Venting Do you feel like you’ve existed for too long?

[peaceindeath]

My dog has passed 12 years ago. She was 10. I've lived too much longer

 

[whatevs]

Hmmm, I have to say yes. I've been miserable for a long time now. "It" started in my teens, so thats around 18 years of misery and not really getting much out of existence or giving others something they actually want (what is known as being productive).

I don't really believe in nothingness so if I kill myself I expect a part of me to be transferred somewhere else. Offtopic but comes with the terrain.

 

[Nights]

Yes, i lived for a long time, i should've have been dead when i was 13 or 11, but i couldn't manage to suicide at that time because i didn't had resources or even knew where to buy a rope

 

[stilhavinightmares]

YES. 5 years ago on this day I was in the ICU from a CTB attempt and I wish so badly that I wasn’t found. I feel like I’m on borrowed time that I don’t even want.

 

[inpursuitofpeace]

Yup. Every day (and birthday) I’m astonished that I’ve lived this long. I thought I would’ve died a looooong time ago.

 

[CentreMid]

Absolutely. I wasn't supposed to live past high school yet here I am, still rotting away, and things are only getting worse. I want out.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, I've been in this world for probably more than most of you on this forum. My life is just uneventful and absurd. I'm just looking forward to going back to the cosmos.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Hmmm, I have to say yes. I've been miserable for a long time now. "It" started in my teens, so thats around 18 years of misery and not really getting much out of existence or giving others something they actually want (what is known as being productive).

I don't really believe in nothingness so if I kill myself I expect a part of me to be transferred somewhere else. Offtopic but comes with the terrain.

I believe there is a part of us that survives death.
I believe that everything is physical in reality, as opposed to matter and spirit being 2 separate things
I think consciousness is comprised of subatomic particles.

 

[Snake9111]

Yeah, I wish I never existed,i'm tired

 

[TAW122]

Yes, I'm alive much longer than I should be. I oftenly look back to 2019 and regret not having CTB'd sooner to save myself all the shitshow of the last few years. While there are temporary reprieves, it is never sufficient to warrant living long enough to suffer immensely at times. I have been wishing to go even before I learned of SaSu's existence.

 

[animetal]

I honestly never thought I would make it to 20, I’m proud of myself for making it this far in life as I had a lot of hope for the future but from the day I turned 20 to now things have gone downhill I don’t even think I’ll make it to 21 and I feel this is my fate

 

[hanakiri]

I think so. I never thought I'll live past 18, but I did somehow. Since then I've been feeling more and more lost and anxious with each year passing. I thought maybe when I finish high school things will get better but they've become even harder. I'm 23 now, it's been 10 years since my depression started, I don't know what to do with myself. The thought of having to live another 50-60 years terrifies me. Though there were some nice things that happened during the last few years, they weren't worth the daily pain and anxiety

 

[Shoya]

I also feel same. Everyday goes too long and worse.I just hate myself.Sometimes I think why was I born?But I am stuck in a situation where I can hardly can do ctb.

 

[dreamist]

Yes. Sometimes I’d even come with scenarios where I’d die, like accidentally. Perhaps in a car crash or something.

 

[Hunter2005]

Yeah I've been here too long, in fact I think I should have died when I was a teenager but somehow I've survived. I had many near death experience over the years too.

 

[Valkyrae]

Yes. I have had enough already, thank you.
Sadly, I can’t go so I have nothing left but to try and be hopeful and look forward to the future, tho, I really wish to end my life when getting old. I don’t wanna be some crippled old lady who can’t move by herself and pees in her pants. Since I can’t leave now, at least let me go when I am old anyways :/

 

[DeathSleep]

Yes. I'm surprised I made it this long.

 

[deathLiberation]

I actually dont have childhood memories before a specific time on pre-school. It´s like i was born into that moment. Some soul transfer...
I have lived far too long for sure.