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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
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So I don't know about you, but recently, as I just care less and less about any future prospects, my spending habits have changed. I've been pretty stingy for most of my adult life (well not always, but mainly), but recently I've started just buying random things, which I don't really need right now (like extra clothes I like for example). I know that it would be better to save, but I kinda stopped caring. I have some investments I made for the long term and the funny thing is that I can see my investments in 10 years, but not myself. So yeah, I don't care that much about saving anymore. Mby it's a bit cringe to say this, but I always used to think that money is temporary, but drip is eternal. So I'm buying clothes now, which I find cool, why not, it gives me a temporary dopamine rush and I can dress well (not that anyone in particular would care tho)
 
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h4ppyhypoxia

h4ppyhypoxia

Student
Aug 8, 2026
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yes, was quite stingy, now im just buying things i never wouldve bought before deciding to do this, the only reason im careful with my money now is because i want my family to be able to use whatevers left to put towards a funeral for me where they can celebrate my life in the way that helps them heal the best
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
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yes, was quite stingy, now im just buying things i never wouldve bought before deciding to do this, the only reason im careful with my money now is because i want my family to be able to use whatevers left to put towards a funeral for me where they can celebrate my life in the way that helps them heal the best
Yeah, same in some ways, I never run out of things I want to buy. Wish you the best
 
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delinquentsandwich

professional dissociator
Jan 23, 2026
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yup

all future prospects have been abandoned
I keep buying snacks and food instead of cooking at home
buying stuff keeps giving me this bit of dopamine and it's addicting lol
 
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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
563
yup

all future prospects have been abandoned
I keep buying snacks and food instead of cooking at home
buying stuff keeps giving me this bit of dopamine and it's addicting lol
Yeah, it's too addicting, buying/ ordering stuff gives you just enough dopamine, so that you want to do it again and again
 
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limenlux

limenlux

Impermanent
Jul 12, 2026
264
My spending actually decreased as my mental state and physical health began declining, as fewer and fewer things held any appeal to me. I managed to work full-time for nearly two years after my initial diagnosis, so my savings benefitted tremendously, and kept me going for awhile after I could no longer work. It's long gone now, of course.

Having said all that, if I acquired a comfortable sum of money, after securing my necessities I would buy a Switch 2 and a pile of games with which to distract myself before whatever miserable end befalls me, so there would be a modicum of reckless spending.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,083
Yes, because I'm planning to CTB. Since these are all my last meals, I'm going to have what I want.
 

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