Did you have dreams?

[Death is beautiful]

I had dreams of a successful life until I realized that I was good for nothing, it's terrible

 

[WonderlandsFallen]

Yes, I was a dreamer since I was very young. I would always imagine, foolishly, that I was special. I thought that I was somehow better and that good would just come to me.

Now, I sit here on a suicide forum while everyone else has their own families and beautiful weddings. They're productive members of society and I spend all day in bed. I haven't amounted to much and that kills me inside.

 

[Bleak]

Mostly dreamed of wife and kids. Careerwise wanted to be a musician or a comedian. Now all I look forward to basically is binging games and porn on the weekend. But that gets old after about a day.

 

[Callie Arcale]

I achieved what I had set out to accomplish in life by the time I was 30 (in terms of education, career, friends, travelling and having a relationship). But sadly I was always obsessed with not being good enough, so I wasn't genuinly happy.

Then, just as I was getting older, wiser and starting to enjoy the fruits of my labour, I lost it all to severe, chronic illness.

That's life for you.

 

[Velvet Fortress]

Yes, I was a dreamer since I was very young. I would always imagine, foolishly, that I was special. I thought that I was somehow better and that good would just come to me.

Now, I sit here on a suicide forum while everyone else has their own families and beautiful weddings. They're productive members of society and I spend all day in bed. I haven't amounted to much and that kills me inside.

This pretty much summarizes my own experience. I was told my entire childhood that I was gifted to the point where I believed it, when in reality I was being groomed to excel in school by my father, so much so that my teachers were fooled into making me skip a grade.

When he left I started completely failing in school and getting bullied. I was finding comfort in my false identity around giftedness, thinking that my situation didn't matter because I eventually was going to do great thing. Thought about all sorts of careers, pursued different paths, completely failed at all of them

My greatest accomplishments these days as a full grown adult are medals in Halo and getting out of bed

My dreams nowadays are going from having normal conversations with people and hugging someone I love to flying down my local bridge

I make myself cringe just writing this ffs

 

[Life sucks]

I had way many dreams and that's the same as having none. There are a lot of things to do and no enough time and resources. But what are or were my dreams? It depends on the type of dreams.
There are things like learning languages like Japanese, learning arts, music and drawing, I accomplished those, I'm not expert and actually beginner in some stuff but I reached my goal and learned something instead of knowing nothing. actually I question myself why I did that because it feels pointless when I'm in pain and I want to exit life and actually nobody cares about whatever I do.

There were some impossible dreams like playing games and watching anime endlessly by controlling time and repeating it but time always moves, also having the first experience repeated again.

I wanted to be a scientist but I lost interest because science and any form of knowledge told me life sucks.

There are way more but it looks like my dreams are dying with me and I tried to stop dreaming, however.....

I just recently got a new dream, why is life torturing me?

 

[Darkover]

everything i ever dream of is impossible, like having a computer with infinite computing power the things we could build with that it would set imagination free, but what do any men with power want more power, and with more power becomes more responsibilities with infinite computing power available it would be really easy to create a AI or even find away to destroy all life on the planet.

 

[Wrennie]

My dreams normally involve me dying, yet somehow still existing after the fact.
…But the consequences of the death of my physical form remain. I maintain consciousness and self awareness as I rot, trying to inconspicuously navigate the world, but evoking fear and revulsion in all that encounter me. I suppose it's not quite different from my current circumstances. I'm essentially already a sentient corpse.

 

[Rahul]

I have been dreaming for years of being hugely successful in life and have a loving romantic partner. I realised too late that all of it was wishful thinking and all I am good at it just fantasizing. It feels like fraud, the fact that I don't have what it takes to achieve those dreams. My condition makes it impossible to accomplish even normal tasks. The constant degrading feeling every day is just too much.

 

[waitingforrest]

I used to, but I gave up a long time ago.

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

Ive always had dreams, theyve been revised down to be more realistic since I was a kid but I just want a good job that pays well and doesnt overwork me. I want to be able to afford a nice house and my (relatively expensive) hobbies. Have some cats, be happy, idk.

My issue is that my dreams seem out of reach, ill never be happy

 

[charlie_z]

For most part of my life I was delusional, thinking that I was capable of doing anything I wanted as long as I worked hard for it.I realized a little too late that you need good IQ, innate skill and excellent mental health to make your dreams a reality.

That used to be the American Mythos: work hard and keep your nose clean, and you can achieve anything. Of course, that's really always been a myth. When I was young, I dreamt of becoming an accomplished expert in my area of interest. But there I was, a person with an average IQ, little real innate skill in my field, and miserable mental health. No, no dreams for me.

 

[8AEM]

I stopped dreaming once I began to realize I'd probably fail and have my soul be crushed.

 

[DynamicDepression]

Sorry to bump an old thread, but I wanted to share my shattered dream as well. I hope that's alright.

My dream was to be a writer. To write screenplays for games, television series, and films. I've always loved writing stories, creating worlds, and developing characters. But with the invention of advanced Natural Language Processing software like GPT-3, I can see the writing on the wall. I doubt I would ever get a job as a writer if I stayed alive, especially not with the way the entertainment industry is going. Already most writing decisions are made by checking the data for what the audience wants. Does it matter that most writing today is garbage? Not really, most people seem happy to consume whatever.

You know, it would be one thing to be replaced by a superior mind, but by a glorified autocomplete? That's just cruel.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

All fucking time. It's exhausting and hopeless. It is not enough to think about the same thing all day long, and I still have to dream about it. I just wanted some peace of mind at least in my sleep.

 

[fatefulstillness]

I sort of still do, I'm just not really attached to them anymore. They won't change where I'm going.

 

[sealbabies]

The love of my life gave me dreams for the future.... but the dream was that we'd do them together. Now he's dead, so it's just cruel.
I even tried a bit after he passed to achieve some of them, but the hole in my heart just grew and throbbed with more pain.
No purpose if he can't enjoy them with me.

 

[BigGimpin]

I have insomnia, only sleep 4 hours on a GOOD night, really average like 1-2 is all letely. Instead of "sleeping" I fall right into a gnarly almost HD 3d movie, they are so vivid I can remember every little detail. Then with a shake I snap out of it and have no idea I was every "sleeping" it was just a dream.

Couple months ago was really bad, I slept like 2 nights in the month of November. I have no clue how I didnt lose my mind, or maybe I have?