Discussion Do any of you also have childhood onset depression?

[writhe]

My mental health first became known to my family when I was 9, after I had wrote a note and "attempted" (a poor attempt at that, since I was a kid). Needless to say I've been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts since i was at least 8, and honestly I don't meet a lot of people with this same experience. I can't even remember a specific trigger other than my mom's mediocre parenting, and since I have ADHD (and my therapist suspects mild autism) I'm thinking I may have been genetically predisposed. My childhood was robbed from me, my teen years are over, I turn 20 next year. Anyone else?

 

[thelostautistic]

I'm sorry you've been dealing with this since you were so young. My depression started when I was around 12. I can't really remember what triggered it either.

 

[foolatum]

yes, i've been depressed since i was 11. it's really miserable having depression start in your childhood, because then it follows you for the rest of your life, and it's like you barely remember being happy.

 

[LostZombie]

Yeah I feel you with that one

I've has Suicidal Ideation for as long as I can remember, its a disease that eats away at you like cancer; just like it you can cure it, but its will never truly gone. Depression, SI, and all those other things are problems I had to contend with at 8 years old, and it runs in the family too so the SI ain't going anywhere for me.

So just know you aren't the only one.

 

[sayoriiii]

Yeah lol i first thought about ctb when i was like 11 started sh around the same time :/ blows

 

[GoneTomorrow]

Same here. I first seriously thought about CTB at age 11, and all the medical professionals could say was that I was "too young to feel this way". I feel like it has a big part to play in how it ruined my teens and subsequently my adult life, so yeah, you're far from being alone in this.

 

[GoldenTicket]

23 here, almost 24, I can heavily relate to this I feel, I remember thinking about suicide at age 9, perhaps younger, don't know what triggered such a thing at an age but it's followed me strongly since then. I was bullied heavily as a kid in both primary and high-school, also experienced sexual abuse very young/other related traumas, but depression also runs in the family aswell, my father was suicidal himself and he had attempts, so it's hard to truly say. But it's always followed me like an unwanted pest.

Even with all the help I've gotten over the years it's never truly gone away, I don't think it's something I can recover from, just live with.