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sherlock

sherlock

Art lover
Jul 9, 2026
18
I hate every single thing about me.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,623
There are certain personality flaws about myself that I do not like, but I think everyone has those. I used to hate myself, but that was when I let outside social pressure determine my worth. Since I have stopped caring about what anyone else thinks about me, I have found myself and love who I am.
 
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sherlock

sherlock

Art lover
Jul 9, 2026
18
There are certain personality flaws about myself that I do not like, but I think everyone has those. I used to hate myself, but that was when I let outside social pressure determine my worth. Since I have stopped caring about what anyone else thinks about me, I have found myself and love who I am.
Im glad you did :)
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,993
I do yes, but I had to learn to accept that there were certain things outside of my control and that hating myself over them wasn't getting me anywhere. Only reason I still want to die though is to end my suffering or prevent future suffering from finding its way to me.

I'm sorry that you hate yourself because you probably aren't that bad of a person.
 
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sherlock

sherlock

Art lover
Jul 9, 2026
18
I do yes, but I had to learn to accept that there were certain things outside of my control and that hating myself over them wasn't getting me anywhere. Only reason I still want to die though is to end my suffering or prevent future suffering from finding its way to me.

I'm sorry that you hate yourself because you probably aren't that bad of a person.
I hope your suffering ends.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
851
No. I hate my very essence, too
 
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hurts2b

hurts2b

Wasting my time
Jun 11, 2026
146
I don't love myself. I don't hate myself. I don't really like myself, though.
 
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Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
365
I hate myself more than anything in the world, and it's because I'm objectively a piece of shit.

My suicide is more about killing myself than it is about ending my suffering.
 
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otomedissection

otomedissection

a boring life with feelings too frail to touch
Jun 19, 2026
29
I used to. Now I'm starting to think that maybe I just wasn't meant to be happy in this life. I'm functional, but that's about it. I don't really find happiness in anything anymore. It's like everyone else was born with the ability to get things done and have a somewhat good grasp of their emotions and be likable, and I just got none of that.
 
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ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Member
Apr 15, 2026
21
i dont :c i dislike myself very much. not much anger so i dont think it's hate but more like disappointment.
 
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sherlock

sherlock

Art lover
Jul 9, 2026
18
i dont :c i dislike myself very much. not much anger so i dont think it's hate but more like disappointment.
Oh, I've never thought of it this way… I'm glad you don't have anger.

I've just realized Im full of anger and disappointment. I think the anger part is what makes me so self-destructive.
 
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callmer

callmer

Member
Jul 8, 2026
5
I'm like neutral about myself. Neither love or hate, not even like or dislike. If I don't like something about myself, I just ignore it and pretend it doesn't exist. On the other hand I know that the things I do like about myself don't outweigh all the negatives I've pushed away. It's like a limbo state.
 
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sherlock

sherlock

Art lover
Jul 9, 2026
18
I'm like neutral about myself. Neither love or hate, not even like or dislike. If I don't like something about myself, I just ignore it and pretend it doesn't exist. On the other hand I know that the things I do like about myself don't outweigh all the negatives I've pushed away. It's like a limbo state.
I don't wanna judge, but this sounds like a healthy way of dealing with yourself.
 
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Daniel8899

Member
Jul 8, 2026
11
I hate myself. In my head I am someone else but IRL i am totally different person.
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
205
No.
 
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ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Member
Apr 15, 2026
21
Oh, I've never thought of it this way… I'm glad you don't have anger.

I've just realized Im full of anger and disappointment. I think the anger part is what makes me so self-destructive.
i was like that also. im more calm these days i still do get angry at myself naturally but only if ive done something to upset other people. because of it i also do not want anyone irl to learn anything abt this so i want my first attempt to be the last i dont think i can ever forgive myself if i lived to see how it effected people in my life.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
728
Definitely not, and I don't think I ever will.
 
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Spite

Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
566
Absolutely not. I hate every fibre of my being. I am worth nothing and I deserve nothing.
 
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miekorevvv

miekorevvv

Member
Aug 8, 2024
24
i just posted a whole post rn mins ago explaining how much i resent nd hate myself i genuinely hate myself so much so im starting to hate on ppl who intereacted with me cuz they wasted their time with me and its that bad
 
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chuuni

New Member
Jul 9, 2026
1
I could never love myself, I have been hating myself for so long that I don't remember how is it like to like something about myself
 
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ForeverOutcast

Member
Jun 7, 2026
11
No. I hate everything about myself.
 
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boilingfishcakes

boilingfishcakes

맛있는 오뎅!
Jun 14, 2026
27
There is something so filthy and rotten in the core of my being. No way I could bring myself to love myself
 
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seeyoulater26

seeyoulater26

Member
Feb 22, 2026
59
I do. There are parts of me that I REALLY HATE and there are parts of me that I wish I could change.
I still get mad at myself for my dumbass decisions. Actually, for just being a dumbass period looool But over the years, I learned to be kind to myself and try every day.
I was just reviewing my journal hours ago and I wrote this last month:
"I wish I could see myself, hold her face, and tell her I'm sorry for everything."
 
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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
600
Mood dictates. As I age I am more comfortable with myself. Realised that by leaning into hating myself I become my own torturer. Don't always manage to live by this realisation sadly.
 
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letsnotmakeittoo22

letsnotmakeittoo22

I Have No Long Term Plans For This Body
Nov 24, 2024
15
I hate myself more than words can express.

AMs hate speech from I have no mouth and I must scream doesn't even come close to capturing the self hatred I have. Not much to love.

But. Who cares?
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless Doll
Apr 20, 2023
185
not even remotely. i hate nearly all aspects of myself. i hate my inherent worthlessness and the person i am. i have no redeeming qualities and nothing to love. the only real exception would be some of my alters, i would say i love them, but that doesn't really count i think.
 
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BrownNoise

BrownNoise

I cant believe this is how life turned out
Sep 13, 2024
19
I hate myself with a passion.
 
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