lamargue

lamargue

sleepwalker
Jun 5, 2024
535
i envy how others can think without relying on stimulants. without them, my iq takes a nosedive, and i become a zombie. barely able to muster up any thought. can barely think while typing this now. i recognize that i should be grateful that i don't suffer as others do, but i think i have a right to gestate my own hatred and antipathy towards my weaknesses. it's a nightmare in itself being unable to do even basic arithmetic at my worst. i don't think anyone even remotely capable of thinking can relate to that feeling of utter helplessness

also those who were naturally socially integrated from their upbringing. those who are consistent in their habits; micro-geniuses of intra-social realities
 
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3/4Dead

3/4Dead

Peace, Love, Empathy
Feb 27, 2024
392
I feel like i spend most of my time envying other people, people who are more well than I am, who are more stable, or well adjusted.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,752
Definitely. I'm sure many people have reasons to envy me but I feel even more envy for simple things other people do so effortlessly.
 
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CatLvr

Arcanist
Aug 1, 2024
448
Sometimes. Things look so effortless for some folks -- like socializing, building friend "networks" whatever the fuck that means. I've been a loner for as long as I can remember (my parents were something else. I was ALWAYS odd man out). Every single person who has befriended me I've managed to push away because eventually I am the one who becomes uncomfortable. I have no idea why my husband has stayed all these years. But it drives me CRAZY. LOL Because even though we love each other I don't think I'm ever gonna get used to having another person around here.
 
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Final_Freedom

Final_Freedom

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Oct 2, 2024
25
Yes. It's so fucking hard to walk through the city and see so many people happy while I don't even know why I want to die since years, what I have done to deserve this fate
 
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Ghostgirl

Ghostgirl

Member
Sep 25, 2021
33
I envy people who aren't traumatized and ill like myself and can do easy things that I think are hard or harder due to my corrupt brain!!
 
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coolgal82

coolgal82

she/her, terminally silly :3
Sep 10, 2024
188
all the time lol, especially trans women who pass well (and cis women tbh)
 
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ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
866
I envy whoever has a healthy brain that has a baseline of contentment and can feel happiness. If a healthier brain was in my head, I think I'd be happy.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
4,320
Yeah, I envy people. Most of the time, I envy those who are dead as they don't have to suffer anymore in existence but I also envy a lot of people who are currently alive. I envy those who can get access to SN or another relatively peaceful suicide method. I envy cats for their lifestyle and for how people love them despite them being neets. I envy billionaires for how they can just chill in life without having to do things. I'm full of envy and I have envy for other things too but I'm not going to state them as I believe that I stated enough
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Meowing to go out
Dec 27, 2020
3,886
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bitofftoomuch

bitofftoomuch

hold onto those who accept your messy self
Jul 1, 2024
91
not really. I can't imagine myself as anyone else.

there are times when I want specific things that others have, but it feels more like greed and simple desire for the thing. I don't feel any emotion towards the person for having the thing, I just also want the thing lol.
 
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ilikehamsters

ilikehamsters

Sleep, sleep is my happy place
Oct 2, 2024
20
I try not to be envious of others, as you never know how they are feeling/what they've been through, and it could all be an act.

That said being, the one thing I am envious of is people with fine motor control skill, who can tie a bag up effortlessly.
 
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Parnate

Student
Dec 16, 2021
182
I envy a lot, so much that sometimes I literally feel my heart sink. How some people have such great lives.
 
sliknorm

sliknorm

Member
Oct 1, 2024
7
I really envy how easily other people can connect with others.
I'm so envious of people my age going out to party with friend groups too, I wish it could be me but I'm lowkey just way too chronically online for that : /
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
2,979
I tend to envy others all the time. I don't have any accomplishments, talents, or skills and I'm not smart or pretty, so it's easy to see why I find myself constantly envying others. Some people really luck out in life and have a lot of great aspects to them both on the outside and inside. Meanwhile, all I've accomplished in life is getting my family to waste all of their resources and time on someone who grew up to be a complete disappointment.
 
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yariousvamp

yariousvamp

Misanthrope vampire
Sep 8, 2024
31
Yes, so much to the point where my envy wants them dead, I envy people that are born in first world country with a stable family, they don't have to suffer living in a third world undeveloped shithole in poverty, they can enjoy all the normal things that are considered "luxury" here.
I fucking hate them so much
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,177
Yes, definitely those with a properly functioning brain which does not torture them all day long.
 
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Reflection

Reflection

Lost
Sep 12, 2024
218
No, knowing that this world is not just makes me accept it for what it is.
 
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InversedShadow

InversedShadow

Student
Dec 28, 2023
157
Personally, I dont and never did, for me everyone else's good fortune is only temporary, hardly anything is long lasting in this world, so I don't spend my time on thinking about people, always prefered to look more at the nature of this world, trying to think deeper into it or just live from one day to another without taking it too hard instead of thinking how better I could have it. surely, I could, but just thinking about it won't get me anywhere
 
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AtheistCDsissy

AtheistCDsissy

Falling off the edge of the world...
Mar 6, 2023
29
I constantly envy those that I see as, "normal". In my head I often wish I could just be, "normal". I know everyone has problems but for most people it seems like they have an easier time dealing with their issues.
 
Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"Life's a mirror, but 'whose' mirror?"
Mar 23, 2023
1,048
I am a "little envy" whenever I see something that I want. I think it's a good thing.
 
star.trip

star.trip

Member
Oct 6, 2024
23
At first I envied others because they had a partner and I did not. I also envied others who were socially better than me. I like to study and I am really good at it but I have trouble with social relationships.
Now I have understood that those I envied also have other kinds of problems, different from mine. So now, I don't care. I have enough problems of my own to be looking at or envying others.
 

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