do you ever feel like a total piece of shit?

[xXSufferingXx]

i definetely have regrets that sometimes make me feel like a POS.

which, needless to say, contributes a lot to my desire to leave this planet.

 

[Charmander07]

Most of the time, if you have regrets you aren't a POS. If you were you wouldn't regret it, that's how I think

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Most of the time, if you have regrets you aren't a POS. If you were you wouldn't regret it, that's how I think

very good point

 

[closetoyou]

everyday homie

 

[DeathByBananabread]

Often....put into me way too young to be reasonable, with way too much drastic intensity. I hated myself at like, 10. By 17 it became a constant, extremely distracting thought-loop that medication only served to dampen, not get rid of. Sometimes it didn't seem to help control it at all.
Now most of the time I feel nothing but I can see where people are coming from when they make harsh judgements about me. The guilt & shame muscles got weary. It comes back with fiery intensity then rapidly burns itself out in a perpetual loop.

 

[lpdsvm]

Not anymore. With a method I got along with myself. I started to see positive sides of myself. Now I need to make sure I can CTB with SN and without SN with just a shoelace. With both methods at the same time. Whatever. I need to be ready anywhere because life might be a prick by making it harder to CTB.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Not anymore. With a method I got along with myself. I started to see positive sides of myself. Now I need to make sure I can CTB with SN and without SN with just a shoelace. With both methods at the same time. Whatever. I need to be ready anywhere because life might be a prick by making it harder to CTB.

SN + shoelace? how will that go exactly? i'm curious hwo you mean

 

[lpdsvm]

SN + shoelace? how will that go exactly? i'm curious hwo you mean

I mean that any type of hanging or self-strangulation. I don't like that method but if I take SN and start to feel too bad I might end it faster by hanging myself. It won't matter what I will drink. I think why not.
I know that I can pass out without anything around my neck for about 15 sec. It means a lot of blood leaves my head due to creating a difference in pressure and if there is a noose that tightens right after there is no blood I won't wake up so I might as well go partial. So many options.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

I mean that any type of hanging or self-strangulation. I don't like that method but if I take SN and start to feel too bad I might end it faster by hanging myself. It won't matter what I will drink. I think why not.

i see

 

[Eternal Pessimist]

Yes, when I think about what a mess I've made of this life. I had opportunities, but I wasted them all. There's no going back now and no fixing things, at least not in a satisfactory way. All I want now is the courage to end things.

 

[thelostautistic]

All the time. I beat myself up over every mistake I've ever made. I know I'm not a bad person but my brain loves to make me feel like I am