Venting I can't handle it anymore, unbearably painful, i should've killed myself when i was 12, i wanna die

[DragMeIntoPlace911]

Guys, is there anyway to CBT with something cheap, instant, and accessible like a knife?

I had no interest of living anymore, I don't care if my creations laugh at me when I die, I want it instant so I don't have time to watch myself go, ASAP

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Guys send help I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE

 

[Fadenself00_]

Cutting is generally considered a non-method.
We are also not allowed to suggest methods to you. There are a lot of resources here on the site, if you do decide to look for them.

I hope you can maybe find another way to get out of your situation that does not involve having to kill yourself

 

[MessyNonsense]

Well... yes. A knife would probably be the most cheap, instant (to acquire), and accessible option. There are numerous ways to ctb with a knife. However---and this is a big however---i will give you two reasons why a knife is a bad idea (collected from my knowledge acquired after browsing this site for quite a while):

• If you don't do some anatomy research and find the exact right artery in your neck or something, you could very well survive. Even if you do end up dying, you're highly likely to be suffering for a long time beforehand. It won't be pleasant.
• SI will almost definitely kick in and you won't be able to go through with it anyway, or you'll back out halfway through and end up with a non-fatal wound, a big mess, a nasty scar, and a bunch of people asking questions and likely trying to hospitalize you.

I'm sorry to be the voice of practicality. I'm sure it's the last thing you'll want to hear. And i'm not trying to scare you. I'm really sorry you're in so much pain. Don't make yourself be in more pain just because you didn't take a little time to plan things out and do it right.
If you can't take it anymore, do whatever you can to calm down. Drink some alcohol if that's your thing, take some benzos or other meds or smoke some weed or do another drug or literally whatever will get you out of "immediate fight/flight mode" so you can think about shit rationally. If you decide that CTBing is what you need to do, then we'll support you, but a quick look around this site will give you tons of examples about why rushing things is not the way to go.