Discussion Do you guys wonder what it'd be like to have a good life?

[chancerlane]

I started looking at threads here wondering what people who also deal with suicidal tendencies thought about life obviously it's not the most positive but It makes me wonder, has anyone here ever felt like they even had or have a shot at a "good" life? One where you are enjoying existence, where things are great and your dreams and needs are met? Whenever I can I often daydream about having a "good" life and when I came back from my thoughts I get really upset and sad that my life isn't like I want it to be, does anyone else with depression and suicidal thoughts do the same?

 

[R_N]

It is not hard to imagine when you had some good periods but it can and will slip away eventually. We are not immortal or in total control ever.

Also "good" times means ignoring all the misfortune around you. It doesn't make the world beautiful just your little bubble for a period of time.

 

[Amyend88]

Yeah, I've had great times, but they never last forever. CTB for me is about being tired of this world, not about missing out on what it has to offer.

 

[chancerlane]

It is not hard to imagine when you had some good periods but it can and will slip away eventually. We are not immortal or in total control ever.

Also "good" times means ignoring all the misfortune around you. It doesn't make the world beautiful just your little bubble for a period of time.

Yeah, I've had great times, but they never last forever. CTB for me is about being tired of this world, not about missing out on what it has to offer.

Yeah it's really the lack of permanence that effects me, I've had times I can count on my hand past childhood where I actually enjoyed my life and I always go back to those times in my mind and try and imagine what my life would be now if I still felt that way and things were still going good it makes my days a lot more bearable but the positive effects are starting to wane and the negative effects after thinking about how some people are just happy and enjoy life and I'm not really start to get to me.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

I'm of the belief that sometimes happiness is a choice. But a lot of times no matter how hard you try to choose to be happy despite your circumstances it can basically be impossible. I do find myself resenting people who complain about things or situations that other people would view as a privilege to have and not a burden. I especially feel this way about people with normal functioning families. I definitely wonder what it'd be like to have a good life. And I'm an absolute hypocrite about it, contradicting myself and being exactly like those I resent because I've been provided for and am blessed with material abundance and I'm very grateful for that but that doesn't exactly equal a "good life" its just empty and sad

 

[Spiritual survivor]

No because I can imagine what that would be like. I sure know about what a shitty life is like though.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Yes. I don't have to do much imagining though because I see it all the time are around me.

 

[Nx7]

Well. I had a great life up until February this year. Now it's all gone. I lost the chance to a happy ending and a formidable life. It's over and all because of my own mistakes

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

If we live long enough, a good life becomes bad. Global average life expectancy is 73 years.

 

[chancerlane]

If we live long enough, a good life becomes bad. Global average life expectancy is 73 years.

I feel the same way sometimes I voice my opinions about not wanting to be above the age of 46 out loue and people look at me like I'm insane as if living the next 3 decades in pain and witnessing my body shutting down in front of me isn't horrifying to them.