Discussion Do you ever break down when you finally are alone?

[Headingoutsoon]

Once or twice. I'm too drained and seeped in hopeless to cry any more. That being said, I'm frequently tearyeyed. Random things will bring a tear to my eyes these days.

 

[Despondent]

Every night I cry when I'm alone. It sucks, because even though I know there's people around me who will listen, I don't want to put that kind of burden on them. So, I cry alone.

It's kinda crazy how everything's worked out. I used to be such an expressive person when it came to my emotions, during times that I was upset. I've got into a habit that while I hear someone approaching close by, I wipe my tears so they don't know that I've been crying. I don't even realize it, because it's so consistent. I'm a tired person and can sleep the day away, but sometimes these tears keep me up late night to early mornings.

I'm trying to find people that I can call during these nights and talk to. I've called the hotline and while sometimes the responders can be pretty quiet, I still recommend it. It does enough to make it through another night, even if it's still hard to sleep at night. I try to reach out. Someone once told me that suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. I wouldn't go as far as it being something temporary, but I feel like I can only keep this thought at the back of my mind because I'm an impulsive thinker.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

Every day honey. Every damn day. You certainly ain't alone in this one.

 

[Stroopwafel.]

I've had these moments a few times, but since a few months all I feel is emptiness. I just feel numb. All the time.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Yes.. quietly.

 

[Csmith8827]

I cried once listening to a song on my youtube playlist when i added it because it was a nickname i gave to a childhood friend who i haven't seen in a long time. I guess i loved him or had strong feelongs for him. Crazy.