Venting Do you like some aspects of life but feel forced to go

[tooafraidtodiez]

I like watching my favorite show, listening to music, eating, traveling and etc. But my physical and neurological condition probably makes me have to CTB. Anyone else in a similar place?

 

[TAW122]

There are some pleasurable moments and times in life, such as escapism or copes, but even those are fleeting for me and are not worth all the risk that comes with sentience itself. Even during the better times, the cost and effort as well as enduring suffering far outweighs the reward (pleasurable, fleeting moments which later become good memories) for me.

 

[crossingtheriver]

same here. when life is good it is good, but such good phases in my life is like a rain in parched desert they are extremely rare. The most part of life for me is profound loneliness, intense self hatred, 'me me me' ego which makes me not be genuine in relationship with any humans, resentment for others. I received my SN today now I just have to plan things to finally put a stop to consciousness that has been working against me for all my life.

 

[Kanoh]

Yes, I truly enjoy my passion which is martial arts, i have fun playing games, watching movies, i love my guinea pigs and other things. However my OCD is getting more and more severe with zero prospects of improving, i tried everything over 20 years. At this point it is becoming insanely hard to even function and I just have to CTB.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

Yes.

 

[dirkw83]

Maybe yes. If I'll learn how to sleep again my life can continue.

 

[sgtJeffords]

For sure. I like all of the things you mentioned and even love a few things, but mental illness is a nightmare to live with. Add in some poor living circumstances and the bad outweigh the good

 

[StaticCryBabye]

Yes, some things i like are walking, midnight, sunsets, cars, music and nature. I definitely feel like I'm forced to go due to my circumstances. Life is great. A lot of it is great. I mostly just blame people, or society in general, on why it's so shitty.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Yeah, I used to be passionate about so many things. Art, literature, food, languages, nature, animals, video games, music... Everytime I endure these catastrophic living conditions (not just my own, globally), another part of me dies. My life as an artist... gone. I have no energy left. Only because the world expects the impossible of us. To slave away our whole lives for the bare minimum and be grateful for it. And don't get me started about all the selfish people out there. Fuck this. I was robbed. I never had a chance.