Venting Do you feel like death is coming soon or is far away?

[Terrible00]

It feels pretty soon for me, but I am very aware that it can take much longer than expected. But it's worth the wait.

 

[lucines]

If I manage to move out this summer I could see myself living for at least a few more years, if not these will likely be my final months on this planet.

 

[enditall222]

No not at all. I can't imagine making it to 21

 

[Forever Sleep]

Passive (natural) death could be quite a way away, although I still can't imagine making very old bones. CTB though? Also uncertain- waiting for my Dad to go first. Then- it will have to be up to me as to how much I want it.

I don't really see suicide as waiting to catch a bus though- it's more like ringing for a taxi. Sadly- it takes effort to leave this life. Just as it does to live it. In both circumstances it means taking practical action towards a goal. I don't think passively waiting for things to happen usually works- in either case. Obviously- that's easier for some people rather than others- depending on their financial and living situations. It's by no means 'easy' for anyone I would say though. We all take the risk of police checks/ being conned/ obtaining something that isn't exactly ideal to begin with. It's a risk.

I guess some people are waiting for the time to feel right though. That makes sense- it's a big decision. I think it's important to feel very comfortable with it. I feel like I am comfortable with it but I'm sure that could well change if I actually made an attempt.

 

[Baron]

Death always feels so imminent yet far away at the same time. I always imagine myself CTBing when I look around myself. It's like wanting everything to end, but understanding that you are too weak to go through with it. It makes me really mad when I think about the time until my demise.

 

[Darkover]

one thing to be thankful for is i can leave at any time because i do not fear death i just need N but yeah death seems a long way off

 

[S u i c i d e]

Death comes a little closer every day.

 

[Little One]

I'll be waiting until my mothers health gets better in a year or two. Once she is good enough to take care of herself on her own/ start working again. I'd feel too much guilt CTB while she is still bedridden, I know it'll help the affect this'll have on her as well if I choose to wait til then.

 

[Owl_07]

Very soon for me, within some weeks just in order to prepare everything before