I like watching my favorite show, listening to music, eating, traveling and etc. But my physical and neurological condition probably makes me have to CTB. Anyone else in a similar place?
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TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,638
There are some pleasurable moments and times in life, such as escapism or copes, but even those are fleeting for me and are not worth all the risk that comes with sentience itself. Even during the better times, the cost and effort as well as enduring suffering far outweighs the reward (pleasurable, fleeting moments which later become good memories) for me.
crossingtheriver
Member
- Jun 11, 2026
- 47
same here. when life is good it is good, but such good phases in my life is like a rain in parched desert they are extremely rare. The most part of life for me is profound loneliness, intense self hatred, 'me me me' ego which makes me not be genuine in relationship with any humans, resentment for others. I received my SN today now I just have to plan things to finally put a stop to consciousness that has been working against me for all my life.
Kanoh
Student
- Dec 31, 2024
- 124
Yes, I truly enjoy my passion which is martial arts, i have fun playing games, watching movies, i love my guinea pigs and other things. However my OCD is getting more and more severe with zero prospects of improving, i tried everything over 20 years. At this point it is becoming insanely hard to even function and I just have to CTB.
sadbh—itstimetogo🤎
Arcanist
- Apr 4, 2026
- 450
Maybe yes. If I'll learn how to sleep again my life can continue.
sgtJeffords
New Member
- Nov 5, 2025
- 3
For sure. I like all of the things you mentioned and even love a few things, but mental illness is a nightmare to live with. Add in some poor living circumstances and the bad outweigh the good
StaticCryBabye
Sorrowful Pixel
- Apr 9, 2023
- 211
Yes, some things i like are walking, midnight, sunsets, cars, music and nature. I definitely feel like I'm forced to go due to my circumstances. Life is great. A lot of it is great. I mostly just blame people, or society in general, on why it's so shitty.Similar threads
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