Venting I don’t think I feel sad

[anontard]

I don't know if I feel sad I just feel numb like my entire world has been muted and I can almost find comfort in it if everything bad was muted but it's not it's everything it's like I feel so horrible that I've grown used to it and I just feel numb.

Suicide feels like a calm that isn't pure numbness. I'm fascinated by what will come after my death. Will I see heaven? Or hell? Or will I just cease to exist.

 

[eupdplishlp]

I'm also fasinated by this as it's a scientific fact energy doesn't just disapear it has to go somehwere. I've watch a lot fo NDE documentries which i reccomened they are so similar to DMT experiences if not identical both are fasinating documentarys that are as close to understanding the afterlife as possible

 

[Manfrotto99]

When life is so unbearable and totally out of our control there is comfort in knowing that can at least end the pain of it all and CTB. Maybe something better awaits or maybe there is nothing...in which case we wont know anymore and the pain will cease with that.