Help Desperate

[msnfjekxn]

Hi guys, Ive decided that I will commit by SN, but it will take around one or two weeks at most for it to arrive. I was truly desperate and hopeful theres anyone kind enough or willing to spend these two weeks with me, to talk, to anything. Anyone, truly. I dont really know what to do until I cbt with my time, I cant muster the energy to get out of my bed, I feel like I cant just do anything, even doomscrolling on tiktok due to seeing the painful contrast between other peoples lifes and mine, I also barely eat or drink anything anymore. I dont know what I can do in these two weeks, I dont have anyone, Ive stayed at home and was just simply rotting, but I still have to go to school and I live with my mother since Im 19 and I havent finished high school. I dont know if I should keep studying, I dont know if I should keep pretending that Im fine, but I think I have to until the SN arrives, right? Please, if anyone would want to talk about anything, vent, Id listen, maybe through Discord or anything. I just really dont want to be alone during these two weeks. Please.

 

[yotaka]

I'm so sorry you're going through so much pain. For what it's worth, my advice is that you keep studying, keep living your life right up to the end. After all, why not?

And I'm sure you're going to get more of this, but I'm going to put it out there anyway: 19 is very young. There are still so many options available to you. I won't tell you what to do; just some unsolicited thoughts.

I'm wishing you the very best

 

[msnfjekxn]

I'm so sorry you're going through so much pain. For what it's worth, my advice is that you keep studying, keep living your life right up to the end. After all, why not?

And I'm sure you're going to get more of this, but I'm going to put it out there anyway: 19 is very young. There are still so many options available to you. I won't tell you what to do; just some unsolicited thoughts.

I'm wishing you the very best

Thank you so much for your kindness . I havent heard words like that in so long, Im kind of tearing up. I really wish there was another way, but I just cant, I have a chronic condition that affects my daily life to the point where I cant do any type of activity anymore, I really wish there was another way, anything. But I dont want to live a miserable life where Im forced to work around it just to be able to live "normally". I cant explain how much pain it brings me daily. Whats also a bit troubling is that Im almost constantly shaking and anxious now that I know Im gonna die, but its fine, Ill pull through. Also, thank you so much for the advice, I think Im gonna try to live these last two weeks normally. Its probably the better choice.

 

[.vanilla]

We can talk!

 

[throwawayghm]

Yea sure man im down to talk or do whatever I kinda understand shits fucking terrifying even if its what you want to do feel free to hit me up

 

[inconclusivesorbet]

Keep studying; do the social performance. Do you live in the states

 

[msnfjekxn]

Keep studying; do the social performance. Do you live in the states

No, unfortunately, I live in Europe. And yeah, I think thats what Ill probably do

We can talk!

Really? Thank you so much, is there a way to chat on this forum or do you have Discord maybe or anything?

 

[.vanilla]

No, unfortunately, I live in Europe. And yeah, I think thats what Ill probably do

Really? Thank you so much, is there a way to chat on this forum or do you have Discord maybe or anything?

I don't think you have the proper amount of messages to chat on the forum yet, but you can give me your discord and I can make an account on there

 

[msnfjekxn]

Yea sure man im down to talk or do whatever I kinda understand shits fucking terrifying even if its what you want to do feel free to hit me up

Thanks so much for understanding. I didnt expect people to actually want to talk, this is so nice

I don't think you have the proper amount of messages to chat on the forum yet, but you can give me your discord and I can make an account on there

Okay, I thought so too, my username is connormgriffith

 

[throwawayghm]

Thanks so much for understanding. I didnt expect people to actually want to talk, this is so nice

Okay, I thought so too, my username is connormgriffith

Np I was literally in your shoes about a month ago so yea didnt go how I wanted it to so im still here
Btw sent you a friend request on discord