Help Despite the crippling pain and trauma I don't want to die anymore

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

I don't believe dying at 25 is a good/happy ending. Maybe it's blind will to live but I was given this one chance to experience. I've had all the family I care for die in the past 2 years, ostracized from my friendgroup, and spend 8 consecutive months bashing my head against the wall in an involuntary stay at a psych ward after expression a desire and plan to commit. My mental illness hasn't ever been as bad but I would like to somehow move on from everything that happened and live a long life (as improbable as that seems right now).

 

[jinx <3]

I know the feeling of wanting to live despite everything. Sucks what you've been through. I hope all goes well for you from now on and that you do live a long, good life. You deserve it <3.

 

[Kit1]

I don't believe dying at 25 is a good/happy ending. Maybe it's blind will to live but I was given this one chance to experience. I've had all the family I care for die in the past 2 years, ostracized from my friendgroup, and spend 8 consecutive months bashing my head against the wall in an involuntary stay at a psych ward after expression a desire and plan to commit. My mental illness hasn't ever been as bad but I would like to somehow move on from everything that happened and live a long life (as improbable as that seems right now).

Have you thought about looking at the Recovery section?

 

[tidal1]

I'm 25 as well, and I haven't been through half of that, but lately despite procuring all the materials, I have decided to keep on chugging on. At least they're always there for whenever I might need them. I wish you the best, and I hope you find the happiness you deserve.