I find working hard though, I'm still a student so that would mean I'd have no free time. I have anxiety and just going to school sucks up all of my energy. It's really exhausting just existing and I find work horrible. I wish we didn't have to work just to survive. I know that it's a must but I just don't want to live in a society where we have to work just to live. I'm a weak person and I don't have motivation to do shit
I agree with you, what is the point of life, if we only live to work, I thought we were meant to work to be able to live, somehow society has got itself confused. im self employed, but truly hating and struggling with it
When it comes to you being non binary/trans, I cannot speak or even begin to understand your situation or the pain you must be in, I can only speak from experience, many years ago, I had a very close online friend, Male to Female, she hid herself from me at first, but I soon picked up on this when we spoke on the phone, She was struggling so much with her identity, people not accepting her, she was lucky to have found a job as a paramedic and did amazing at it, but I could see through those smiles. She did feel able to talk with me about how she felt etc,
Sadly she passed on not so long ago, so whilst I cannot understand your pain in that way, I have seen it happen to another and know how hard it can be
Do you have any support at all?