But then, I'll also not push myself to face that problem. I'm almost too compassionate towards myself and instead, pander to my fears.

I certainly still have things I regret. But then, I try (and still fail) to bear those things in mind in the future- to try not to repeat them.
 
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suncide10

suncide10

Member
Apr 27, 2026
37
I don't like some parts of myself, but generally I don't hate and don't love myself
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,937
I don't hate myself. I hate all the cruelty and suffering in this world. I'd rather not have been born into this hellscape.
I hate the cruelty and suffering in this world too.

But I hate myself too. I made life even more difficult than it already is.
 
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hughmun9

hughmun9

Member
Feb 22, 2023
50
I'm very hot and cold with myself. I have moments of love, and moments of I wouldn't say hate but disappointment and judgement. In this season of my life I would say I don't love myself as much as I used to.
 
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Enyan

Enyan

Sad Catgirl
May 19, 2026
123
Yeah. It took me a long, long time to love myself, but I eventually did. If I could keep living, I wouldn't wanna be anyone else but me.
 
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IfFairiesWereReal

New Member
Apr 28, 2026
2
I don't hate myself, though there are some thing I hate about myself like how I just keep fighting to stay alive even when I just should give up, I have achieved nothing in all these years.
 
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death over slavery

Liquidating entity
Sep 19, 2025
70
In the process of it, I guess.

I want to love myself before I die because I'll never get the chance again. I want to at least see the best version of my version that I'll love before the end.
 
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Daniel8899

Member
Jul 8, 2026
11
do you also hate the version of you in your head?
No. That version is exactly how i want to be. I wish i could bring that into myself.

Its hard to explain but example would be if i am in a bad situation in my head i want to say/do something else but in reality i do exactly the opposite which shows me as weak.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
1,105
I hate the cruelty and suffering in this world too.

But I hate myself too. I made life even more difficult than it already is.
I'm sorry you feel that way about yourself. I wish there was something I could say. 😥
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,193
Too much of a cyborg for that concept to mean anything.

Here's a free fellow clanker Mihono Bourbon

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thruDeathPeace

Member
Jun 24, 2026
17
I used to. Now I'm starting to think that maybe I just wasn't meant to be happy in this life. I'm functional, but that's about it. I don't really find happiness in anything anymore. It's like everyone else was born with the ability to get things done and have a somewhat good grasp of their emotions and be likable, and I just got none of that.
I am my own worse problem. I feel that so much. As I am continuing to be.
 
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