Do you ever feel like your life isn’t that bad?

[Cress]

Sometimes I feel like my life isn't actually that bad. I don't want it to get worse from a failed attempt. That's the main reason why I haven't ctb yet. I don't want to fuck me, myself and I up. I don't want to fuck my life up either. This fear is keeping me here

Yeah that's a common fear that I have as well making a mistake and ending up more injured. I once went to my neurologist and asked him if my previous self-harm attempts could have contributed to my current neuropathy damage. He assured me that almost certainly it wouldn't be related or be contributing to it but it's something that's been a concern of mine for a long time.

I think even if it doesn't result in any damage that you notice any health issues you have in the future could cause you anxiety that you caused it from your failed attempt.